MRV/MagicRoyaltyVerse Part 4 out of 12/1 chapter
A UTAU MADE BY XOXO_SARAH, A WEIRD PERSON.
I'm tired of drawing, nobody even reads this stuff so who cares? I'M GONNA WRITE AND DRAW ST-
(A friend be like: Do I exist?)
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Chara became Locked up and isolated from the outside world, After an attempt of Suicide. He ran away to somewhere he felt 'safe' in. But as time passed by he felt like it was starting to become a prison. He felt agony, misery, pain.
He thought that he was too weak to even get out of the prison of his, and if he wasn't even as strong to be able to break out of that prison then how would he even be able to survive the outside world?
He was afraid, afraid of being consumed by the dark world that consumed his loved ones. He was afraid of the world and people because he thought that the world could just take everything away from him if he made the littlest mistake. All because of an event that happened to him at 10-13 years old
He found comfort in books, and even decided to write one and present it to his class, school, and the internet. But the backlash got to him and he kept quiet, deleting the original book from the records and blocked it out of his mind. After this backlash, this made him feel even more insecure. He didn't know how to fend for himself or how to take a joke and he'd easily feel negative. He was called 'crybaby' all the time during his freshman year. And he absolutely despised it so he locked himself up and isolated himself from everybody.
Soon, he became so used to all the pain that he just accepted the insults and thought of himself very negatively.
He always forced a smile on his face and blocked out all negativity whenever he was around people and he'd break down and keep all of the pain inside of him. He would laugh and laugh even if it wasn't even funny and everybody finally accepted him. But this broke him a lot more than he already was.
The bottled up negativity lead to him hurting himself. But not in the way of cutting or violence, oh no no. That was too obvious and he was far too scared of pain. So he became sleep deprived and he starved himself. Began to stress himself out when it came to grades because he felt like It was never enough and if he even made the slightest mistake everyone would go back to having a negative view on him.
Soon after he met a friend named [REDACTED], he was afraid of them at first but the more kinder [REDACTED] became, the more safer he felt. And he started to talk to other people even more
Though this friendship went VERY wrong as [REDACTED] gaslighted them.
After a while, [REDACTED] got tired of all those rants and got tired of being a Nice person. So he started to minimize Chara's feelings. And of course, Chara thought he was right because he always comforted him. Whenever Chara tried to express his sadness, [REDACTED] would always minimize those feelings and say 'It's your fault for being too sensitive' or 'They were in the right all along, your just self-victimizing' or 'Your exaggerating', which led to Chara thinking that he was being a 'crybaby' again. He tried his best to fix himself and stop being so 'Sensitive' and stopped 'self-victimizing' aka tolerating insults, physical and mental abuse and blaming themselves for everything they've ever done. Chara's friend, [REDACTED] always avoided topics whenever it was needed. Like asking why Chara was even talking about it and how 'aggressive' Chara sounded like and complained about how Chara talked about and occasionally said 'Do you always distract someone like this' or 'Do you always waste someones time like this?'
[REDACTED] Began lying and lying to Chara as they felt like they didn't need to share anything to Chara. And whenever they were to blame, they blamed it on Chara or made a twisted and believable sounding lie to blame Chara. Which made Chara feel more at fault and negative about his self. And [REDACTED] began to deny all sorts of negative things about themselves and make a twisted lie. Which made Chara feel less 'worthy' as they thought that [REDACTED] could never do anything wrong!
Chara's reality or Memories began to distort and distort all the more. As Chara started to tolerate all of the insults and abuse and barely socialized with anyone, [REDACTED] took the chance to Isolate Chara or make him more lonely due to a over-growing obsession over Chara, [REDACTED] said things such as 'Everyone thinks your crazy' or 'Everyone doesn't like you' This made Chara turn to [REDACTED] a whole ton, and made Chara believe [REDACTED] even more, as if every word of theirs was actually true.
[REDACTED] Began to manipulate Chara, and they always used Chara's body which made him more anxious about talking to [REDACTED] anymore.
Chara began to question his sanity and completely broke. All the physical and mental abuse got to him, and how [REDACTED] would just minimize his feelings, deny all the abuse they had done to him and how he lies to him.
He just broke. He snapped at [REDACTED] when they met and heavily injured [REDACTED] by using magic. He realized what [REDACTED] had been doing to him, and he felt so betrayed.. The one who he gave his everything to was just using him. He felt so heartbroken that he permanently broke [REDACTED]'s left arm.
After this event, Chara shut himself in his room and stayed there for a while, he would cry himself to sleep a lot. He just.. died inside. He felt like there was no worth to him anymore and that he didn't really matter.
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Chara was sobbing on his bed again. Contemplating his life choices, regretting and feeling so much hatred. He turned to his right as he heard knocking on his door. He immediately wiped away his tears and walked up to the door. "Hello?"
"Hello there, Chara." Chara immediately recognized this voice, it was Asriel's voice. Chara opened the door and smiled at Asriel "What brings you here?" He says, forcing a happy tone. But that bitter tone still remained.
"I.. Nothing much, I just wanted to see how you were doing.. It's been awhile." Asriel knew of Chara's act. He knew that Chara was just faking this smile and voice.
"Yeah... Right." Chara's smile faded away in an instant.
"Please Chara... Just get out of there, I know that it's been rough for you and you feel like you can't trust anybody.. But please Chara.. It's been over a year." Asriel asked with worrying eyes, yet Chara remained silent. "Yeah sure, the world is dangerous. But it can never be safe, you always have to stand your ground and not lose hope! You have to stand strong in order to-" He was cut off
"WHAT DO YOU KNOW ASRIEL?! I SAW MY FRIENDS GET MURDERED AT 10-13 YEARS OLD AND I WAS CALLED CRYBABY ALL THE TIME AND ONE OF MY CLOSEST FRIENDS WHO I GAVE MY LOVE AND BODY TO TURNED OUT TO BE A MANIPULATOR! I ENDURED INSULTS AND ABUSE WHILE YOU WERE STANDING OVER THERE, HIGH AND MIGHTY WITH EVERYONE PRAISING YOU! UNLIKE YOU, I'M NOT DETERMINED, I'M NOT STRONG! I'M A WEAK USELESS CRYBABY PUNCHING BAG!" Chara started to break down. Asriel felt more guilt in him, Chara started crying and crying. "Chara.."
"I hate all of you." Chara said with a bitter and cold tone.
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Wahahah WOW that was SUPER Long!! I wasn't really expecting to make all of this.
Anyways, here are the credits and proofs. I decided to add this stuff cause why not?
That's all for now! Thank you all for reading, I'll see you all in the next time.
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