boogles

I hate everything

every cigarette tastes the same as the one I smoked for the first time with you no matter how many I have smoked since this is not about cigarettes

who cares but I was never the same again and I knew that I will never be the same again and truly believed it in but who cares it's all over now 31012026

21st basically

I think we kissed on 20th ? it just makes sense ig 20th nov wow it's been long

so I have come a long way and a longer way awaits me that's all I understand

at the end every time I wish I was different so much more different than I am and I wonder why (11012026)

so maybe one day you will have the courage to be my friend again or maybe one day I will be no chalant enough to not care at all

maybe it's a sign to get over the past if I can't remember it then it doesn't matter and the future has something more promising for which there is a space in my heart and the gaps in my memory

26 though and I will begin again though it's harder now and I have no hold or anchor

wish we become friends again clean state from the beginning wish I could be charismatic enough to make you notice the absence like you do for me

wish I could have been better wish I could apologise wish you knew