vent

sad inside, in this life. unsatisfied. waiting.

its my problem if i have no friends and feel i want to die

i literally cannot tolerate anyone i know having friends why why why why does it hurt so bad to see people i know being with other people

i should prolly change this url to something less...find-able

unfollow me, i dont want to block you here too

i feel sick and sad loll

gggkk haahahahahahheehehe sob

just like, am i just that unlikeable

sometimes its relieving to know ill be dead someday and no one will have to hear me whine about being alone

nnnnnnnngh im going to stab myself lawl lol haha

aaaaaaaaaagggghhahaha FUCCCk every1 is in a relationship but meeeeeeeeeeeeeee KMSSSSSSSSSSSSSs

san japan is in two weeks and i have nothing done...hahaha, whatever

im...getting some weird feedback im unfamiliar with in my backbrain function...ive listened to hope’s song like 900000 times so naturally im having subconscious images of jesus and stuff float through my brain and past my brain eyes, but one happened that felt weird andhe wanted me to see something but i was too nervous to focus in, i wonder whats there

also nothing makes me ant to die more than seeing popular people get tons of compliments 24/7 on their art but the most i get from people is “oh haha its toony :) its cute haha”  like ill stab you, i will fucking kill you, right now, i will uckingd

some o the that autism feel when posts make me nauseous ive said that before but its still true and i want the internet to know

nnow that i think about it ive been like in my room or on the pc for a couple months now and i really dont...idk. i have no sense of time at all