More Than Mumbles.

Me looking at my latteart.

I'm tired of working so much and learning so little. My feet are tired. And she asks me what I want

I say I don't know, but it's a life.

I want to have a life, my life back.

And I can't have a life without myself even being present in my own life. I can't even have a moment to think for myself .

And here I am thinking for myself

I want my own business, run my own way.

I could take over places because I know that I am capable , but I'm still figuring out what I want to do.

For myself. I need to look up what a business plan is and figure it out for myself.

I can't even be present with myself with out the fear of hearing something I think I don't want to hear within myself.

In turn I am running from myself again.

And I'm working even more than I have so that I can leave this place I think I'm just going to call out the rest of the week..

But how can we have our own time , when we are working every day for a company with no health care. No benefits, no pto, no extra compensation for the back breaking hours. I'm 😴

Remember when I was scared of being gay, Im trying not to be scared of myself anymore.

Stop being so passive.

Stop being so force less.