Uncharted Moments

is by the person who went through it all. You never saw it coming, I didn't either. The Great out weighed all the bad, and here we are now. There was never any problems until now. Everything that was said was stated for it's own purpose. To defend you and your honor, to show her insecurities, and to make me look like a dumb ass to even really believe anything you've ever said to me was true. 

Guess you know now what its like to be in the douchbag roll, something you said that you could never be. Well here it is right in front of your face and towards someone who did nothing but nice things for you and was there for you when needbe.

I don't regret anything  just so you know, just like I said I would never hate you.  You're regret is enough for the both of us, and your Gfs hatred towards me is enough to spread around the world. I might have been the biggest best mistake/regret in the world to you, but at least you thought about me, and thought it over several times to make that decision. I'm glad I could be apart of that.

You are an Honest person, I never doubted you for one second, I never not trusted you, I believed everything you said when stated. I just wanted to let you know that even with all this, i still appreciate you for everything you have done for me, vulnerability at its finest and you were there to catch me. this is why i say i cant hate you or regret you. the little things that's what matters to me.

my advice to you:

whatever it is....

its my fault, I didn't tell you anything. It's my fault that I can't talk to you. I strongly believe that we don't really have that connection. I really don't know what it is, I really don't and I can't help this feeling. There is more irritation then there is peace.  Might be the different life styles we have. My morals and standards aren't right there with you. We both live in a the same world but our lives are separate, running parallel to each other it only comes together for certain occasions but that's it. Ever wonder why when we're in a room we're on opposite ends. Ever wonder why we talk to the same people but on different notes and different times. There are commonalities, but that's about it.

Growing and being stronger isn't about relying on anyone but yourself. Drop the bad habit, quit complaining and just do. If nothing right is going your way do one better and change it for the better. Make it a point to be that strong independent person that you want to be/that you make yourself out to be. You can't be happy with someone else if you aren't happy with yourself. 

as I read it, all of the emotions  of that moment came rushing back to me. " I love you till my heart stops beating and even after!" sounds like a quote from a movie. I was in love and devastated that it was over. As i continued on reading, i felt my blood start to boil. I was defiantly hurt.

When I got to the end I sighed a great sigh. Only because it was a sigh of relief. A REASSURING MOMENT that I am HAPPY! IM ACTUALLY REALLY HAPPY!  I was asked the other day by someone who I hold close to my heart "If you could, would you have changed anything?"  My instant response was "NO, I'm better off, and better then I was before."

Everything that I was feeling, everything that I had gone through. The love, the Hurt, the Pain, losing friends and gaining friends, seeing who had my back and the ones who didn't. It was all there, STEPS of PROGRESSION. It was never easy, It really wasn't, I had amazing days and I had really bad days, it all came in waves. You know how if you were in a laundromat and you're watching the cloths spin around in the giant washing machine, all your cloths spinning around... the calm moments of the rinse cycle, and the vigorous spinning nearing the end of the cycle, that is exactly how my days were. 

I know you're probably wondering, why i'm talking about this past moment? Its to bring up the fact that, In due time, our misfoutunes bring to life Realization's and MY REALIZATION is exactly what I stated earlier "IM HAPPY!" Things might not be perfect, but they can be Amazing! You just have to get in the right mindset. Realize you can't please everyone, Know that whatever it is that your doing... you're doing it for yourself and no one else! Be Honest with your feelings, even if you feel like you might be hurting someone, Its better to be Honest then to get caught up in a lie. 

One day you'll meet someone whose life was once running parallel to yours. Events will happen and you'll never really know this person. You could be stepping in and out of the same room and not even know it. One of these days the cosmic stars will line up for you two and you'll finally meet. In that moment there would be a big bang, small to you both, but little do you know its bigger then you think.

welcoming each other; into each others worlds, you find that there isn't anything you can hide from one another. You probably might not even know it but, you're lives have finally collided and you feel whole, healed, and intact. Scared of this feeling, you try to detour away from it; but, like a magnet you're drawn back. Interested,because you feel as if the pieces of the puzzle that was missing has been found.

people are meant to cross each others paths, to be acquaintances, good friends, lovers, and destiny. I've always known that I was destined to do something great, experience all the things that i have gone through, be strong for myself, and show love to others regardless of my faults and failures or their faults and failures. Unconditional.

Right now, i have come to a crossing of paths with someone with whom; since I've met, has brought to life the The 10 Elements of a Soulmate. To be honest i have never thought something like this was possible. Not everyone comes across this, and let alone with my luck with guys, it would be me. Everyone usually just settles for what they feel is perfect for them. Granted no one is perfect. But the way I feel for this person and in knowing them for such a short time span its actually pretty amazing.

The giddy feeling, and uncertainty of not knowing how to actually feel. The,"I don't know what it is about you, but its something and it makes me happy." How easy it is to just speak to each other with out hiding anything. To recollect a moment from the past and feel like this person was there with you. DeJa vu. When you don't mind the flaws, and in being around them you don't nit-pick. When there are those moments where one is struggling, they pick each other up, work it out and things be come better. Its an intense feeling, with no regrets. you share everything, mind body and soul. you can be a million of miles away and still share the same emotion. You try to walk away because the feelings are so intense, it's really scary, but when you do walk away, you can't. This non-existing person has been realized and you can't imagine not having them in your lives again. Its meant to be.