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missing my husband sm :( but!! with the end of jjk being about a week ago now, i thought i'd maybs begin writing again idk
also!! this is set in an au where geto doesn't defect bc i cannot be doing that rn šand it was written last minute so be kindddd plsplsplspls
but yesss!! i hope you enjoy it and sorry for the millionth time for not posting much lmao
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"i hate this," geto mumbled from beneath the sheer amount of blankets you had piled on top of him. "i hate that you and satoru are still going on missions while i'm still... like this."
you were busying around geto's room, half listening to your boyfriend and half focusing on tidying up the uncared-for clothes and the piles of tissues that had begun to cascade around his bin. it had been just thirty minutes since you had entered the room, and he had continued to grumble and complain about being ill.
you understood! you truly, truly did! but after ten minutes and the unintelligible grievances from your boyfriend, along with the scratchiness of his throat, you were more sympathetic to his voice than to the fact he was forced to take a break from being a sorcerer.
"suguru." you sighed, your voice having a soft but noticeable edge to it. "i love you, so, so, so much..."
with those words, you settled the stack of clothes down on geto's desk and approached his bed. there, where he was lying under the mountain of pillows, blankets, and practically anything else that had some sort of comfort value, he gazed up at you ā not unappreciative of the affection but knowing that you were about to say something else.
"... but please, please just accept that you're not gonna go on missions until you're better again. being sad and holding a grudge against your own body is a tad ridiculous, honey."
the room was silent for a long moment: geto clearly trying to find a way to respond to you as his mouth opened and closed a couple of times. it was, after another pause, that he finally shut his mouth, sharply squinting at you. "you're so lucky you're you, and not satoru."
raising an eyebrow, you squatted down to geto's bedside, humming in partial agreement. kissing your boyfriend's forehead, you smirked slightly. "sometimes i think you'd prefer me to be satoru."
little to say, the pillows you had previously piled on suguru quickly weighed down on you instead.
this only took me like,,, four months to complete this š but i hope you enjoy!!
other parts ; n.kento, g.satoru, g.suguruć ¤i.yuuji, f.megumić ¤i.toge, o.yuuta
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k.choso
the loml choso (not including all the other lomls)!!
but anyway!!! choso is an absolute sweetheart, as long as you're not fighting against him in a battle or anything
he 10000% would do pretty much anything and everything to make you happy or to just make you smile
he loves you sm it makes other people cringe... you two are definitelyyy the couple people see in public and slightly grimace at because they're so in love
he'd probably do subtle pda but if you don't like that sort of stuff, he wouldn't do it!! he loves you too much to make you uncomfortable and push your boundaries
he's basically like a typical gentleman?? like when people say that men aren't like how they used to be, choso is their ideal man!!!
summary: he's so in love and whipped for you
but it's vvvvv endearing!!!
i think, as soon as you two begin officially seeing each other, he'll want to introduce you to his brothers and get their opinion on you too
they mean the world to him and he would probably love nothing more than for the people he loves most to also be friends!!
someone help me the older brother issues are realll
but yeah, he's just a sweetheart and would worship you like a god if you asked him to <3 (he does that without you asking š¤)
choso would also go along with whatever you say 99% of the time!! the 1% off is when it endangers you lmao
if you call him some dumb nickname or do the trend where you call a s/o the most random things, he will genuinely take it as a compliment so seriously that it makes your heart hurt
he's a bitttt naive, but you love him!! and he definitely loves you omg
z.naoya
i hate his personality but he's hot š so!! this is gonna be kind of ooc for him icl
dating naoya issss.... interesting? he's got a unique character for sure
realistically, you probably wouldn't see him that often assuming that he's a full-time sorcerer and you are a housewife (or househusband!!)
but, the times that you do see him, you are both so sappy and touchy with each other, no matter who or what is around
naoya is spoiled, so it doesn't come as a surprise to know that he has always been able to get what he wants, and that nothing has changed since he was a child
with this in mind, he would definitely not be shy about pda, unless you're both in a proper environment like a clan meeting i guess...
he probably wouldn't even let you in there though š his superiority complex is off the charts
pleaseee start training him to not act like a creep
leading on from this!! naoya would treat you like a princess if you're both truly in love, and would stop at nothing to get you what you want!
you mentioned that you would like the garden to be redesigned so that you can plant more flowers? done! the kitchen isn't to your standards? it's gone before you can look at it for another second!
suddenly you understand why he is the way he is, because if this is the life he's been living, it's 100% worth it lmao
i also feel like naoya has tunnel vision for you!!
like, let's say that he's come home from exorcising a curse, or from a particularly hard mission, and being more impolite to the servants than normal as he literally hunts you down in your own home
he lowkey scares you but not in a bad way?? he's just kind of intimidating sometimes, without meaning to be!
overall, naoya would probably be a good s/o to have!! as long as he loves you š
(some of) the jujutsu kaisen cast as bastille songs (from 'all this bad blood')
notes!!
i love bastille sm so i thought, why not?? also there are spoilers of shibuya arc and most recent manga chapters!!!
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pompeii
this could pretty much be any character icl, but i feel like it's mainly yuuji?? just cos its still such a weirdly positive song for how dark the lyrics actually are. that said, it could also be gojo,, mainly just because i feel like he would be able to see the parallels between megumi, yuuji, and nobara compared to his own high school friend group, and he seems reminiscent like 89% of the time.
things we lost in the fire
nanami. JOKING... kind of. but seriously, i feel like it fits yuuji again because poor boy is going through it especially in the whole of the shibuya arc??
bad blood
idk why but i just feel like megumi would listen to bad blood? and also cos of the semantics of the lyrics!! basically it's the breakdown of a relationship, and i think it could def be applied to him and his childhood. and it could also be applied to the whole thing he has with sukuna and everything that he's done while being possessed(?),, and the deterioration of his relationship with himself.
overjoyed
this song is sosososooo angsty like?? but yeah, it fits all three gojo and geto and shoko!! it probs most applies to gojo and his feelings/emotions towards geto after his departure and the mass murdering thing he did. def a song i would sob to icl
weight of living
this fits nanami and shoko scarily well, like you can't convince me otherwise. those two with their eyebags and stuff definitelyyyy have heavier emotional baggage than they let on about their friends and death and stuff. that's ignoring that they're canonically the heaviest drinkers or wtv!!!
oblivion
oblivion is heavily implied to follow the story of a couple (whether platonic or romantic) where one is thinking about the other and the loss of them. it's vvv emotional and probs something that gojo would never listen to unless he was alone and properly in a sad mood, but it fits them scarily well imo.
get home
it fits nanami weirdly well? along with gojo (but, at this point, pretty much every song fits him lol), megumi, and yuuta i think? megumi mainly because of his lack of current ambition to continue living, and all that he's been through recently. and then yuuta fits this song in the period around rika dying?
poet
I LOVE THIS SONG SM okay, so i think it fits yuuta!!! like the period of time just after jjk0 where he sees rika for the final time and accepts her death and all that came with it. but it's definitely a more positive song, and could also acknowledge his development as he gains friends and accepts his new version of life!
what would you do
the woman being described in this kind of reminds me of toji, but i don't know if thats me being delusional about him actually trying to be a good father. the speaker would probably represent gojo, but him as a teenager as it kind of seems like a more immature pov.
skulls
this song is literally depicting a couple as they stay together, even after death so it doesn't need to be said butttt, gojo and geto for sure!! along with nanami and haibara i think too!
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firefighter! yuuji who first met you, his now-lover, when your cat was stuck up the tree courtesy of your new neighbour's children. of course, they didn't mean any harm, but that didn't change the fact that they had chased your poor cat up a tree in an attempt to pet it. however, all your aggravation melts when you make eye contact with yuuji as he directs his friend to get out their truck's ladder.
firefighter! yuuji who approaches you with your cat snuggled in his arms once he has retrieved it, all of the children and his partner leaving the scene. you can't help but admire his features under the dimming sun: the way that his eyes squint as he smiles a smile that rivals the sun, and the way that his arms are slightly tensed so that they are just visible.
firefighter! yuuji who hands you your cat back with a charming grin, stating that he would love to see you again soon, just in better circumstances. of course, you agree and quickly jot down your number on the back of his hand. you two were both lovestruck, as yuuji's co-worker and onlooker to the scene would later claim, but it was okay. because it was you and yuuji.
firefighter! yuuji who can't wait to call you, so much so that he does so later that evening. unbothered by any thoughts of being needy or too keen, yuuji ends up talking to you for several hours about miscellaneous stuff and you both quickly and mutually agree that you need to spend more time together. there seemed to be something so uncommon (yet not unwanted) that made you both so enamoured by each other within only a few hours of meeting.
firefighter! yuuji who can't help but admire you whenever and wherever you are. it doesn't matter if you're at home or on the train, yuuji will not forget to admire all of your features: whether you find them pleasant or not. and, whilst he does understand that you have insecurities, he simply cannot agree that any part of you is any less than perfection.
note | small blurb, wrote this at 4 am so sorry for any mistakes
Itās early in the hours of the day when Inumaki wakes up on his own. The sky is still dark, but the sun is just about to peak past the horizon, giving the sky a soft blue color that hints at its arrival.
Inumaki turns in his bed, now facing you. With your eyes closed and your lips slightly parted, he couldnāt help but think about how absolutely adorable you looked right now. As time ticked by and his eyes never left you, he began to feel the urge to squeeze you, lovingly, of course. He tried to resist, not wanting to interrupt your much-needed rest, but he couldnāt help it, slowly raising his hands to cup your cheeks. The sudden warmth from his hands feels nice, causing you to unconsciously nuzzle into them. He gives a few squeezes, watching as your cheeks squish between his hands.
The movement causes you to slowly open your eyes, meeting Inumakiās own violet eyes. āGood morning.ā You smile, struggling to keep your eyes open. As much as your body begged you to go back to sleep, you wanted to admire your lover for a little while longer.
Inumaki kept his eyes on you as he felt a warmth begin to bloom in his chest. Gently, he pulls you closer and begins to pepper your face with kisses. The sudden affection catches you off guard and causes you to laugh. āWhatās gotten into you?ā
He doesnāt answer, instead wrapping his arms around your waist and pulling you close. He buries his face in your neck as he squeezes you. Still confused, you wrap your arms around him to return his hug. You were beginning to grow a little concerned when he didnāt let go. āToge? Are you okay? Did you have a nightmare?ā
āOkaka.ā
If possible, he squeezed you even tighter. As much as you appreciated the affection, you were beginning to suffocate. āToge, love,ā you pat his back, āas much as I love this, I canāt breathe.ā
Hearing your words, Inumaki loosens his grip, looking up to meet your gaze. āSeriously though, whatās gotten into you? You sure youāre okay?ā You ask softly, running your fingers through his hair. He pulls away for a moment to sign to you.
āJust wanted to give you hugs and kisses.ā
You canāt help but giggle at his reasoning. āSeriously? Thatās why you almost crushed me to death?ā
Inumaki huffed, tightening his grip on you once again. You laugh before wrapping your arms around him and kissing his head. āI donāt mind, just try not to kill me next time.ā
the third part of my "dating headcanons" series! ages ago, i got an ask for me to do more, but i kind of lost it :( i hope you like it though!!
other parts ; n.kento, g.satoru, g.suguruć ¤i.yuuji, f.megumić ¤k.choso, z.naoya
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i.toge
so, it's no secret that i highly favour toge out of every character in jjk, but i promiseeeee it's (kind of) for good reason
like, he just seems so sweet, can you really blame me?? and him as your boYFRIEND??? sign me up š¤
in terms of how you would treat each other, i feel like all of your classmates would be sick of just how much you love each other lol
like, they'll be sitting outside or training and look over to you and toge when neither of you have said anything for a while, only to see the two of you cuddling and sharing your food
however!!!! you both know the time and place to do such things, and often only engage in that sort of pda when you want to purposefully annoy the others (mainly maki) or when either of you is tired
the others won't admit it but they do sometimes find you two cute
you probably sneak away from your group of friends when you're all watching a film to just go to one of your rooms and relax (maybe do skin care or just chat about your days)
you both are a sort of therapy to each other, but in a healthy way where you can joke about it whilst being supportive of each other's struggles
sometimes, when toge is insecure about his cursed speech or how communication in general is sometimes a trouble for him, he'll come to you for cuddles (which you obvs give cos who wouldn't??) and just confirmation that he is enough
those times are when you both adore each other more than you thought was possible <33
apart from that,, i feel like you would organise, at least once a week, to go out together
whether that's just walking, or visiting a cafe, or getting lunch at a store, it's the day that you both have together and one where you get to actually act like your ages!!!
even though you both think it's a secret, the other students are more than aware that you go out but also don't care enough to tell anyone or stalk you two
they secretly think it's sweet
but yeah, the two of you are a really wholesome couple?? but you're both way more chaotic when you're around the others lol
o.yuuta
so, regarding your relationship with yuuta, it starts off a bit rocky??
like, with the whole thing with rika and her as his first love and her curse, yuuta is more than cautious when he recognises that he likes you
you'd probably have to make the first move: reassuring him that no, he wasn't going to curse you with his love and that you were more than okay with entering a relationship with him
he's still scared, but is also aware that if not now, when?
there's quite a few hurdles in your relationship to begin with
like,,, yuuta was basically isolated and bullied for a good part of his childhood and now?? it was a sudden leap (but obvs not unwelcome)
but once you two have overcome those problems and you're both more comfortable and secure when speaking to each other, your relationship really begins to blossom!! <33
you probably both spar and train together regularly
at first it was so that you could help yuuta quickly improve his combat skills, but it soon turned into you both helping each other out in certain aspects
another reason why you trained together so often was obviously so that you could hang out without the others questioning or being nosy about your relationship
with toge and panda, along with their curiosity, i could envision them trying to find out where you both were going and lowkey interrogating and cornering yuuta when he's getting ready (but in a joking way!!)
they often end up being chased away by maki who just wants both you and yuuta to be more confident in dating each other already
no matter her cause, both you and yuuta are thankful towards her lolol
when you do go out, i feel like you'd just go for walks in the local park and feel ducks, or something quite peaceful
with your lifestyles, i mean... you wouldn't complain if you both do something quite relaxing and calm for once
also watching sunsets and sunrises together has become a hobby for you!!!
idk,, you and yuuta have a very normal relationship?? but in a way that just makes you love each other more and appreciate the smaller things in your lives <333
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seatmate! megumi who lends you a pencil, or pen, or rubber, or sharpener whenever you forget yours. he'll rarely acknowledge your reaction: silently handing it over to you as though it was yours to begin with. megumi never asks for it back either, brushing off your attempts to return his items with a small "you can keep it."
seatmate! megumi who helps you with anything you're stuck on with little-to-no asking from you. instead, he just simply sides a bit closer to you (his worksheet in hand, and his eyes set on how you're anxiously biting your lip) and lays his notes between the two of you: openly providing you with the answers. sure, megumi will make a half-joking comment about you being dumb but he'll secretly be thankful for the opportunity to talk to you.
seatmate! megumi who, whenever your teacher is picking on people randomly and you don't know the answer, will subtly murmur it under his breath, just loud enough for you to hear. after the whole ordeal (where you answered correctly thanks to megumi!!) you'll turn to thank him, only to notice that he's already looking at you with the ghost of a smile lining his lips.
seatmate! megumi who, after liking you from afar for so long, is taken aback when you suddenly confess your wishes to go to a cafe with him. his mouth opens and closes for a minute like a fish before he regains his facade of coolness and warily nods his head. his acceptance is obviously rich with hesitance, his fear of you pranking him ripe, but he chastises himself when he sees you waiting patiently at your planned cafe.
seatmate! megumi who has a dark pink blush coating his cheeks whenever he thinks of you, to the point where his friends nudge and tease him whenever you're within ten metres of them.
it's been literal months since i last spoke to you but!!!! i saw that you were back online and had exams soon, so i just want to wish you good luck!! <333 i hope you're doing well and not stressing too much lolol ā i'm sure you'll do amazing! :)
yeah imy <//3 AND TYSM! i suppose if i just studied and did my best then letās just forget about grades LMAO-
imy2 ā¹ļøš buttt!!! IM GOOD TY!! ive also got mock exams coming up but the studying is too relatable š praying, hoping, screaming that we both get at least passing grades lolol
I SEE. SO THAT MAKES US END UP ON THE SAME PAGE, AND EXACTLY. DEAR TEACHER, PLS GIVE ALL UR STUDENTS PASSING SCORES SO WE DONāT HAVE TO BE A COMPLETE MESS TAKING RETESTS AND RETESTS SOBS š¤§š±
manifesting high grades that are literally impossible to get but its okay bc the tiktok psychics said that id get them š¤ no but really, if all else fails, ill just get the chocolate to bribe our exam boards lolol
OHHHHHH nah nah donāt underestimate the tiktok physics, theyāve got some reputationsā do those man likes chocolate? i never knew that. do they prefer white, dark, milk, or orange chocolates? šš
just buy them some fancy brand of chocolate and some alcohol and theyre good lololol but yeah!! the tiktok psychics are kind of scarily accurare sometimes????
AND FOR CHOCOLATE, i kind of like all of them but in different moods?? like, if im sad or just regular, id have milk, when its winter i tend to go with dark chocolate, and in summer ā white chocolate! what abt you :)
(ALSO FLAVOURED CHOCOLATE IS SO GOOD??? TERRYS CHOCOLATE ORANGES???? they have my heart </333)
OMG I LOVE UR CUSTOMS. iām okay with all of em, milk is common but white is up to my current cravings. THOUGH, IF ITS COOKIES N CREAM CHOCOLATE AH YES ANYTIME šš„¹š«¶āØ do you prefer only chocolates orrrr youāre a fan of any sweets?
(IKR??? CHOCOLATES ARE JUST A RLLY GOOD COMBINATION WITH LIKEā oranges? yes. crackers? yes. marshmallows? yes. NAME āEM ALL <333333)
IVE TAKEN YEARS TO RESPOND TO THIS (IM SO SORRY š), BUTTTTT!!! OMG YES COOKIES AND CREAM!!! i dont really have a lot of available options for it in chocolate that are affordable in my country though ā¹ļø
to answer your question, i kind of prefer sweets i think... like chocolate can get a bit too sweet but sweets are so diverse!! THEY COULD BE SOUR, SWEET, SALTY???? LIKE OMG, watch me become a hoover as i eat them š¤ but also i love popcorn.
it's been literal months since i last spoke to you but!!!! i saw that you were back online and had exams soon, so i just want to wish you good luck!! <333 i hope you're doing well and not stressing too much lolol ā i'm sure you'll do amazing! :)
yeah imy <//3 AND TYSM! i suppose if i just studied and did my best then letās just forget about grades LMAO-
imy2 ā¹ļøš buttt!!! IM GOOD TY!! ive also got mock exams coming up but the studying is too relatable š praying, hoping, screaming that we both get at least passing grades lolol
I SEE. SO THAT MAKES US END UP ON THE SAME PAGE, AND EXACTLY. DEAR TEACHER, PLS GIVE ALL UR STUDENTS PASSING SCORES SO WE DONāT HAVE TO BE A COMPLETE MESS TAKING RETESTS AND RETESTS SOBS š¤§š±
manifesting high grades that are literally impossible to get but its okay bc the tiktok psychics said that id get them š¤ no but really, if all else fails, ill just get the chocolate to bribe our exam boards lolol
OHHHHHH nah nah donāt underestimate the tiktok physics, theyāve got some reputationsā do those man likes chocolate? i never knew that. do they prefer white, dark, milk, or orange chocolates? šš
just buy them some fancy brand of chocolate and some alcohol and theyre good lololol but yeah!! the tiktok psychics are kind of scarily accurare sometimes????
AND FOR CHOCOLATE, i kind of like all of them but in different moods?? like, if im sad or just regular, id have milk, when its winter i tend to go with dark chocolate, and in summer ā white chocolate! what abt you :)
(ALSO FLAVOURED CHOCOLATE IS SO GOOD??? TERRYS CHOCOLATE ORANGES???? they have my heart </333)
it's been literal months since i last spoke to you but!!!! i saw that you were back online and had exams soon, so i just want to wish you good luck!! <333 i hope you're doing well and not stressing too much lolol ā i'm sure you'll do amazing! :)
yeah imy <//3 AND TYSM! i suppose if i just studied and did my best then letās just forget about grades LMAO-
imy2 ā¹ļøš buttt!!! IM GOOD TY!! ive also got mock exams coming up but the studying is too relatable š praying, hoping, screaming that we both get at least passing grades lolol
I SEE. SO THAT MAKES US END UP ON THE SAME PAGE, AND EXACTLY. DEAR TEACHER, PLS GIVE ALL UR STUDENTS PASSING SCORES SO WE DONāT HAVE TO BE A COMPLETE MESS TAKING RETESTS AND RETESTS SOBS š¤§š±
manifesting high grades that are literally impossible to get but its okay bc the tiktok psychics said that id get them š¤ no but really, if all else fails, ill just get the chocolate to bribe our exam boards lolol
it's been literal months since i last spoke to you but!!!! i saw that you were back online and had exams soon, so i just want to wish you good luck!! <333 i hope you're doing well and not stressing too much lolol ā i'm sure you'll do amazing! :)
yeah imy <//3 AND TYSM! i suppose if i just studied and did my best then letās just forget about grades LMAO-
imy2 ā¹ļøš buttt!!! IM GOOD TY!! ive also got mock exams coming up but the studying is too relatable š praying, hoping, screaming that we both get at least passing grades lolol
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this contains angst w/ no comfort!!! be warned, and also the reader and gojo are both kind of mean to each other??
this post also contains swearing and some spoilers in terms of geto and gojo, and it also heavily implies that gojo romantically loved geto (canon divergence?)
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you had had a long day by the time you returned home. it wasn't any different from your usual day where you would get up, shower, go to work, come home, eat, and sleep, but it didn't make it any less tiring. you were tired: of the repetitive schedule, of the hilariously horrifying amount of work you were enlisted to do, and of the white-haired male that you called your boyfriend.
"didn't expect to see you so soon." you commented after noticing gojo splaying out over your sofa. "aren't you meant to be teaching or on a mission right now?"
there was a long pause, filled with nothing but the soft sounds of the evening breeze rustling your blinds. this awkward silence was nothing new, you returning to it every day at 5pm, but it took some time to get used to. after all, gojo never used to go to your apartment but rather to someone else's.
it took a while before your boyfriend said anything, his figure stagnant on the couch. though (after a couple more seconds as you removed your shoes and coat) he shifted so that he was now facing the ceiling. "the kids are on a mission together. for the experience."
"gojo!" you agitated voice rung out as you hastily paced towards his place on the sofa, yanking him up so that he was sitting. "what are you thinking? you can't send them on a mission after last time, are you insane?! you know how dangerous it is right now, and you think that a bunch of teenagers will be able to protect themselves?"
"just leave it alone." the white-haired male, unusually unexpressive, rolled his eyes at you prior to attempting to lay back down ā until you tugged his shirt so he was sitting upright once more.
you were certain that you looked a mess with worry, a stark contrast to the man just opposite you. but who could blame you after last week, where megumi, nobara, and yuuji were all attacked by an unknown special grade curse out of nowhere. it took someone with no functional brain to assign them a mission by themselves so soon after the attack.
"are you not thinking? have you somehow lost what little brain you already had? do you have any idea how badly you've fucked up? they're kids! they aren't professionals like us, and they won't be for some time but you, gojo, you think it's okay to just send them to their possible deaths?! just, for once think aboutā"
"i miss him."
there was a pregnant pause once gojo had cut you off: your mouth still open from where he had cut you off in your rant. as much as it pained you to admit, you were aware just how much he weighed on satoru's mind, his laugh and little habits engrained into his memory in hopes that it could bring him back. but it wouldn't, and it couldn't. not now that things had gone too far and he was not even able to be saved.
"he's dead." you stated the obvious, still annoyed from the man's recklessness concerning his students, one of which was his adopted "son." "he's gone, and no matter how much you mope around and try to ignore it, he'll never come back. geto's dead."
"DON'T USE HIS NAME!" suddenly gojo was off the couch and towering over you, his breath huffing out of his mouth with agitation. "you're wrong, he has to be alive. i know he's alive."
with that, the man backed away and fell onto the sofa once more, this time sitting with his head in his hands. the sight was horrendous; having known gojo a large majority of your life, it was horrible to have to see him in such a state. but something had to change, he had to wake up from the ideal fantasy he had convinced himself of. "we both know that's not the truth, satoru, no matter how much you wish it was."
the man sobbed, his hands burying themselves deeper into the skin of his face in an attempt to block out whatever you were saying.
seating yourself beside him, and comfortingly rubbing a hand up and down his arm, you continued. "he's dead, and no one can do anything about it. the most you can do is remember him in a positive light, and honour his memories by spreading more... happy messages of him from when you were younger."
"i lovedā no, i love him." satoru sobbed, not realising how (despite knowing this for years, decades) your heart slowly shattered at the wording. "iā i love him, even if he's dead."
"and that's okay." you replied, ignoring the feeling of your own tears gathering and gradually streaming down your face in the realisation that your boyfriend, your supposed love, will never truly be yours. "it's okay."
synopsis | yuta tells you he loves you for the first time before he leaves
word count | 526
note | sorry for being dead. got discouraged from posting bc my stuff wonāt show up in tags if i have any links š idk if im shadow banned (how does one tell?š) or maybe tumblr is just being dumb.. anyways i kinda gave up at the end idk if you can tell
āI love you.ā
His words of affection broke the peaceful air. The trees stopped rustling and the cicadas stopped their summer song. It seemed as though even the world became quiet to listen to his confession.
You could only stare in surprise. When Yuuta had asked you to hang out one final time before he left for training you were expecting a sad talk about his journey to becoming a jujutsu sorcerer, not a confession.
The world grew impatient at your lack of response. A gentle breeze started up again, a little fiercer than before, and Yuutaās freshly cut hair moved along with it. You remember the day Maki told you about Yuuta getting his haircut. You nearly dropped to your knees in the middle of practice at the news.
This is it! You thought. Heāll come in with an ugly haircut and Iāll finally get over him!
What you werenāt expecting was him to look even better with his new haircut. You didnāt know whether to cry out in joy or pain. Maki could only roll her eyes at your exaggerated response while Panda and Inumaki snickered on the sidelines.
After that day Yuuta seemed to carry himself differently. He stood straight and no longer mumbled when talking to others. Yuutaās gentle eyes still remained the same, but now there was a determined look in them. Those same eyes stared deeply into your own, waiting patiently for a response.
You almost forgot you were in the middle of a confession.
You opened your mouth but no sound left it. You wanted to respond, you truly did, but you were scared. Curse Yuuta, why did he have to drop something that big before he left. If you hadnāt known this information his departure would have hurt less. You would have eventually gotten over your feelings and moved on, maybe. Now youāll be forced to live without him, imagining what could have been if you had taken the risk and said something earlier.
Yuuta noticed your hesitation to speak and gently grabbed your hands with his. You failed to notice the shake of his hands, focusing more on how cold they were. Was it always this cold during the summer?
ā(Y/n)? Are you alright?ā
Alright? How could you be alright? The moment you find out your love is reciprocated he has to leave. Your heart ached, already missing him despite him being right in front of you. It felt as though he was miles away from your reach.
āPlease donāt leave.ā You whispered, afraid if you said it any louder your heart would be forced to accept reality and the tears building up in your eyes would spill.
Yuuta gripped your hands tighter. āIām sorry, but I have to.ā He let go of your hand and cupped your cheek. You allowed yourself to accept the affection, nuzzling into his hand. His hands were warmer now.
āI promise Iāll come back, stronger than before, and when I do, I will still love you the same.ā He whispered, placing his forehead on yours.
That night your love left, taking your heart with him with the promise of returning.
