Welcome to my life

i got someone to cover my shift tomorrow, which means i get to sleep in with ethann 😍😁🙌👌

kinda nervous to tell him that it needs to stop, but it definitely needs to be done if im gonna contiune hanging out over here, around him being with caleb

im gonna go in ethans room and tell him im gonna lay in there tonight because the other room is really cold and im not tired n wanna watch tv a lil long and when he tries to cuddle me or anything im gonna tell him that "this cant keep happening, we already both agreed on just staying friends a while back and thats how its gonna be from here on out and if he doesnt want me to lay in there then i can simply leave, all ya gotta do is ask"

irdc, but he didnt rly react or say anything when kellie told him earlier when he first got home, that ima start working at herman miller soon... but def reacted wen kellie told him shee got a job at dg in zeeland, he laughed n said it was funny or some lame shit. like stawwwp yer a fag 😅😂🙈👊

before i even asked him, i figured ethan would fuck w me when i asked if he could bring me home in the morning and like bitch n moan like its some big fucking deal, and thats exxactly what that fucker did 😅 i opened the door and said "ethan can you bring me home in the morning?" and he like looked and me then like shook his head back while saying "ughhh!" like it was such a big deal, then i just looked at him n said "pleasee?" all nice n shit and he looked at me and said "fineee" 😂 sometimes he cracks me up n frusterates me at the same damn time, but fuckk it alll! nooonne of it matters anymore, anyway 😈😌☝️✌️

hes home noww. but he only came upstairs and went in his room for a sec and went back down stairs so i gottta wait longer on his ass lol

slightly nervous to ask ethan if he will take me home in da morning. idk why bc ik he wont have a problem with it… maybe its bc i told kellie i have to ask him, bc she asked when im gettin up n how im gettin home n i hadda tell her i have to ask ethan bc my mom already told me i needed to find my own ride, + shes already taking me to my orientation

if i can listen to these songs with out crying then i am going somewhere 

hes fallin asleep anyway he has his alarm set early bc "he has shit to do tomorrow" but i hiiighly doubt he'll get up. he sets the alarm for 745-830 am on da weekends n says i have shit to do in the morning" but neva gets up until bout 1245-130 sometimes 2-230 if he has nothing supper important 2 do 😂😂😴😴😴✌️🙈

wen he does shit like this its harrrrd to avoid. anything else happens idk if ill be able to say no.. 🙈🙊😅

as much as i want to have sex w ethan i aint expecting it 😭😭