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summary ! you clean up john's hand after he beats up your ex
warnings ! mild wound descriptions, fluff.
wc ! 1k
author's note ! off campus as my comeback hell yeah !!
to be added to my taglist.
In the six months you'd known John Logan, you'd known him to be rational. His anger was taken out on the ice, his head stayed cool, and his fists stayed by his side. That's the type of man John Logan was. He didn't punch first and ask questions later.
So why then, did Tucker call you at ten at night to tell you that Logan had his fists in your ex's face?
You weren't sure. All you knew was that you needed to figure it out. Set it straight. Understand why Logan lost his cool so hard.
He'd never done that before, and something in you was worried.
So, you put shoes on and headed out the door, not even bothering to change out of your pjs as you got in the car and headed to the hockey house. The ride there was deafeningly silent. No music, no mumbling or humming or anything from you. Just the rumble of your car and the worry in your brain.
When you pulled up, you paused for a second, breath hitching. You weren't entirely sure what you were doing here. In reality, what could you do to help? But...you had to be there. You had to be.
If Logan was pissed off over your ex, you felt responsible.
So you got out of the car and headed up to the house in your slides and pjs, not bothering to knock as you opened the door. Tucker and Dean were in the living room, and Dean pointed upstairs wordlessly.
You didn't give him a second glance as you headed upstairs and to Logan's room. No knocking, no waiting, you just barged in, closing the door behind you. Logan was sitting on his bed, leg bouncing and knuckles busted open.
You swallowed. "What happened?" you asked, your voice suddenly quiet.
It was like he hadn't even realized you were there, not until now. His eyes shot up to you, a mix of confusion and anger still lingering, but there was something else too. Something...different. His jaw worked, his lips pressing together.
Then, he shook his head. "Nothing," he replied. Like it wasn't a big deal. Like this entire thing didn't happen.
You scoffed. "Nothing? Logan, look at your knuckles."
Logan looked down, his eyes glancing over his bloody knuckles, and he inhaled shakily, like he was seeing them for the first time. He brought a hand up, running it over his face. "It's fine. Don't worry about it."
"Don't worry about it?" You sounded offended. You were offended. How could he tell you that? You huffed, turning around and leaving his room. You went to the bathroom and grabbed a washcloth, getting it wet with warm water and then adding some soap.
You walked back into Logan's room, and his eyes shot up again, surprise in them like he didn't expect you to come back. You walked over to me, dropping to your knees down in front of him and grabbing his hand gently.
"You don't have to—"
"Shut up," you mumbled, dabbing the rugged skin lightly. Logan hissed, hand tightening in yours, and you let him. Silence encompassed the room for a few seconds as you cleaned his knuckles, but curiosity got the best of you. "Why'd you do it?"
Your eyes met his. He swallowed. "He pissed me off."
You shook your head. "It's more than that. It has to be. You don't just beat up people because they piss you off, John."
The use of his first name seemed to get him. You only called him that when it was serious, and this was serious. You had to understand what was so special about your ex that he threw fists.
He sighed, throat bobbing as he swallowed once more. "He deserved it," he deflected again.
You weren't having it. "That's not what I asked."
He inhaled through his nose, squeezing your hand slightly tighter as you hit a sensitive spot with the washcloth. "He called you a slut," he grumbled out through gritted teeth.
You paused, eyes flickering up to his. You let out a shaky breath. You knew your ex had been saying shit about you, but it didn't make it affect you any less hearing it come from Logan. He scoffed softly, shaking your head. "So you beat his ass for that?"
"Of course I beat his ass for that, angel. Why the hell wouldn't I?"
Angel.
He only called you that on rare occasions. When he was really drunk or when it was really late and you were sleeping over. So to hear it now, in this moment? It struck your chest and made your stomach erupt with butterflies.
"It wasn't worth it," you mumbled, finishing up his knuckles. "It's just words."
You stood up, tossing the washcloth in his dirty hamper. "It's not just words, and it was worth it. It was worth it to me." He stood up then, hovering over you, his body inches from yours. "No one gets to talk about you like that."
You swallowed, shaking your head. "Why is it such a big deal to you?"
He tilted his head, eyes searching yours like the question was ridiculous to even ask. "Are you kidding me?" You shook your head, eyebrows furrowed. "Angel..." His hands came down to your hips, gripping gently and pulling you closer.
Your breath hitched. "Everything about you is a big deal to me," he whispered, a small smile on his face.
You smiled slightly, confusedly, trying to come to terms with what you knew he was saying. "I don't-" You paused. "I mean...you- you still shouldn't have hit him."
He chuckled, breathlessly and softly, like this was all funny. "Yeah, I should've." He leaned in, kissing you softly. Your breath was taken away, his lips soft and sure against yours. It took you a few seconds, but you caught up.
Your hands went to his hair and he pulled you even closer, the kiss deepening as he did so. The kiss lasted as long as it could before you both had to pull back, and you were smiling so hard it almost hurt. You'd never been kissed like that before.
You chuckled, shaking your head. "You are..." You sighed, leaning in and resting your forehead against his. "Something else, John Logan."
He laughed, hand caressing your hair. You hadn't expected this to ever happen, let alone like this, but it felt right. Messy and a little quick to process, but right. Like the pieces were finally put together.
Hi!! I’m obsessed w your graham!sister fics and was wondering if you do requests? If so, I’ve been thinking about how Logan or whoever would react to finding out about the abuse from garret (like in the show) while they are dating graham!reader? Just the whole reaction and angst and comfort from it all
Until Someone Knew
John Logan x Graham!Reader (y/n)
Summary: Garett tells Logan about his dad, which makes Logan realise that y/n, Garett’s sister also had to deal with years of abuse from Phil.
TW: mentions of abuse
Word Count: 2.4K
The house was unusually quiet. No music blasted from Logan’s room. No television. No laughter from the living room. Just the low hum of the refrigerator and the sound of rain tapping against the kitchen windows. Logan looked up from the sandwich he was halfway through making when the front door opened. Garrett walked in. One glance was all it took. Something was wrong.
This was different. His shoulders were tense. His eyes looked empty. Logan watched him disappear into the kitchen before following a few seconds later. Garrett stood in front of the sink, staring blankly out the rain-speckled window. He hadn’t moved.
Logan leaned against the counter.
Silence.
Normally he’d fill it. Normally Garrett would. Tonight, neither of them seemed capable.
The clock above the stove ticked loudly.
Finally…
“I gotta tell you something.”
Logan straightened.
Garrett’s voice was flat. Not emotionless. Worse. Like he’d run out of emotions altogether.
“Okay…” Logan said carefully.
Another long silence.
Garrett rubbed both hands over his face and sighed. Seemed like he was preparing to tell something. Logan didn’t interrupt. Didn’t rush him. Just waited.
“My dad…” Garrett swallowed. “…used to beat me.”
The words settled heavily between them. Logan felt something tighten painfully in his chest.
He knew Garrett and his father didn’t get along. He knew Phil Graham was an asshole.
But this…
This wasn’t where he’d expected the sentence to go.
Garrett laughed quietly.
“You know what’s funny?”
Logan shook his head.
“I still can’t say it without feeling like I’m lying.”
He stared down at the kitchen tile.
“I keep expecting someone to tell me I’m exaggerating.”
“They won’t.”
Garrett looked over.
Logan’s expression hadn’t changed.
No pity.
No disbelief.
Just complete attention.
Garrett took a shaky breath.
“He wasn’t always angry.” Another pause “That would’ve been easier.”
Logan frowned slightly.
“He’d be normal.” Garrett’s eyes unfocused as memories surfaced. “We’d eat dinner. He’d ask about school. We’d joke. And then I’d have a bad game.”
Silence.
“Or I’d miss a shot.”
“Or I’d mouth off.”
“Or sometimes…”
He laughed bitterly.
“…sometimes nothing happened.”
Logan’s jaw tightened.
Garrett continued quietly.
“You stop trying to figure out why after a while.”
His fingers gripped the edge of the counter.
“You just spend all day wondering if today’s gonna be one of the bad days.”
Logan’s chest hurt.
He could picture little Garrett.
Twelve.
Thirteen.
Coming home after hockey.
Wondering whether opening the front door would end with dinner or bruises.
“I got good at reading him.” Garrett’s voice was almost distant now. “The way he’d close the car door. The way he’d walk into the house. Whether he’d say my name.”
“If he was quiet…” He closed his eyes. “I knew.”
Logan felt sick.
“I started staying at the rink longer.” Garrett shrugged. “Coach thought I was dedicated. Another humorless laugh. “I was just killing time.”
His voice cracked slightly. “Sometimes I’d pray he’d be asleep when I got home.”
The kitchen felt impossibly small.
Logan couldn’t think of a single thing to say that wouldn’t sound meaningless.
So he stayed quiet.
Garrett seemed grateful for that.
“I got bigger eventually.”
He looked down at his own hands.
“Started hockey training year-round. Started lifting. Dad hit me one night and I …” A pause. “I shoved him back.”
Garrett’s expression was unreadable.
“He looked at me like he didn’t know who I was.”
Another silence.
“That was the last time.”
Logan finally spoke. “You were a kid.”
Garrett gave a tiny nod. “I know.”
“No.” Logan stepped closer. “You were a kid.” The words were firmer now. “You didn’t deserve any of that.”
Garrett’s jaw tightened.
“I still think maybe if I’d just…”
“No.”
Logan cut him off immediately. “No ‘if.’”
Garrett blinked.
“You were a child.”
Another pause.
“Kids don’t deserve to get hit because they had a bad game.”
The words hung between them. Garrett looked away quickly. His eyes burned.
“I’ve never told anybody except Hannah”
Logan’s heart twisted.
“None of the guys?”
Garett shook his head.
Logan moved without really thinking. He wrapped one arm around Garrett’s shoulders and pulled him into a hug. Garrett froze for just a second. Then all the tension he’d been carrying seemed to give way. He leaned forward, forehead pressing against Logan’s shoulder. He didn’t cry. But Logan could feel him shaking.
“It’s over,” Logan said quietly.
Garrett let out a slow breath. “I know.”
“You got out.”
“…Yeah”
“You survived.”
Garrett nodded once. “I guess.”
“No.” Logan pulled back enough to look him in the eye. “I mean it.” His voice was steady “I’m proud of you.”
Garrett actually frowned.“…For what?”
“For surviving something nobody should’ve had to survive.”
Garrett stared at him. Like the thought had genuinely never occurred to him.
The silence stretched again.
Then Logan’s expression slowly shifted.
Something crossed his face.
Confusion.
His brow furrowed.
“…Wait.”
Garrett looked up.
Logan’s stomach suddenly felt heavy.
“Y/N…”
Garrett didn’t move.
Logan’s heartbeat sped up.
“She’s…”
His voice came out quieter now.
“She’s younger than us.”
Garrett looked at the floor.
“Garrett…?”
Nothing.
“Tell me she was too young.”
Silence.
Logan’s pulse pounded in his ears.
“Garrett…. Please…”
Still nothing.
“Did she also…” Logan couldn’t even finish off the sentence. “Did Phil…”
Garrett’s eyes filled with something Logan had never seen before.
Guilt.
The kind that consumed a person from the inside out.
Then Garrett gave the smallest nod.
Once. Barely noticeable.
It was enough.
Logan felt like the floor had disappeared beneath him.
“Oh…”
Logan closed his eyes.
“…Jesus Christ.”
The word left him as little more than air.
His mind raced through every memory he had of Y/N.
Her laugh.
The way she always smiled before anyone else did.
The way she’d apologize for interrupting conversations she hadn’t interrupted.
The way she’d tense whenever someone raised their voice.
Things he’d never questioned.
Things that suddenly fit together in a way that made him feel sick.
—
Logan sat in his car for almost twenty minutes. The engine had gone cold. Rain tapped steadily against the windshield, but he barely noticed.
Every time he closed his eyes, he saw Garrett standing in that kitchen.
“My dad used to beat me.”
Then… that tiny nod.
The one that had answered everything Logan couldn’t bear to ask.
Y/N.
His girlfriend.
Garrett’s little sister.
How many times had he looked at her and missed it?
How many times had she smiled at him while carrying something no one should ever have to carry?
His phone buzzed.
Y/N: You still coming over? I made pasta :)
Logan stared at the message until the screen dimmed.
Then he started the car.
—
Y/N answered the door wearing one of his sweatshirts.
His sweatshirt.
Her hair was tied into a messy bun, and she smiled the second she saw him.
“There you are.”
She stepped aside.
“I was about to eat without you.”
Logan couldn’t smile back. The expression slipped from y/n’s face almost instantly.
“…Logan?”
He walked inside.
She closed the door.
“Is everything okay?”
He looked at her.
Really looked.
There was a tiny scar near her wrist he’d never asked about.
God.
How had he never…
“Logan?”
She took a small step toward him.
“You look pale.”
He let out a slow breath.
“I talked to Garrett.”
She froze.
“He…”Logan tries to stop his thoughts from rushing. “He told me about your dad.”
Everything inside her stopped.
For a long moment, she simply stared at him.
“…He what?”
“He told me.”
Silence.
“No.”
The word escaped before she could stop it.
“He wouldn’t.”
“He did.”
“No.”
She shook her head faster.
Logan’s stomach twisted.
“You know.” She covered her mouth with one hand. Tears immediately filled her eyes.
“No, no, no…”
She turned away.
Logan stepped forward.
“Y/N…”
Her breathing became uneven.
“How can you look at me right now?” It was more like a cry of pain than a question targeted at Logan. But Logan still answered with the words he found to fit best.
“I won’t look at you differently.”
“You will! You are!”
“No”
“You do!”
She spun around so quickly it startled both of them.
Her voice cracked.
“You know now!”
The apartment fell silent.
Logan stared.
Y/N immediately regretted yelling.
She stepped backward.
“I’m sorry.”
Another step.
“I’m sorry.”
Logan frowned.
“Why are you apologizing?”
“I yelled.”
“So?”
“I shouldn’t have.”
“So?”
“I just…”
She wrapped both arms around herself.
“I shouldn’t have.”
Logan’s chest ached.
“You don’t have to apologize for raising your voice.”
“I do.”
“No.”
“I do.”
“No.” His own voice rose without him meaning to. “You don’t.”
She flinched.
Hard.
Like she’d been struck.
The second Logan saw it, all the anger drained from his face.
“…Oh, God.” His voice became barely a whisper. “I’m sorry.”
Y/N couldn’t look at him anymore. Her eyes stayed fixed on the floor.
“I didn’t mean to make you mad.”
“I’m not mad at you.”
“You are.”
“I’m not.”
“You yelled.”
“I…” Logan stopped.
Because she wasn’t hearing him. She was hearing someone else. Someone years older. Someone much crueler.
He took one slow step backward. Then another. Giving her space.
“I’m angry,” he said quietly. “But not at you, never at you sweetie.”
Silence.
“I’m angry because someone hurt you.”
“I’m angry because I love you.”
Her breathing hitched.
“And someone made you think this…” He gestured helplessly between them. “…was your fault.”
Tears slid silently down her face. Logan wanted nothing more than to hold her. Instead, he stayed exactly where he was.
“You don’t have to be afraid of me.”
She whispered so quietly he almost missed it. “I’m “I’m trying not to be.”
His heart broke.
—
Several minutes passed before either of them spoke again.
It was Y/N.
“He stopped.”
Logan looked up.
“My dad.”
She wiped her face.
“He stopped.”
“When?”
She hesitated.
“A while ago.”
“How long is ‘a while’?”
“I don’t know.”
“Months?”
“…Yeah.”
“A year?”
She looked away.
Logan noticed.
Immediately.
“…Y/N.”
She stayed quiet.
His pulse quickened.
“When?”
Another silence.
“After Garrett left he continued…”
The words were barely audible.
Logan closed his eyes.
Fuck.
She continued before he could say anything.
“It wasn’t every day.”
His eyes snapped open. She said it so automatically. Like she thought it made things better. “It wasn’t every week either.”
Another automatic explanation.
“It depended.”
Logan stared at her.
She kept going.
“If I stayed out of the house…If skating competitions went well… If I….”
“Stop.” His voice cracked.
She blinked.
“You don’t have to justify it.”
“I wasn’t…”
“You were.”
Silence.
“You just listed reasons.”
She looked confused.
Logan spoke softly. “There aren’t any justifications for what he did.”
“I always thought maybe if I was just…” She searched for the word. “…better.”
“No.”
“…Quieter.”
“No.”
“…More careful.”
“No.”
His voice was firm now.
“There was never a version of you that deserved that.”
The sentence seemed to hit something deep inside her. Because suddenly she looked exhausted.
“I don’t know how to believe that.”
Logan’s eyes watered.
“I know.”
—
Another long silence.
Then Logan asked the question that had been burning inside him since he’d left Garrett.
“I need you to tell me something.”
She nodded weakly.
“Did he really stop?”
She frowned.
“What?”
“Your dad.”
He swallowed.
“I need to know.”
She looked confused.
“I just told you he stopped.”
“I know.”
His breathing became uneven.
“But you’re smaller than Garrett.”
She stared.
“You couldn’t fight back.” He hated how shaky his own voice sounded. “So I need to know…” He rubbed both hands over his face “…I need to know you’re safe.”
Y/N’s expression changed instantly. She heard something completely different.
“So now I need protecting?”
“What?”
“You think I’m helpless.”
“No.”
“You think I’m broken.”
“No.”
“You pity me.”
Logan stared at her.
“Y/N.”
“You think I can’t take care of myself.”
“I think someone failed to take care of you.”
She went quiet.
He stepped closer.
Slowly.
“So now…” His voice softened. “…I just want to know you’re okay.”
She looked at him for a long moment.
Then whispered, “No one’s ever asked me that.”
Logan’s throat tightened.
“What?”
“No one asks if I’m okay.”
Another tear escaped.
“They ask if I’m over it.”
“If I’m fine.”
“If I’ve moved on.”
She laughed bitterly.
“They never ask if I’m okay.”
Logan closed the distance between them.
This time she didn’t step away.
He reached up carefully.
Not touching her.
Just giving her the choice.
She looked at his hand.
Then took it herself.
The moment their fingers intertwined, she started crying again.
Logan immediately pulled her into his arms. Slowly. Giving her every opportunity to pull away. Instead she buried her face agains this chest.
“I was so scared,” she whispered.
“I know.”
“I thought if you found out…” A shaky breath escaped her lips, “…you’d leave.”
Logan rested his cheek against the top of her head.
“I am scared of your past.”
His arms tightened around her just a little.
“I am scared of how alone you carried it.”
She cried harder. Not because his words fixed anything. They didn’t. Years of fear don’t disappear in one night. But for the first time since she was a little girl… Someone knew. The whole truth. And instead of turning away, Logan held her even closer.
After a long while, he kissed the top of her head.
“So here’s what’s going to happen.”
She sniffled against his chest.
“What?”
“You don’t carry this by yourself anymore.”
A tiny, watery laugh escaped her.
“You don’t get to decide that.”
“I absolutely do.” She tilted her head up just enough to look at him.
A hint of a smile tugged at his lips.
“I’m dating a Graham.” He brushed a tear from her cheek with his thumb. “You people are unbelievably stubborn.”
Despite everything, she let out a quiet laugh.
“There she is,” Logan murmured, relieved to hear it.
She looked at him uncertainly. “You still want me?”
He blinked.
Then, with all the sincerity he could muster, answered, “Y/N, I wanted you before I knew. I want you now that I know. The only thing that’s changed is this: now I know there were nights you needed someone, and I wasn’t there.”
His voice cracked.
“I can’t change those nights.”
He rested his forehead against hers.
“But if you’ll let me…”
His thumb gently brushed away another tear.
“…I can be here for the next ones.”
For the first time that evening, Y/N didn’t apologize.
She simply nodded.
And let herself be held.
Note: Thank you for the support. I’ve been wanting to write about Logan x Graham!Reader, where Logan finds out about Phil, but never got to it. This request finally made me do so. Thanks for the request 🤍
pairing: john logan x fem!reader
words: 3.3k
summary: Logan is trying every single trick in the book to ask you out, but you couldn't care less because you are very convinced he is just trying to rebound.
warnings: fluffity fluff babyyyyyy <3, some cussing, one single makeout
a/n: this was sooooo fun to write, based on this request; also the title has nothing to do with religion btw, it's from the song My Gospel by Charlie Puth, it just fit the vibe of the chapter
Every time you were at a party or any social event, really, and you actually made an effort to find love in Allie's words, nothing happened. You didn't really feel "it" with any of the guys who flirted with you. John Logan offered to walk you home one (1) time after a party, cause it was late and you were alone, and you were done for. That's it.
You saw him everywhere you went. Looked for him in every single room. And when you did see him, and he did a little wave in your direction, it was like a kaleidoscope of butterflies had made your insides their home.
It took you a wild minute, but hey, game recognises game. He was always looking for someone too. Just... not you. You followed his line of sight; you were curious as to who made his face light up that way. Curiosity killed the cat, desecrated it, buried it, and got rid of the evidence.
It was deeply inconvenient that the one guy you ended up genuinely liking in all your time at Briar just so happened to be in love with your best friend. As was your luck.
Logan, on the other hand, really looked forward to seeing Hannah.
The night after he walked you home, he'd had a revelation. He didn't want Hannah. He just wanted to be in love. And he wanted it to be with you, specifically. So, he had begged Hannah, who knew you better than anyone in the world, to tell him everything about you.
"And why exactly would I do that?" she asked, as she cleared his table at Malone's.
"Well, I may or may not be interested in asking her out," he confirmed. Hannah froze for a second before taking a seat opposite him in the booth.
"Listen to me, Logan. Before you have my blessing—"
"I wasn't asking for—"
"Before," she cut him off, "you have my blessing, know this. You will not hurt her. You will not make her cry; you will not ever be the reason she feels betrayed, and you certainly cannot treat her like she's just anybody. She's the prize. Understood?"
Logan was genuinely scared. "Yes, ma'am."
"What do you want to know?"
And so, he spent the following days brainstorming ways to ask you out and running them by Hannah to see if you'd say okay. They had settled on simple, subtle ways. "Drop hints. Let her know you like her," Hannah had said. So he did.
He was magically at the library at the same time you were, offered to carry your books, tried making small talk, and whatnot. You had nipped that right in the bud.
"Listen, I'm sorry, but I got this, like, really daunting assignment to work on, so if you don't mind..."
Next, it was getting you your coffee order. As a surprise. Yay! Here's your exact coffee order! See how much I notice? Love me.
Unfortunately, the only person that attempt surprised was Logan.
He had stopped you on your way to class with a rushed Hey! Wait up! It sounded very breathless, like he had sprinted through campus to get there. Which he had.
"What's this?"
"I got you coffee." He paused to catch his breath. "From that place you like."
"Oh," you trailed off, and you looked at him with what he convinced himself could not be pity.
"What's wrong? Did I get it wrong? Wh—"
"No, nothing, I just— I had coffee like five minutes ago. I didn't have time to go there before class, so I just got it from the cafeteria," you explained. Logan just stared in disbelief.
"Oh."
Well, shit.
"Yeah," you laughed nervously. "It's fine, I'll just... have some more, I guess," you tried.
"What—no, no, you don't have to," he laughed, "I'll have it instead. It's fine. I love..." he trailed off, pausing to read the order written on the cup, trying and failing at hiding the mild grimace that formed, "... vanilla."
You just nodded solemnly and watched him as he took a sip. It was clearly not to his taste; he was struggling, and he gave you a very unconvincing thumbs-up as he swallowed what he believed could not possibly contain any amount of coffee at all.
"You okay, Logan?"
"Uh-huh!" he assured, but his voice was way too high-pitched to sound plausible.
The third time had to be the charm. Logan was very close to just going up to you and saying Listen. I really like you. You're killing me here. Dinner? Hannah had to convince him for twenty minutes to try being normal one last time before giving up.
It was a relatively simple plan. There was going to be a party. You were going to be there. All he had to do was talk to you and treat you like a human being. Genius plan, right? Wrong.
It was like the entire universe was conspiring against Logan. Every time he would try to strike up a conversation with you, it would die down in a matter of seconds because someone wanted either one of you for something. And when you both were finally free, and it felt like the conversation was getting somewhere, a puck bunny that Logan had met at a party ages ago would get the brilliant idea of getting reacquainted with him. After about three instances of this happening, Logan excused himself from you and pulled her aside.
"Kylie," he laughed, but there was no humour in it. "Listen. You're an amazing person—"
"You think so?" she asked, hand to heart and teary-eyed, clearly drunk out of her mind, poor thing.
"Uh-huh!" he indulged, already losing patience, "And any guy would be so lucky to have you."
"Yeah, he would," she laughed, pulling him closer by the collar. He caught her by the wrist, pulled her away and stepped back.
"Yeah, see? That's the thing. I am not that guy."
"What do you mean?" she asked, tears already welling in her eyes. He sighed, head dropping.
"I like someone, Kylie. I really like this girl, and I don't wanna screw it up, okay?"
Gears were finally turning in her head. She gasped, her eyes lighting up. "Is that who you were talking to?"
"Yes," he laughed. "That was her, yeah."
"She's pretty."
"Yeah, she is. And she's really smart too. She does this thing when—"
Logan spent the next 15 minutes talking about you. By the time he was done (he wasn't nearly done; he just noticed that it had been quiet for a while), Kylie had dozed off, leaning on the wall. Not wanting to leave her there, he ushered her into the nearest room and left her on the bed. By the time he came back to the party, you were gone. You probably thought he ditched you for Kylie.
Well, shit.
It wasn't that you didn't notice that Logan was trying something with you. It's just— It felt wrong at this point. What, Hannah was in a relationship now, so he was going for you instead? Is that what this was? And Kylie now? Were you that boring that he had to ditch you mid-conversation?
Sure, you loved that he was making an effort, and it was killing you on the inside to not reciprocate, but if his heart was not in the right place, then what even was the point? You deserved to be wanted because you were you. Not as someone's rebound, not as an afterthought. And you were going to wait until his intentions towards you were crystal clear.
Logan was getting nowhere with you, and it wasn't for lack of trying. He spent the following week trying to arrange as many "chance encounters" as possible to try and talk to you. But, no matter what he did, and no matter how obvious he made it, you seemed to show zero interest in him. It was pissing him off. Hell, it was pissing Garrett off, who had to listen to him complain about this every day, all day long.
"I'm telling you, G, it's like she hates me."
"She's not the only one," he deadpans.
"Dude, I'm serious," he said, his voice sincere.
Garrett almost felt bad for him, except he didn't, thanks to the fact that Logan had barged into his room unannounced; Hannah and Garrett were very, very naked and hiding under the covers.
"So am I. Get the fuck out of my room, Logan," Garrett threatened, throwing a pillow at Logan's figure, which rapidly sprinted out of his room.
"Jesus. Anyways, where were we, Wellsy?" Garrett smirked, hand already snaking up Hannah's waist.
"She does like him back, you know?"Hannah announced.
"Oh, come on!"
So, yeah. Logan's love life was in shambles; Garrett was getting cockblocked, and you were moping around thinking the guy you were basically in love with liked your best friend instead. A normal situation that everybody faces. Sure.
Logan was going to try one last time, and he wasn't going to take Hannah's advice. No more hints or subtlety, because he clearly sucked at those. No, he was going in the grand romantic-gesture direction because that always works out perfectly. They had a game coming up, and he knew exactly what to do.
It was game day, finally. The score was tied, third period, and Briar's crowd was already hoarse from screaming. You were wedged between Hannah and a very enthusiastic stranger in a Briar jersey, clutching your coffee you'd stopped drinking twenty minutes ago because your hands wouldn't stay still long enough.
"He's going to give himself whiplash trying to find you in this crowd," Hannah said, not looking up from her phone, where she was very obviously texting Allie updates about you and Logan.
"I'm not doing anything."
"You're doing the thing where you pretend you're not looking for him while you are actively looking for him."
You did not dignify that with a response, mostly because it was true.
And then you saw him. Logan, skating backward near the boards, scanning the stands like a man on a mission. His eyes caught yours, and something in his whole body seemed to relax and panic at the same time, which should not have been possible, and yet.
He pointed. At you. In front of literally everyone. Oh god.
"Oh no," you said.
"Oh, this is going to be good," Hannah said, already filming.
"THIS ONE'S FOR YOU!" he bellowed, loud enough that three separate sections turned to look at you, and you wanted the bleachers to open up and swallow you whole.
Then he took the puck, because of course the puck was already coming to him, because the universe apparently wanted to humiliate him on the biggest possible stage— and he shot.
Into his own net.
The horn blared. For the other team.
There was a full second of stunned silence before the away side erupted, and Coach Jensen looked like he was one heart attack away from an ambulance. Tucker looked like he had seen a ghost. Dean had both hands over his face, shoulders absolutely shaking in laughter. Garrett skated up to Logan and just stared at him, the way you'd stare at a raccoon that had wandered onto the ice.
"Logan," you heard him say, loud enough to carry, "what the fuck."
You put your face in your hands. Hannah was cackling beside you, still filming, tears actually forming. Jules, who was covering the entire game, had to sit down to compose themself.
"Oh, sweet Jesus," you mumbled into your palms.
"He scored for the wrong team for you," Hannah wheezed. "He scored—" she stopped, laughter getting the best of her as she folded over, holding on to you for support.
On the ice, Logan was refusing to make eye contact with anyone, skating back to position like if he moved fast enough, no one could see him. Coach Jensen was yelling something from the bench that involved a lot of pointing and the phrase "are you KIDDING me," along with some very elucidating profanities.
Briar won anyway, thankfully; Garrett's overtime goal saving Logan from further embarrassment, but the locker room, you'd heard, was not kind to him afterwards.
The party after the game felt like a perfectly curated hazing ritual designed to torment Logan alone specifically. You found him by the kitchen, nursing a beer like it had personally wronged him, still getting razzed by literally every guy who walked past.
"Own-goal Logan!" someone shouted from across the room. Logan didn't even flinch; he just closed his eyes like he was praying for the floor to open. Any time now, floor.
You walked up, arms crossed, doing your best to look unimpressed and failing.
"Dude. What the hell."
He turned, and the relief on his face at seeing you, actually seeing you, not a heckler, was almost enough to make you forget you were supposed to be teasing him right now.
"In my defense—"
"This ought to be good."
"—I got excited," he said, like that explained anything. "You were right there, and I panicked, and my brain just went 'shoot', and it did not specify which net. Which, when I say it out loud, I realise makes me sound pathetic."
"It wasn't pathetic, Logan."
"You think so?"
"Okay, maybe like 10% pathetic," you confessed, which pulled a small laugh out of him, "but trust me, for the person, it would've been endearing and adorable," you assured him.
"What about you?" he asked, sounding eager.
"What about me?"
"Was it any of that to you?"
Wow, that was incredibly forward. You hadn't expected him to put you on the spot like that. What were you supposed to say now? The truth? Yes, Logan, despite the fact that it blew up in your face, I thought it was very sweet. God, no. You can't tell him that.
"I don't know what you're talking about, Logan."
"I—" he stopped himself, hand dragging down his face like he could physically wipe the word back in. He laughed, but there was no humour in it, just something a little desperate. "You gotta give me something to work with here. Come on. I just bared my soul out to you, in front of the entire world. Give me something."
"Logan," you said, and you meant for it to come out steady, but it came out tight instead, "whatever you think is going on between you and I, you are incredibly mistaken."
You turned and walked off toward the porch before he could see whatever your face was doing. He followed you. Of course he did.
"Look. Can we talk?"
You sighed, arms wrapping around yourself against the cold, and leaned against the railing. "Go on."
"If you are genuinely not interested in me," he said, and he sounded like he'd rehearsed this part, like it was the only part he'd let himself prepare, "I promise I will stop bothering you. I'll take the hint, I'll back off, whatever you need. But you gotta help me out here, because I feel like I'm losing it a little." He dragged a hand through his hair. "You're giving me all these signals, and I feel like I'm hallucinating them, because one second you're looking at me when you think I don't know. You're at every single one of my games— don't think I haven't noticed. Hannah drags you to maybe half of them, and you still show up to the rest on your own, even when she's not there. You laugh at literally none of my jokes except when you think no one's watching, and then you're full-on wheezing. And then the second I make some kind of move, suddenly I'm the dick here. I'm the guy who overstepped." He spread his hands, helpless. "All I want to know is— am I reading this wrong?"
You closed your eyes for a second. The cold felt like the only honest thing out here. You sighed. Might as well.
"You're not reading it wrong," you said finally. "I... notice you. Okay? I do." You looked at him. "But you gotta give me some credit here. I tried really hard not to."
"Wow." He let out a short breath, almost a laugh, except it landed more like a flinch. "What is so awful about me?"
"That's not— I didn't mean it like that." You pressed the heel of your hand against your eye, frustrated at yourself now, at how badly this was coming out. "It's just — I can't just be another notch in your belt, Logan. I can't be your rebound."
His whole face changed. "Whoa. What rebound?"
"Come on, Logan. I'm not stupid. I know you like Hannah. And it's not your fault, she's very—"
"Yeah—no— I'm gonna stop you right there. What?"
"You know... you like Hannah?" you asked, sounding unsure based on his reaction.
"I assure you, that is not true."
"Dude, come on." You threw your hands up, some of the frustration finally spilling out. "Every single room you're in, you're looking for her. You see her, and suddenly it's Christmas! You just talk to her the whole time, and you get this light in your eye, and you look all adorable and—" you stopped, hearing yourself a second too late, "—god, I wish I'd stopped talking about a minute ago."
He sighed, dragging both hands down his face this time. "Okay. At the risk of sounding pathetic, here goes." He looked at you like he was bracing for impact. "I was looking for her because she was helping me ask you out." You stood there in shock. You were having trouble processing that information.
"We were talking about you. I was nervous, and I wanted to get it right, and— well, in retrospect that backfired splendidly," he gestured vaguely toward the direction of the house, like the hecklers and "own-goal Logan" were still hovering somewhere over his shoulder, "but the idea was, she'd tell me stuff about you— things you liked, whatever— and I'd come up with genius ways to ask you out." He spread his arms, mock-triumphant. "Clearly it worked, because we're on my front porch arguing. So— yay. Go Logan, I guess."
Your brain finally caught up with your mouth. "I—Uh, Wow. Okay." You blinked. "So— just to double-check— I am not a rebound?"
"Baby." He said it like it physically pained him that you'd thought otherwise, closing the distance between you. "Not even close."
"Oh, thank god," you breathed, and then you didn't give yourself time to think about it— you grabbed his jacket and pulled him in.
He made a small, surprised sound against your mouth before he caught up, one hand coming up to your jaw like he still couldn't quite believe this was real and needed to check. He walked you back a step until your shoulders met the porch post, one hand braced against the wood beside your head, the other still cradling your jaw, tilting it just slightly to get the angle he wanted.
You felt him exhale against your mouth right before the kiss deepened, unhurried but certain, and you fisted your other hand in the front of his shirt just to have something to hold onto, because your knees had developed some very inconvenient opinions about standing on their own. His tongue slid over yours as he found an angle that worked, pulling a sound from you that did things to him.
Somewhere behind you, a wolf whistle cut through the night, loud and delighted. You broke apart to find Kylie leaning out the porch door, drink in hand, absolutely beaming.
"Yeahhh, go Logan!!" she hollered, pumping a fist. "She likes you back!!"
Logan dropped his forehead against yours, laughing, equal parts mortified and thrilled. "Does nothing happen around here in private?"
"Apparently not," you said, grinning, "own-goal Logan."
"We are never speaking of that again."
"Oh, absolutely, we are. For the rest of your life."
warnings: 18+ (mdni) + the jersey stays on + jewelry with initials
a/n: a little thing before i work on fluffier stuff!
logan likes it when you make it known you’re his in small ways.
this results in the fact that his jersey stays on. stays on you, specifically, when you’re sprawled out underneath him, eyelashes fluttering coyly because you were all proud and satisfied as you waited for logan to get home. there you were, sitting on his bed in nothing but his deep blue jersey.
he wasted no time in manhandling you on your hands and knees.
“fuck, look at you,” logan now croons from above you. well, not like you can see him. you’re currently pressed down into his soft bed, the rough material of his hockey jersey loosely hanging over your figure.
his own name stares back at him in bold, white letters, but with your hair sprawled over your shoulders, your cute heart-shaped ass jutting out from under, shiny slick coating your inner thighs.
“my girl with my name on her back.” logan continues, his eyes low and voice slow, but still with a small grin on his face. his heavy hand presses down your lower back, making you curve your back into a deeper arch.
“‘m proud of you for knowin’, gorgeous,” he mumbles, nosing the side of your neck from behind. “for knowing you’re my baby.”
or when logan pushes your legs over his shoulders as he feeds you fast, long strokes of his cock. the anklet with the “J” and “L” charms clinking right next to his ear.
your latest addition— you just had to surprise your boyfriend with it. and logan being logan, couldn’t keep his hands to himself.
mixed with the sounds of your pretty moans, logan swears he’s in warm paradise. “know i’m big, honey— know you can take it,” he coos, a hint of reassurance evident in his deep voice. he presses a chaste kiss to your anklet-covered ankle. “such a good, competent girl for johnny.”
he delivers one sharp, hard thrust, your pussy squelching, sucking him further into your narrow tunnel. “prettiest girl on the planet.” he says profoundly, his gaze warm and sweet like a treacle as he watches you take him with glassy eyes and puffy lips.
it’s also the way he loves fucking up into you from under, loving to see the thick tip of his dick move under the thin skin of your belly. his flannel is wrapped around your naked frame, your tits lightly bouncing as you swirl your hips down his cock.
“y’love being mine, huh?” logan teases slightly as he slides his large hands over the curve of your hip. he pulls you closer to his face by your necklace, adorned with a dainty charm of his ‘69 camaro, a subtle hint you’re logan’s. “‘m aaall over you.”
you continue to push yourself further down his soppy dick, whining and nodding. “yes—” you whimper, placing your hands on top of his own on your hips, “i’m yours— i’m yours.”
“yes, you are,” logan takes over, guiding you up and down as you feel your climax milk out of you. small tears from pleasure well up in your eyes, your legs all tingly and soft as you ride out your orgasm.
“that was a big one, huh, baby? did s’good for me.”
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could you do something where John Logan gets badly hit during a game and reader is in full panic mode in the crowd even if he says he’s fine and it’s a bit angsty but cute ? <3
When the Hit Lands
Pairing: John Logan x Reader
Word Count: 1342
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John Logan had taken hard hits before.
That was the problem.
You knew, rationally, that hockey was a brutal sport. You knew people got checked into the boards, knocked off balance, sent sprawling into the ice. You knew John had always been tough enough to take it.
Knowing that did absolutely nothing when it happened to him.
You were in the stands with your hands wrapped around your program, halfway through the second period, when the play turned ugly in the blink of an eye. One second John had the puck, the next he was pinned hard against the boards by a defenseman twice as angry as he had any right to be.
The crack of it made your stomach drop.
John hit the ice.
The entire arena seemed to lurch with you.
You were already on your feet before you realized it, heart hammering so hard you could barely hear anything else. On the ice, John rolled once, then pushed himself up slowly. Too slowly.
Your hands went cold.
“John,” you whispered, though he could not hear you.
He stayed down another second, one glove pressed briefly to his side, then got up and skated with a stiffness that made your panic spike instantly. You could see the way he tried to hide it. The way he shook it off. The way he lifted his stick like he was fine.
But you knew him.
And he was not fine.
Beside you, Garrett leaned forward and squinted toward the ice. “That looked bad.”
You turned on him immediately, eyes wide. “He’s hurt.”
Garrett glanced at you and then back at the rink. “Maybe just shook up.”
“No.” Your voice cracked. “No, he’s hurt.”
He made a face. “Okay, okay. Let’s wait.”
You did not want to wait.
You watched the rest of the shift with your nails digging into your palms so hard it almost hurt more than the fear. Every time John moved, your eyes tracked him. Every time he touched his side, your panic got worse. Every time he told the trainer he was fine, you felt like you might crawl out of your skin.
When the period finally ended, John skated toward the bench with obvious annoyance written all over him.
“That’s not good,” Tucker muttered from below.
John was talking to the trainer while the guys surrounded him. You could not hear the words, only see the stubborn set of his jaw and the way he kept insisting on something while the trainer clearly did not agree.
Then John looked up.
Right at you.
Even from the stands, you could tell he was trying to reassure you.
He lifted a hand a little, like a wave. Like a signal.
You had never hated being told to calm down more in your life.
The moment he disappeared into the tunnel, you were already moving.
You found him near the locker room hallway with the trainer still pressing him to go for a scan. John was sitting on the bench with one elbow on his knee, face a little pale now that the adrenaline had started to fade. He looked up the second he heard your shoes.
There you were.
And somehow that made him look both better and worse.
“Hey,” he said, immediately trying for a smile. “You okay?”
You stopped in front of him and stared. “Am I okay?”
He blinked at your tone. “I’m asking because you look like you’re about to murder someone.”
“I am about to murder someone.”
His mouth twitched. “That tracks.”
You took one look at him sitting there trying to act like he was not holding his side and your eyes filled instantly.
John’s expression changed. “Oh, no.”
“Don’t oh, no me.”
He frowned. “Baby.”
“You got hit hard.”
“I know.”
“And then you told me you were fine.”
He gave you a helpless little look. “I am fine.”
You stared at him like he had lost his mind. “John.”
“What?”
“You are absolutely not fine.”
The trainer backed off discreetly once he realized the two of you were not going to be having a calm conversation in any traditional sense.
John reached for your hand. “Come here.”
You did, but only because you wanted to prove to yourself he was actually real and not made of stubbornness and terrible decisions. The second you got close, he caught your wrist and brought your hand to his mouth to kiss your knuckles.
That made you want to cry harder.
“Don’t do that,” you whispered, voice shaking.
“Do what?”
“Act normal.”
He exhaled through his nose and looked up at you with a tired, fond expression that still did not hide the pain underneath it. “I’m trying not to freak you out.”
“That ship has sailed.”
A soft laugh escaped him, then turned into a wince. He immediately pressed his lips together.
Your entire face changed. “See? You’re hurt.”
His eyes softened. “A little.”
“You’re not supposed to say a little when you look like this.”
“I’m trying to be brave.”
That made something in your chest ache.
You sat down beside him carefully and immediately tucked yourself close, one hand resting cautiously on his arm. “What did they say?”
“Probably a bruised rib. Maybe nothing worse.” He shrugged, then winced again and looked annoyed with himself. “Need to get checked out.”
You nodded quickly. “Okay. We’re doing that.”
He smiled at the we. “You sound terrifying.”
“I am terrifying.”
“That you are.”
You reached up and touched his cheek, relief and panic still battling in your chest. “You scared me.”
John’s face softened in a way that made him look suddenly so gentle it hurt.
“I know,” he said quietly. “I’m sorry.”
You shook your head. “Just don’t do that again.”
He gave you a long look, then said, “I’ll try.”
“That is not reassuring.”
“Noted.”
You had to smile through the tears, which was unfair because he immediately looked a little more relieved when he saw it.
By the time they got him to the medical room, you were hovering so hard the nurse actually smiled at you and told you he was in good hands.
John, sitting on the exam table now while someone checked his ribs, kept reaching for you whenever he got the chance. A hand on your waist. Fingers against your wrist. Thumb brushing your knuckles.
At one point you leaned in and muttered, “You’re being clingy.”
He gave you a pained little smile. “You’re the one staring like I’m going to shatter.”
“That’s because you might.”
He lifted an eyebrow. “That dramatic?”
“Yes.”
The nurse was trying very hard not to laugh.
When the scan came back and the trainer confirmed it was just a nasty bruise and a few days of rest, your entire body finally let go of the fear you’d been carrying since the hit landed.
You exhaled so hard John looked up immediately.
“There she is,” he murmured.
You gave him a shaky look. “You’re not dying?”
He let out a quiet laugh, then winced and looked offended by the timing. “No.”
“Good.”
He held out both arms then, and you moved into them without hesitation, careful around his side. He tucked you close and kissed the top of your head.
“I’m okay,” he said softly.
You buried your face against his shirt and closed your eyes. “I know.”
But your hand still stayed spread carefully over his chest like you needed to make sure for yourself.
John kissed your hair once more and murmured, “I’ve got you.”
You pulled back just enough to look at him, eyes still wet but calmer now. “Yeah?”
His expression went warm and steady. “Yeah.”
And because you were still a little shaken and he was still warm and alive and here, you let yourself stay in his arms a little longer while the rest of the arena moved on around you.
He was fine.
You were fine.
And when he kissed your forehead before leaving the rink, it felt like enough to carry you both home.
Summary: They were never nothing—but John Logan made sure they were never something either. Until the night he sees her with someone else... and realises too late what he let slip away.
Warnings: hospital, labour, coma
The first contraction wakes you at 2:17 in the morning.
At first, you think it's another false alarm.
You've had plenty of them over the past week.
Enough that both you and Logan have become experts at waiting twenty minutes before deciding whether it's actually happening.
So when the pain tightens low in your stomach, you simply squeeze your eyes shut and breathe through it.
It passes.
You let out a slow breath.
Then another one comes.
Stronger.
Longer.
You open your eyes and stare at the ceiling for a moment before slowly turning your head.
Beside you, Logan is asleep.
One arm stretched across the mattress toward your side, even in sleep unconsciously searching for you.
You almost smile.
Almost.
Another contraction steals your breath.
This one makes you grip the blankets.
Logan's eyes fly open instantly.
Not gradually.
Not sleepily.
Instantly.
The way they always do whenever something is wrong.
He sits upright before he's fully awake.
"What?"
His voice is rough with sleep.
Then he sees your face.
Everything changes.
Your hand instinctively reaches for his.
"I think..."
You pause, breathing carefully.
"I think she's ready."
For one second, Logan simply stares.
Then he practically launches himself out of bed.
"Oh my God."
He trips over his own shoes.
Recovers.
Runs into the bedroom door.
Recovers again.
You can't help laughing.
Even through another contraction.
"Logan."
"I'm fine."
He isn't fine.
He spends the next five minutes running around the apartment in complete panic while insisting he is perfectly calm.
He grabs the hospital bag.
Forgets the car keys.
Finds the keys.
Leaves without his phone.
Comes back for the phone.
Walks halfway out again before realizing he's still wearing mismatched slippers.
You laugh so hard you nearly forget you're in labour.
Eventually he kneels beside you.
Taking both of your hands in his.
His breathing is faster than yours.
"You okay?"
The question makes your heart ache.
You nod.
"I'm okay."
"You sure?"
You smile despite everything.
"You're asking the woman in labour if she's okay?"
"Yes."
A beat.
"I'm going to keep asking."
Your smile grows.
"I know."
He presses a kiss against your forehead.
His lips linger there for a second.
"I've got you."
The words settle somewhere deep inside your chest.
You've got me.
After everything.
After all the years it took to get here.
He still says exactly what you need to hear.
—
Hours later, the hospital room feels strangely timeless.
The lights never change.
The sounds never stop.
Doctors and nurses move quietly in and out.
Time stretches until neither of you knows exactly how long you've been there.
Logan never leaves your side.
Not once.
He holds your hand through every contraction.
Helps you breathe when you forget.
Brushes damp hair away from your face.
Keeps telling you how well you're doing, even when you insist you're absolutely not.
"You are."
His thumb strokes over your knuckles.
"I've never seen anyone stronger."
You laugh weakly.
"I think you're biased."
"I definitely am."
Another contraction arrives.
His hand tightens around yours.
"I'm still right."
You squeeze his hand so hard later he'll have tiny crescent marks from your nails.
He never complains.
Not once.
—
When your daughter's first cry finally fills the room, the entire world seems to stop.
For one breathtaking moment...
Everything is perfect.
Logan's face crumples.
He cries openly.
Completely.
The nurses gently place your daughter into his waiting arms while the medical team continues caring for you.
She's impossibly small.
Wrapped in a white blanket.
Pink-faced.
Loud.
Beautiful.
Logan looks down at her like he's forgotten how to breathe.
"Hi..."
His voice breaks immediately.
"Hi, sweetheart."
His tears fall freely now.
"I'm your dad."
He laughs through them.
"I can't believe I get to say that."
The tiny hand that escapes the blanket wraps around one of his fingers.
And Logan falls in love all over again.
—
Then everything changes.
A nurse's voice cuts through the room.
Calm.
Professional.
Urgent.
Another joins her.
Then another.
You feel hands moving around you.
More people entering the room.
The atmosphere shifts so quickly it steals the air from Logan's lungs.
He looks up.
Confused.
"What—?"
No one answers immediately.
The medical team focuses entirely on you.
Equipment is moved.
Instructions are exchanged.
Everything becomes a blur.
Logan's heart begins pounding.
Someone gently takes the baby from his arms.
"Sir, we need you to step back."
He doesn't want to.
Every instinct screams at him to stay beside you.
"I'm not leaving her."
"We're taking care of her."
"I know."
His voice shakes.
"But I'm not leaving."
A doctor finally looks at him.
"We're going to do everything we can."
Everything we can.
Those four words freeze his blood.
He reaches for your hand one last time.
Your fingers feel limp inside his.
He bends quickly.
Pressing his forehead against yours.
"I love you."
His voice breaks completely.
"You hear me?"
A tear falls onto your cheek.
"I love you."
"I need you to stay with me."
His breathing becomes uneven.
"You promised we'd do this together."
Someone gently guides him backward.
He keeps looking at you.
Until the doors close.
—
The next forty-eight hours become a blur.
His daughter is healthy.
Perfect.
Beautiful.
She spends most of her time sleeping against his chest.
She has your nose.
Your tiny frown when she's dreaming.
Your little wrinkle between her eyebrows.
Every time he looks at her...
He sees you.
And every time he walks into the intensive care unit...
You are still asleep.
The doctors explain that your body has been through a severe medical emergency. To help you recover, you've been placed into a medically induced coma while they monitor you closely.
They tell him your condition is stable.
They tell him they're cautiously optimistic.
They tell him recovery will take time.
Time.
The word becomes both his greatest comfort and his greatest enemy.
So he settles into a routine.
Every morning he feeds your daughter.
Changes her.
Learns how to hold her bottle properly.
Learns how to swaddle her.
Learns that she only falls asleep if he's walking.
Then he brings her to your room.
He sits beside your bed with your daughter asleep against his shoulder.
And he talks.
Just like he used to talk to her before she was born.
Except now...
He's talking to both of you.
"She smiled today."
He looks down at the tiny face tucked against him.
"Well..."
A small laugh.
"Gas probably counts less."
His eyes drift back to yours.
"I still think you'd have loved it."
Every day he tells you something new.
How she yawns exactly like you.
How she hates having cold wipes.
How she already quiets down whenever he hums.
How she wrapped her whole hand around his finger this morning.
He refuses to let you miss any of it.
"You've got so much catching up to do."
His voice is gentle.
"But don't rush."
He reaches over carefully.
Taking your hand in his free one.
"We're waiting."
His thumb brushes softly across your knuckles.
"The three of us."
He looks down at your daughter.
Then back at you.
"So..."
His smile is tired.
But real.
"We're still doing this together."
Just like he'd promised.
Even while he waited for you to find your way back.
garrett knows you're getting sick before you do. it starts when the two of you are sitting in the library, supposedly studying for your biology exam. he's trying, he really is, but every couple of minutes his eyes drift away from his notes and back to you.
normally you're the one reminding him to focus. today, though, you've barely said a word.
your chin is resting in your palm as you stare unfocused at your textbook, blinking a little slower than usual. every few minutes you quietly sniffle, rubbing your nose with the sleeve of your sweatshirt before apologizing under your breath.
garrett watches you for another minute before reaching across the table and laying the back of his hand against your forehead.
you blink up at him. "what are you doing?" his brows furrow. "checking to see if you're dying."
you let out the smallest laugh, rolling your eyes. "i'm not dying, silly."
"you look like you could fall asleep face first into your textbook."
"i'm just tired." he studies your face for another second. there are faint bags beneath your eyes, and your usual bright smile is nowhere to be found.
he sighs softly before closing both of your textbooks. "garrett.."
"nope." he's already standing, shoving everything into his backpack. "we're leaving."
"i have to study," you protest. you really did. otherwise your whole schedule would be thrown off and it would mess you up.
"and you're gonna study better after you've slept for twelve hours." you cross your arms. "you're so bossy."
he flashes you one of those effortless smiles that always makes it impossible to stay annoyed. "only because i reallyyy like you."
~
by the time you get back to your apartment, he's practically taken over. he's opening cupboards looking for soup, muttering to himself when he can't find any, before grabbing his keys.
"where are you going, baby?" he looks your way once before grabbing putting on his shows. "grocery store."
"garrett, you don't have to—"
"baby." he walks back over, gently cupping your face between both hands. his thumbs brush softly over your warm cheeks as his smile turns into something much gentler. "let me take care of you. the way you always take care of me." the way he says it makes your heart flutter. not even because he's trying to be dramatic. because he genuinely means it.
~
about a half hour later, he's back with two grocery bags balanced in one arm and a paper bag from your favorite bakery tucked beneath the other.
"they had those chocolate muffins you like." you smile sleepily from beneath the blanket. "i'm so sick."
he smiles sarcastically replying, "oh yeah, i know." you roll your eyes playfully at him. he starts unpacking everything onto the counter. "you being sick doesn't mean you stop liking blueberry muffins."
while the soup sits on the stove, he quietly moves around your apartment cleaning little things without saying a word. he folds the blanket you'd left crumpled over the arm of the couch. waters the tiny plant on your windowsill because he'd noticed the soil looked dry. when you ask what he's doing, he simply shrugs.
“nothing baby. go to bed, please.”
~
later that evening, the two of you are curled up on the couch watching some terrible reality show he'd insisted would make you laugh. every few minutes he glances away from the tv to check on you. "you warm baby?."
you nod, leaning into him more if possible. "want another blanket?"
"garrett.." you say with no intention, staring up at him quietly.
"yeah?" he asks while playing with a strand of your hair. "i already have three." he grins, trying not to laugh. "could make it four."
you can't even force yourself to laugh. "you're so ridiculous." his eyes light up immediately. "there she is."
you tilt your head. "what?"
"that's the first real emotion i've gotten out of you all day." he smiles to himself like he's just won the lottery, even though to him you mean more. "worth it."
~
at some point your head slowly droops onto his shoulder. he smiles down at you. god, you looked so adorable even when you were sick. his eyes soften as he continues glancing at you, watching your eyelids grow heavier with every passing second.
without saying anything, he carefully shifts so you're lying more comfortably against him before reaching for the blanket pooled at your feet and pulling it up around your shoulders.
his fingers brush through your hair. slow and gentle, the way he was only with you. you sigh quietly in your sleep, snuggling a little closer.
garrett's smile only grows. "comfortable?" he whispers. you don't answer, instead, your hand finds his without even waking up, your fingers lazily curling around his.
his heart feels like its gonna explode. he looks down at your intertwined hands and lets out the smallest, most lovesick laugh. he murmurs mostly to himself. "i'm definitely not going anywhere."
JOHN LOGAN...
john logan realizes something is wrong the second you pick up the phone. it’s not even what you say. it’s how quiet everything is around you.
normally, when he calls, there’s chaos in the background, some sort of music too loud, you laughing at something stupid, maybe complaining about your project parter or even telling him about your day before he’s even finished saying hello.
today, there’s just some sort of stillness, almost like a long pause. then he hears your voice, a little rough. “hey.”
logan sits up straighter immediately, phone pressed closer to his ear. “hey, baby. you okay? is everything good?”
another pause that’s way too long for you. “yeah..” he doesn’t buy it for a second. he’s already grabbing his hoodie and his shoes. “that answer sounded like it came from a dying cricket.”
on the other end, you almost let out a laugh, but not quite. “i’m fine. all good.” but john knew you better. “yeah, sure baby.”
he’s already at his door now, keys in hand. “how long you been sick?”
you hesitate again. that tells him everything. “don’t lie to me, sweetheart.” you let out a small sigh at his worried voice. “since like yesterday.”
logan closes his eyes for a second like he expected it and still doesn’t like it. “why didn’t you just tell me?”
“cause it’s literally not that bad, like at all.” you try to insist.
“you’re calling me sounding like that and saying it’s not that bad?”
there’s a soft shuffle on your end, like you’re curling up deeper into your blankets. “i- i just didn’t want to bother you, i guess.”
that makes him pause a little. then his voice slightly drops. “you could literally call me any time, while i’m doing quite literally anything and i would still show up”
you already knew he would. “logan.”
“what?” he says, like it’s obvious. “i’m coming over.”
you should’ve never admitted to being sick, you knew he would do this. drop whatever he’s doing just to take care of you. “please, no. you don’t have to!”
“yeah, i do.” he shuts the door behind him already heading out.
“stay where you are. don’t move. don’t suddenly try to act like you’re okay. i’m five minutes away.”
a tiny, tired laugh slips through your voice. “you’re dramatic.”
“yeah, yeah. love you too. see you soon.” and he hangs up before you can argue.
~
when he gets there, he doesn’t even wait for a proper invitation.
he knocks once, then unlocks the door how he has a thousand times before. you’re on the couch immediately in his line of sight.
the hoodie of his you have on is way too big, blanket wrapped around you like a burrito, your hair messy but somehow still perfect, and your cheeks and nose look a little rosier.
logan just stops for a second, taking in the sight of what he should’ve been taking care of. “jesus.” you stare at him nervously. “hi.”
he crosses the room in two steps and presses the back of his hand to your forehead. “you’re burning up.” you touch his hand for reassurance. “i told you i was fine.”
“you’re literally microwaving yourself.” you try to glare but it comes out weak and unfocused, which only makes him sigh harder. he kisses your forehead while thinking about his next steps.
“okay. couch stay is over.”
“logan..”
he’s already gently pulling the blanket tighter around you.
“nope. bed, hydration, soup, and i’m in charge.”
you smile at him trying to act tough. “since when?”
“since you got sick and decided to hide it like it’s a secret that i can’t be aware of.”
you try to protest again, but he just leans down slightly, softer now. “come on. i’ve got you, honey.”
~
your bed is instantly taken over. not even in a messy way, john is weirdly efficient. he fixes your pillows first, stacking them so you can actually breathe comfortably. he tucks your blanket in properly like you’re about to survive winter in a cabin. then he disappears into your kitchen without asking again. you hear cabinets opening. then closing.
then he mutters “why do you always buy sad crackers?”
from the bedroom, you mumble, “they’re not sad.”
you hear him open the fridge. you hear him moving around again, and despite the state you’re currently in, you relax a little deeper into the mattress.
~
when he comes back, he’s carrying a mug of tea and a bowl of soup that smells like it actually came from someone who cares about you. because it quite literally did. he sets it carefully on your nightstand carefully.
then he sits on the edge of your bed, elbow resting on his knee as he looks at you. “sit up a little.”
you groan. “i can’t move.”
“yes you can, miss dramatic.” he helps you anyway, slow and careful, like he’s scared to break you.
once you’re settled and sitting up, he hands you the mug first. “sip.” you do, actually enjoying the way the hot tea hits the back of your throat. it feels like its killing the soreness.
he watches like it’s his job.
“that’s…acceptable, i guess.” he decides.
you squint at him. “are you grading me on how i drink tea?”
he smiles at you. “absolutely.” he places a kiss to your hand, taking the tea and placing it on the nightstand beside you.
you manage a small laugh, and his entire face changes, like that was the goal the whole time.
you look down at your blanket instead of answering right away. logan shifts a little closer. “hey,” he says again, gentler. you glance up your eyes glossy from rubbing them.
his voice drops a little. “you don’t have to pretend you’re okay with me. ever.” something in your chest tightens at that.
“i just hate being sick so much,” you admit quietly.
“yeah,” he nods immediately. “me too, it’s annoying. and unfair, but i’m always here to get you through it.”
~
after you eat a little and drink most of the tea, you lie back down. logan stays sitting there, he doesn’t move, doesn’t leave. you watch him through half opened eyes. “you don’t have to stay the whole time,” you mumble.
he raises a brow. “who said i’m staying the whole time?”
you frown slightly. he leans back in the chair a bit, like he’s settling in. “of course i’m staying the whole time,” he corrects.
your eyes soften. “you didn’t have to come over either.”
“yeah,” he says simply. “i did. you’re my baby, i’m always gonna take care of you.” he reaches over, brushing your hair away from your forehead again, slower this time, planting a kiss on the corner of your mouth.
“you feel so warm, honey,” he murmurs.
you smile at him “you already said that a dozen times.”
“i’m saying it again.” you roll your eyes weakly. he could he so corny sometimes. he smiles. “ did you sleep, okay?”
“why? are you gonna leave?” he looks offended you would even think that. “no.”
“promise?” he looks at you like the answer is obvious. “ i promise.”
~
when you wake up again, you feel different. you’re warmer, your throat doesn’t feel as awful, and john is still there. exactly where you left him. scrolling on his phone quietly, occasionally glancing at you like it’s instinct.
when he notices you’re awake, his face softens immediately. “hey, sleepyhead.” you blink at him adjusting to the light. “you stayed.” he scoffs lightly. “yeah, that was kind of the plan.” you shift a little bit. he immediately adjusts your blanket again without thinking.
“how you feeling?” you think about it. “way better.” his shoulders relax like he’s been holding that answer in for hours. “good, good. i’m glad.”
he leans forward, resting his forearm on the bed beside you. “because i was getting ready to cancel all your plans for the week.”
you laugh properly this time, still weak, but real. logan grins. “don’t disappear on me like that again, yeah?” he says softly.
you nod at him, “okay..i won’t, i swear.” he smiles, satisfied. “good.” and then, like it’s the most natural thing in the world, he stays exactly where he is.
DEAN DI LAURENTIS...
dean doesn’t realize you’re sick at first. not because he’s oblivious, he’s just used to you being..you. you’re always moving, always talking, always teasing him for something. even when you’re annoyed, you’re expressive about it.
so when you sit next to him on his bed while he’s half studying, half scrolling his phone, and you’re just..quiet, he assumes you’re tired. at least at first.
“you good?” he asks without looking up. “mhm, yeah.”
he pauses and finally looks up. you’re curled into one of his hoodies, blanket around your legs, hair slightly messy. your eyes are half lidded like you’re trying to stay present but losing the fight. dean immediately sits up straighter. “okay, that’s not normal.”
you sniff quietly. “what?”
“you.” he gestures at your face. “you’re doing the sick thing.”
“i’m not doing a thing.” you say as convincingly as possible.
“you’re doing it right now baby.” you try to roll your eyes but it turns into a slow blink instead. dean narrows his eyes.
then reaches over and presses his palm to your forehead. you don’t even fight it. that’s his first real clue. “oh shit” he says almost in a worried tone.
you tilt your head at him slightly. “what?”
he exhales through his nose. “you’re actually sick, baby.”
“i told you i was fine.”
“yeah,” he says, already standing. “and i’m telling you i’m a professional hockey player. doesn’t make it true.”
you watch him start grabbing random things, your water bottle, his hoodie off your shoulders, the blanket he somehow thinks isn’t enough.
“dean..baby.”
“nope,” he says immediately. “bed. come on.”
you blink slowly at him, he was such an idiot. “i’m already on the bed.”
“then stay on it better.” that makes you laugh a little which he notices instantly.
his expression softens a little. “first time i heard you laugh today.”
you frown slightly. “what?”
“you’ve been quiet all day. it’s weird. your laugh is like music to my ears and soul, baby.”
you giggle at how pathetic he sounds, but the roughness in your throat immediately punishes you.
“you feel like crap, huh?”
“a little bit, but don’t we all?”
“okay.” he quickly gives you a kiss before he walks towards the bedroom door, “stay here.” he disappears out of the room before you can argue.
a few minutes later, he comes back holding soup and a mug like he’s done this a hundred times. you were 100% tucker helped him assemble whatever this was.
he sits next to you on the bed, hip pressed against the mattress. “eat.” you stare at him, not buying it. “you made this?”
“i helped assemble it,” he corrects. “don’t get too excited, but i made the tea myself!”
you take a sip anyway. it’s actually good. your eyebrows lift slightly. dean notices immediately. “yeah,” he says all smug. “shocking, right?”
you roll your eyes as he grins. “there you go. some of your personality returning.”
you lean back against the pillows after a few bites, tiredness creeping back in. dean watches you for a second longer than necessary. then reaches over, tugging the blanket higher around your shoulders.
“you’re so warm,” he notes.
“didn’t you say that already?” he pokes your side, “i’m making sure.”
he looks at you, almost sympathetically. “you should’ve just told me you were feeling it yesterday.”
you shrug slightly. “didn’t want you to worry.” dean looks at you like that answer doesn’t make sense to him. “that’s literally my job.”
you glance up at him, he’s not joking. he leans back a little, arm resting along the headboard behind you.
“you don’t get to disappear on me when you feel like garbage, okay?” his voice is calm, but there’s something protective underneath it. you nod softly. “okay.”
he pulls you into his chest and begins to play with your hair, as you fall into a deep sleep.
JOHN TUCKER...
tucker notices something is off about you before you even say a word. not because he’s psychic, but because you’re texting him. and you are never just “texting him.”
normally your messages are chaotic, voice notes, memes, gifs, half finished thoughts, random updates about your day that make no sense unless he’s already talking to you in person.
today it’s so short, too short.
you: “i’m home.”
you: “tired.”
that’s it.
tucker stares at his phone for a second like it insulted him personally. then immediately types back.
tucker: “that’s it? that’s all i get?”
no reply, he waits. still nothing. now he’s sitting up in bed. typing again.
tucker: “are you okay?”
three dots appear and then disappear.
you: “yeah. just not feeling great.”
his expression changes instantly, a little worry rushing through him.
he’s already out of bed.
~
by the time he calls you, he’s halfway dressed.
you pick up after two rings. “hey” you say softly.
and that’s all it takes for him to know.
your voice is smaller and slower. like you’re conserving energy just to speak.
“hi,” he says immediately, gentler now. “what’s going on?”
“nothing serious.”
“that’s what everyone says right before they turn into a disaster.” a faint exhale on your end,
almost a laugh, but it stops halfway.
tucker frowns. “where are you?”
“my dorm.”
“stay right there.”
“tuck, i’m fine.”
“you’re not fine, you sound like you chipmunk.”
“rude.” you mumble while pressing your face into the blanket.
he softens immediately. “how long you been sick?”
“since last night.”
tucker is already grabbing his hoodie. “why didn’t you tell me?”
“didn’t want you to come all the way over here.”
he cuts you off without hesitation. “too late. already in motion.”
you hear rustling on your end. “no, no, no, you don’t have to!”
“baby,” he says, quieter now, like it’s obvious. “i want to. trust me.”
that makes you go silent. he pauses at his door.
“just stay in bed, okay? i’ll be there soon.”
“okay.”
“good girl. don’t fall asleep and leave me on read, i will break your door down.”
a small laugh comes out of you. “you’re being insane.”
“yeah, yeah. see you soon.”
~
tucker shows up like he lives there. knocks once. opens the door anyway.
“you should really lock your door,” he calls out immediately. you’re on the couch, curled under a blanket, hair messy, face tired.
you look up at him slowly. “hi.”
he freezes for half a second. “yeah, okay, nope.”
his hand goes straight to your forehead. “you’re hot.”
you blink at him, a smile playing on your lips. “you always say that.”
“not like that,” he says instantly. “like fever hot. don’t get weird.”
you give a tiny wink, your eye barely moving. he exhales.
“you feel awful, don’t you?”
you hesitate. “not really..kinda.”
he’s already moving toward your kitchen before you can protest. “do you have anything to eat that isn’t just comfort food? you need like sick food.”
“i have crackers.”
he runs a hand through his hair. “i’ll figure something out.”
~
he comes back out like ten minutes later with soup he definitely didn’t fully “make” so much as assemble aggressively. he sits next to you on the couch, immediately pulling your legs gently into his lap like it’s instinct.
you blink at him. “what are you doing?”
“helping.” he smirks at you.
“with my legs?”
“yes. they looked lonely.” you roll your eyes at him.
~
later, you’re tucked into your bed properly. tucker has somehow taken over organizing your entire space without being asked.
he’s stacking your meds, refilling your water bottle, folding the blanket you weren’t even using right.
you watch him from under your covers.
“you don’t have to stay the night, i feel bad,” you mumble.
he doesn’t even look up. “i know.”
“are you going to anyway?”
he doesn’t even spare you a glance, “yep.”
you stare at him intently. “why?”
he pauses, finally looking at you, like the answer is obvious.
then he walks over and sits on the edge of your bed.
“because you texted me the word tired like it was a personality trait,” he says.
you let out a small laugh, and he smiles back at yoi.
then his voice softens again. “and because i like you better when you’re not trying to do everything alone.”
your expression softens too. “you’re so annoying.”
“yeah,” he says easily. “but i’m your annoying.” you roll your eyes, but there’s no real menace in it.
when you finally fall asleep, it’s fast, tucker notices right away. he slows down, stops moving around.
just sits there for a second watching you breathe.
then carefully pulls your blanket up a little higher.
“sleep well, baby. i love you.”
~ ~ ~
a/n: i absolutely adored writing the same scenario but from each boys perspective and now they would handle it! definitely open to doing more of these!
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Summary: Weeks after the shower incident you’re invited to the annual campus neon party. It’s a night where people get to be themselves and this means getting rid of all those feelings you think are just randomly surfacing. All without having to confess.
A/N: This was requested on AO3 so I’m sharing it here too. As per usual it is unedited
The music filtered through the woods, as you made your way through the crowd. Laughter and shouts surrounded you as people stood around with glow in the dark necklaces, glasses and paint over their half-naked bodies. These parties usually involved people throwing glow in the dark paint bombs and most people wore white to shine bright under UV lights that filtered through the open circle in the woods. The perfect party spot that didn’t feel too far from campus or your apartment.
John was around here somewhere. You’d promised to come with, but he said the guys dragged him here earlier and to find him. THe UV lights danced across the white dress, bringing your figure to light before it moved over the crowd. Scanning your surroundings you almost caught sight of him immediately. His bright smile struck by the light, head falling back as he laughed with the guys. Dean nudged him with his arm before his expression became more serious and continued the conversation.
“Shit,” you muttered under your breath. It had been weeks since you acknowledged your feelings but every time you saw him it still felt like butterflies tumbling around and your brain going fuzzy. Biting your lip, you turned to grab a drink where a group of people stood. Your heart hammered in your chest as you grabbed the closed beer and walked away from the center where you could be easily spotted, instead opting to stand closer to the trees. Your phone buzzed in your hand.
Logan: You here yet?
Biting your lip you debated answering, but soon the lights will turn off and it will turn into a full 7-minutes in heaven festival for you and whoever is closest to you. People have used this as an excuse to kiss crushes and find a bit of courage to take action on feelings and tonight, you’d be doing the same. You had to know if the feelings were purely ‘white-knight’ coded for him helping you, or if this is just the result of a friendship that has stretched so long.
Your nails tapped against the beer in your other hand as you debated answering. The logistics of it all falling into pros and cons that you mulled over in your head. The phone buzzed once more.
Logan: Don’t make me come and find you ;)
A giggle escaped you, blushing as you shake your head you finally decided to reply.
Me: I’m here. Just grabbing a beer.
It only took a few seconds for him to reply.
Logan: I don’t see you.
Your head lifted to see him walking closer to the group you had just been to. You swallow hard, fighting the urge to go to him. To pretend everything is normal when you’ve never wanted anything more than him.
“Lights out in three minutes everyone!” The DJ yelled, distracting you from your thoughts.
Your nails tapped against the screen feverishly.
Me: I’ll find you when the lights are back on.
You locked your phone, feeling it buzz once more with a text you didn’t bother to read. Finally you opened the beer, taking a large gulp of the cool liquid, letting it bring down your body temperature as you waited for the lights to dim. John stood almost in the middle of the clearing now. His body turning as he scanned his surroundings to find you, but you hid behind a tree ensuring you can’t be seen.
The lights started to flicker, a sign that it would soon be pitch black and as the countdown began you dropped the beer and moved through the crowds, careful enough to not be spotted by him. Your eyes darted around to see everyone in their own world, making your heart rate settle despite the panic.
“Five.”
You dart between a group.
“Four.”
John turned, scanning the crowd with no success.
“Three.”
The lights started to dim.
“Two.”
John started to turn just as you were a few feet away.
“One,” you muttered as the lights went out.
In the darkness your hands moved forward, grabbing his shirt and pulling him toward you before planting a gentle kiss to his lips. The world faded in that split second. That could have been enough. That you could live with. A single kiss was better than none. Your hands faltered in their grasp but before you could retreat he pulled you closer. One hand on your waist and another cupping your cheek as he angled your head, kissing you once more. A small gasp escaping you as he pressed against your body. Your hands moving to his shoulders, gripping onto him and relishing in the taste of him, and the alcohol on his lips.
“Lights are going back on in-” the DJ started.
You pressed against his chest to get away but it’s no use.
“No need to run, I know it’s you,” he whispered against your lips. Your eyes shot wide as the lights returned, meeting his brown eyes straight on. A smile tugging at his lips as his attention darts between your features. “I’ve wanted to do that for years.”
Your throat went dry. “What?”
A chuckle escaped him as he pulled back, hands finding your waist. “Why do you think I never actually got with anyone?”
Shaking your head you blush. “Yes you have. Dean told me.”
“Dean told you what I told him to tell you.”
“But,” you start but he cuts you off with another kiss that makes your head spin.
“All I wanted was you. Just you and I said I’d wait until you found someone, or realize that we’re good for each other.”
A heat bloomed in your heart at how sweet this all was. “All these years?”
He laughed and nodded. “Since I first met you and had to deal with your awful sense of humor I was hooked.”
Playfully you smacked his arm. “Rude.”
“I would’ve waited a hundred more if needed.”
“Just kiss me again,” you whisper, moving forward to kiss him again with no end in sight.
Summary: Slipping in the shower leads to you calling your oldest friend John to help, but for the first time you see him as more than a friend.
Your music blares through the apartment, the shower running and steam billowing through the open bathroom door as you strip and get into the shower. The familiar melody of your favourite song comes on and instantly puts you in a better mood. the phones buzzes on the bathroom sink as you nod your head along to the beat. Wiping down the steam from the glass you watch your phone ring with John’s name and the picture you took of him brightening up the screen.
You promised to wing-woman him tonight, not that he necessarily needed it, but he let you do it regardless. The smile that tugged at your lips when he agreed made him laugh and shake his head. So here you are, showering to go out with John Logan and to find him a fling at a bar.
Quickly you grab the shampoo, dancing around and using the bottle as a microphone while yelling out lyrics. Quickly you lather your hair up into a mo-hawk before grabbing your next victim, the soap, and singing with it until the music changes to a different song before washing your body. The music turns into something even more upbeat and as you dance, your foot slips on soap that had coated the tiles from your dancing and your body hits the shower floor with a yelp escaping you.
A hiss falls from your lips as a pain shoots up your ankle, water spraying over your body as you lie there. Curses shoot out of you as the pain intensifies. Attempting to stand only causes pain over your entire body, you can’t even reach the lever to turn off the water. With a groan you manage to push open the shower door.
“Siri!” you yell.
The familiar sound echoes through the bathroom.
“Call John Logan.”
It only takes a few minutes for the ringing to stop and his voice to echo through the phone. “Am I finally worthy of the privilege of talking to you?” he teases.
“John,” your voice comes out hesitant as the pain intensifies in your ankle.
The shift in tone is evident. “What happened?”
A groan escapes you. “I… can you come over.”
“Stay on the line.” you hear the jangle of keys through the phone.
A hollow laugh escapes you. “Well, I can’t reach the phone so I don’t have a choice unless you end the call.”
Silence follows.
“Is… is that the shower?” he finally asks.
Resting your head against the tiles you hum out a soft yes.
Every few minutes he curses under his breath but he doesn’t hang up. The water has washed all the soap and shampoo from your body leaving you aching on the floor.
“Is your door unlocked?”
You swallow hard, the heat of the water making you dizzy. “Yeah,”
“Why is your door unlocked?”
The rattle of the door opening echoes through the apartment and the phone. Heavy footsteps move through the apartment until his shadow dances across the floor. The steam the only thing keeping him from seeing your naked body.
“Wait!” you yell as he finally hangs up.
“What the fuck happened?”
You try to shift and cover yourself but the pain is too much. “I slipped.”
He steps closer.
“Hold on! I need… don’t look but hand me a towel please.”
He freezes. You watch his figure through the door. His hand slips through the cracked open door and turns off the water. Then he turns and grabs the towel handing it to you without looking. As carefully as you can you cover your body.
“Can I open the door now?” he asks gently.
Without replying, you swing open the door to see the worry in his eyes. You give him a small wave and tight smile to lighten the mood. “Fancy meeting you here.”
He barks out a laugh as his eyes travel over your features and to your foot. The bruise already blooming in hues of blue and purple. “Shit. How did you even manage that?”
Your mind wanders to the dancing. “No clue.”
Bending down he brushes his fingers over your ankle making you jump and curse. “Sorry.”
He shakes his head. “Don’t be. Can you stand at all?”
You cock a brow. “Do you think I would’ve called you if I could?”
“Right.” he replies with a thin lipped smile.
“I ruined your night.” you whisper.
His focus returns to your eyes, softer now than before. “You didn’t ruin anything.”
“But,”
“No buts. Just,” he sighs. “Sorry about this.”
Before you could protest his one arm slips beneath your legs and the other at your back as he pulls your from the shower floor and against his chest, carrying you to the bed.
“Such a gentleman,” you tease.
He chuckles as he puts you down, making sure the towel doesn’t move before turning to your closet and grabbing you clothes.
“You don’t have to do that.”
He ignores the comment grabbing your favourite pjs and then places them next to you and turning around. “If you get dressed I’ll make us hot chocolate.”
“John,” you start hesitantly. “You can still go out without me, you know? Get one of the boys to wing man you instead.”
He doesn’t turn but his shoulders tense for a second as you use the towel to dry your upper body and pull on the baggy shirt.
“I don’t trust their judgement as much as I trust yours.”
For some reason the comment made your heart stutter, cheeks turning rosy as a blush creeps up your skin. He leaves the room as you pull on the soft shorts and dry your hair with the towel before dropping in to the floor and attempting to stand once more.
“No. Sit.” John’s voice fills the room as he sees me attempt to stand. In his hands are two cups and the aroma of hot chocolate waft through the air, and beneath his arm is something wrapped in a towel.
He places the mugs on the bedside table and helps me back on to the bed. Quickly he places the towel over your ankle, the cold an indicator of the frozen peas he found in your freezer. “There we go,” he whispers before kicking off his shoes.
“What are you doing?”
He frowns. “Do you want me to put them at the front door?” he points down at his shoes.
You shake your head. “No, I mean why are you staying?”
“I’m going to pretend to not be hurt by that statement and get on the bed with you. Where’s the laptop?” he asks.
You blink, half stunned. Pointing to the small table he sees the laptop and brings it to the bed and places it in front of the both of you before settling next to you.
“Thank you.” Your head rests on his shoulder.
“For?” he asks softly as he picks one of your favourite movies.
“Staying.”
Placing a gentle kiss on your head he whispers, “This is way better than any bar would ever be.”
“I could still wing-woman you through tinder or something.”
“Quit it.” He laughs.
Whether it was the domesticity of it all, or the fact that for once you didn’t mind someone taking care of you, something shifted and the only thing you could hope was that he felt it too, or that it would eventually fade away.
you hear the door click open and the familiar shuffle of john coming back from practice, his duffel hitting the floor with a soft thud.
he doesn’t even spare you a glance, immediately muttering something about drills and how coach was on his ass again, not even looking up as he takes off his shoes and heads straight for the desk where his laptop sits open.
you’ve been waiting, standing there in the middle of the room wearing nothing but delicate black lace that hugs your curves just right, the material doing little to hide anything, tiny bows at your hips and between your breasts catching the low light. he doesn’t notice. not at first.
“john,” you call softly, but he’s already typing, shoulders hunched, completely focused on whatever assignment or schedule he’s pulling up.
you try again, a little louder this time. “johnnn” you drag on. still nothing. he’s lost in his own world, his fingers flying over the keys, the only sound in the room the quiet click of the keys and his occasional sigh.
you take a slow step closer, the lace shifting against your skin with every movement.
“john. logan.” this time your voice carries a little more frustration, enough to make him pause.
he glances over his shoulder, distracted, his eyebrows drawn together like he’s about to give up completely.
then his eyes land on you.
his mouth opens, breath catching hard enough that you see his chest stop and inhale heavily. the assignment is forgotten, the laptop screen dimming as he turns fully, and before you can even smile he’s dropping straight to his knees on the carpet of his bedroom floor.
the sound is a soft thud but like every ounce of tension leaves his body at once. his hands rest on his thighs, palms open, and those hungry, yearning eyes lift to meet yours, they’re wide, dark, almost pleading.
“come to me, baby” he says, voice low and rough, every word wrapped in that same aching need that makes your stomach flip. he almost sounded like he wanted to cry. your poor baby was so overworked.
you take the few steps that close the distance, and the second you’re within reach his hands are on you, gentle at first, his fingertips tracing the edge of the fabric at your hips before sliding up, palms warm against your skin. he leans in, pressing his face right against your stomach, breathing you in like he’s been starved for it.
a soft, shaky exhale leaves him, and you feel the shake in his shoulders as he holds himself back from pulling you down too fast.
his fingers hook under the thin straps at your hips, not tugging, just holding, feeling the texture of the lace against his skin. he looks up again, those same puppy eyes darker now, lashes low, and you can see how hard he’s fighting to stay still, to let you come to him the way he asked.
the clear yearning is there, enough that you feel it in your own pulse.
you thread your nails through his hair, and that’s all it takes for him to surge forward, mouth pressing open kisses along the line of lace just above your navel, tongue flicking out to taste skin wherever the fabric allows.
his hands slide around to cup your ass, squeezing once before he drags you even closer, burying his face between your thighs without hesitation. the lace is already damp from how wet you are, and he moans against it, the sound vibrating straight through you. “john” you moan quietly.
he doesn’t rush. he stays on his knees, worshipping every inch he can reach, kissing the inside of your thigh, the sheer thin covering your pussy, breathing hot and heavy until you’re rocking against his mouth without meaning to.
his tongue presses flat through the fabric, licking slow and deliberate, soaking the lace even more until it clings to you. every time you tug his hair he groans, the sound needy and desperate, and he looks up again with those same hungry eyes like he’s asking permission to keep going, to pull the delicate material aside and finally taste you properly.
when you nod, his fingers are quick but careful, easing the lace down your hips just enough to bare you to him. he doesn’t stand up yet.
he stays right there on the floor, pulling you forward until your thighs cover his face, and then his mouth is on your bare pussy, tongue sliding through your folds, lips sealing around your clit to suck gently before he flattens his tongue again and laps at you like he’s been thinking about this all day. “ugh, you- you make me feel so good johnny.”
his hands grip your ass tighter, holding you steady while he eats you out with slow, thorough strokes that make your knees shake. if it wasn’t for his grip on your ass, you would’ve fallen to the floor by now.
you can feel how turned on he is, the hard outline of his cock against his sweats, but he doesn’t touch himself. he just keeps his focus on you, licking and sucking until your hips are rolling against his mouth and soft sounds are slipping from your throat.
every few seconds he glances up, checking your face with those same yearning eyes, like your pleasure is the only thing that matters in the world right now.
when your thighs start to tremble harder he pulls back just enough to press a kiss to your clit, then another lower, tongue dipping inside you for a moment before he stands in one fluid motion.
his arms wrap around you, lifting you easily, and he carries you the short distance to the bed without ever looking away from your face.
he lays you down carefully, the lace still tangled around one thigh, and climbs over you, settling between your spread legs.
he kisses you then, so deep, slow, letting you taste yourself on his tongue, while his hand works between your bodies to shove his sweats down just far enough. the head of his cock nudges against your entrance, hot and slick from how ready you both are, and he pauses there, forehead resting against yours, breathing hard.
“tell me you want this honey,” he whispers, voice wrecked, eyes searching yours like he needs the words as much as the act itself.
when you pull him closer and say yes, he sinks into you in one smooth thrust, burying himself to the deepest he can with a groan that vibrates through both of you.
he stays still for a moment, just feeling you around him, then starts to move, slow at first, rolling his hips so every stroke drags against that perfect spot inside you.
his hands never stop moving, sliding over the lace still clinging to your body, fingers tracing every strap and bow like he’s memorizing the way it looks on you.
he leans down to kiss the swell of your breast above the cup of the bra, teeth grazing lightly before he sucks a mark there, claiming you even as he fucks you deeper. the bed creaks under the steady rhythm he sets, each thrust pushing you higher, and he keeps his eyes on your face the whole time, watching every reaction, every flutter of your lashes when he hits just right.
you come first, clenching around him hard enough that his rhythm falters, and he follows right after, burying his face in your neck as he spills inside you with a broken moan, hips jerking through the aftershocks.
he doesn’t pull out right away. he stays there, cock still twitching, pressing soft kisses along your jaw and whispering how beautiful you look, how much he needed this, how he’ll never get tired of seeing you like this just for him. “you’re just so perfect baby.” he whimpers into your neck. “i’d do anything for you. anything, i promise.”
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a/n: as it’s clear, i’ve been heavily into my logan era, specifically yearning logan. this is based off this request! requests are open! 💗
tags: slow burn, pwp, p.in.v, oral (f. recieving), unprotected sex (pls dont do that), both have a breeding kink, multiple rounds? afab!reader, very sexy as i would say. logan is very very desperate.
a/n: ykw sue me for being so late. i had this sitting in the drafts for so long istg i saw spiders creating webs on it. i tried to make it kind of dialougue centric but i forgot i am very interospective so yea enjoy the part 2 and pls send me requests so i dont evaporate. :(
The days were fleeting, and the time was ticking every second. It was almost a week since that incident– the one where you were sprawled across the bed for Logan to see you through his window? Poor man couldn't get the image of you breaking down for him out of his brain; it flooded every nook and cranny of his hockey head. Whenever he was in class, you popped up in his head with you taking off your cute pink panties; whenever he was in practice, he missed his shot because the picture of you cumming on your fingers played in his head at that very moment– poor Logan then got lectured by Coach Jensen. He sometimes looked through the same window, hoping to see you in that way again, no matter how lewd that thought even was. However, he could never– your blinds were always closed, and he always saw you when you were sitting on your lawn, either reading your book or laughing with Hannah and Allie.
John Logan was already crazy for you, but after that night, he could never think of anyone but you. And you? As much as you pretended to be confident and unbothered, which riled up Logan very much, that incident ate up every part of your self-control and desire. Countless nights, your hands crept beneath your shorts, and your palm groped your chest as you moaned into the air, thinking about Logan– how you only saw his lips parting, but you swore you almost heard him moan. Countless times you fantasised about Logan running his calloused fingers through your body and kissing you with his whole might and guiding your body to pleasure– far too many times you dreamed about it, when you were in your classes, when you were in your musical practice, even during your shift at Malone's, when Hannah snapped you out of your haze.
There were a few occasions when you both interacted, with eye contact, which left you both heavy afterwards, sometimes with small smiles, but none of you said anything because words get lost on your tongue as soon as you see him. You peered through your window whenever you got the time, maybe while you got ready– Logan and his mates working out in the lawn, and oh, how it made your whole body work up at the sight of him. You saw his biceps flex as he lifted his dumbbells and wondered how your nails would dig in them, and how those marks would look on his arms, as you chewed on your pencil. And when he looked at your window, you immediately looked away, hoping he didn't see– and he didn't, well, he couldn't catch the sight of your pretty eyes staring at him.
You both were desperate for each other, but afraid of taking the step. So many times you both reached for the phone for that one call, but the hope drowned as soon as the contact appeared on the screen. Throwing the phone somewhere on the bed and looking at the window– who knew that a freaking window could become someone's favourite thing. You begged to whatever heavens that were above you to get a sight of him, maybe undressed if they were generous enough, and Logan wished to see you in your skimpy little outfits, dreaming about how he could take them off in one swift move.
One of you definitely needed to make the move, but who? That question still lingered in the folds of the sheets of your bed.
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It was one of those nights where the hockey house was crowded with drunk students of Briar U, dancing and chatting loudly with energy. You were currently in your room with Hannah and Allie, applying the blush on your cheeks as you checked yourself out in the mirror. You wore a sheer black shirt, your black lace bra peeking out, paired with a black miniskirt and a large black belt with a large buckle. It was paired with silver dangly hoops and knee-high, black leather boots. You felt bold tonight, bold for Logan to see and approach you, maybe with the night ending on your bed as he took all of this off.
“Babe, are you thinking of killing Logan with your outfit?” Allie said from your bed as she was ruffling her hair up in the hand mirror. “Poor guy, he doesn’t know that he has to feel his self-control depleting again.”
“Logan hasn’t stopped talking about you for some reason”, Hannah’s voice followed. You didn’t tell them what happened that night, but maybe you will pretty soon.
A chuckle left your lips. “Well, Allie, you say as you apply your lip gloss, 'If he wants me, he’s gotta handle all of me.”
“Ooh, she's getting laid tonight”, you hear Hannah laugh from behind.
But as funny or entertaining as it seemed, the thought of it crept under your skin and shook every nerve in your body.
Logan couldn’t wait to see you tonight. He looked around the crowded room between conversations with Garrett, hoping to see your smiling face, hoping to just talk to you, for which he practised in the mirror with Tucker catching him and leaving the room with a held-in laughter. All the girls who came to him with intentions and the cup of booze in his hand seemed so uninteresting without you; it was one of the first times a party didn’t please him.
He almost decided to ditch the party and walk to your door before he saw you enter the room with Hannah and Allie. Everything around him went silent. You walked towards him, and he swore that his heart skipped a few beats right there. He could see everything, especially your black lace bra that peeked through the translucent fabric of your shirt.
“Oh, you’re done for,” Dean whispered behind him.
“What the fuck do you mean?”
“Listen, you can leave the party if you want to.” Dean’s face cracked a little smirk before Logan could even say anything. Dean walked away to meet Allie, and now he stood alone near the kitchen island.
You felt him stare, very well. Ever since you entered his periphery, every shift of eyes riled you up. You wanted to talk to him, but your girls kept you busy with half of the people in the room. And for him, every shot of liquid courage still didn't do as it said; he either chickened out or gave up the thought when he saw you talk to other guys who didn’t please you much either.
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The night descended into perfection– the lights were dimmed, and your favourite song was blasting through the speakers as you and Allie danced away. The alcohol was already in your system and made everything so amplified. Logan, he finally got a break from all the girls who tried to entertain him but failed.
He stood near the staircase, leaned against one side of the handrail as he saw you dance– your hips moving swiftly with the rhythm and your hair flowing with you. You felt him stare at you; well, you actually wanted him to stare at you. This whole night you dolled up and presented yourself to him, and still he didn’t approach you. You were so close to giving up before you saw the intent in his eyes– maybe it really isn’t in your head. Logan saw you stare at him while you moved, and every sway made him want you even more.
“Why are you not talking to her man?” It was Dean, again. Logan was ready for whatever mockery he was about to throw.
“What do you mean?” Logan tried to numb this pit in his stomach with a sip of his drink.
“I saw you the entire night man, do not try to kid me, ” Dean seemed serious with his expression as he pointed at him. “You were staring at her throughout the party.”
Wow, so it was that obvious…
“Now is the right time, Logan. The music is right, she is dancing, and don’t worry about Allie, she will not bother.” He was actually right. Logan wasn’t mistaken at all– you wanted him as much as he wanted you, so why was he so afraid of approaching you the entire night?
Logan downed the last of his drink and handed the cup to Dean. “Thank you so much, man”
And for you, you didn’t notice much of anything. Allie was in front of you, holding both your hands and moving, before her expression changed as she saw something behind you, and with a smirk, she blew you a kiss and left. You were almost perplexed before you felt a body behind you, hands creeping around your waist, and sliding down to your hips to guide you with him. You felt his lips grazing your ears before he spoke, “Sorry to keep you waiting the entire night”, Logan whispered in your ear. And the tone of his voice immediately sent your nerves tingling, and he noticed by the way your chest rose.
“If it were me, we would be in the bedroom already. You heard his breath hitch in your ears, and his chest shifted against your back.
Logan pressed you against him, for you to feel the warmth of his body– his hands roamed, hoping to feel something through your sheer shirt. And you took advantage of it, you pressed your ass against him and let your head fall back on his shoulder. The soft sound that was elicited from his lips and the feel of him growing against you immediately gave you satisfaction. Poor guy almost felt himself break down at the situation, he didn’t know how long he could hold himself back. He pulled your hips even closer so you could feel him entirely.
“See what you do to me?” He said as his lips grazed the nape of your neck, taking in the scent of your sweet perfume– your skin electrifying with each touch. You could feel his control dropping with each beat of the music.
You shifted in his arms so you could face him. His face was inches from yours, the faint shimmer in your eyes spread to your cheeks, and your lipstick faded with a faint tint left. You made him want you even more. And you could see the flush of his cheeks in the dim light of the room, his eyes heavy with need— the way it was the other night. He leaned in, his lips touching yours, testing the waters. You almost gave in before an idea came to your head.
You pulled away– his shoulders feeling empty from your arm sliding off his shoulders. Logan was confused– if you wanted him the entire time and led everything till now, then why did you stall at the last moment? You saw the perplexity on his face, it made you feel guilty for a while– but the true intent behind your idea made you excited. You prayed that he did what you wanted him to do– to not follow you. He saw you slip away from his arms and walk to the door, looking back at him on the dance floor with a smirk before you went away. This definitely had to mean something.
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Logan lost it all. He was contemplating whether to follow you to his house or drink his pain away for the night. Instead, he decided to skip the entire party and spend the night in his room. He entered his room, and the first thing he saw was his window. Your blinds were still closed— wrenching his heart more than he expected. He fell back into his bed, staring at the ceiling. Logan used to be man for whom women used to drop down to their feet. He used to have a fleet of puck bunnies swarming around him. And now, he is a miserable man whose dick cannot stand up without the thought of you.
And you? You were on a full ride with this game, and he knew that, yet he let himself be played. Every single move that you made was intentional. Like how he saw you in the back garden the other day, putting up daises on the ground in your shorts and a shirt so right. Whenever you bent and an intimate sliver of skin, Logan looked away– trying to be respectful even though he saw you in a much explicit scenery. Unfortunately, his dick reacted way before than his mind did.
You open your blind and look into Logan’s window. The lights are dim in his room, but you figure out that he is sprawled across his bed. The heavens above have heard your plea, your plan is working to perfection. You ring his phone. Logan is taken out of his thoughts when he sees your name calling him. He picks it up in a hurry.
“Look at your window, Logan.” He immediately sat up and saw you. Your stood there, a sultry grin on your face and your fingers fluttering to greet him.
“Is it my turn say sorry for making you wait” he heard you continue, his attention completely on you now.
“I wanna make it up to you. So, I want you to keep your eyes on me. Can you do that for me?”
Your voice had him in a trance now. He was already recalling the night before. However, two can play a game.
You heard his voice through your phone, “What’s in it for me then?”
“You’ll know”, your fingers played with the buttons of your shirt, opening them one at a time. You could hear Logan chuckle lowly on the other line, it immediately went between your thighs.
On the other side, Logan saw you slowly undress, presenting to him like his favorite show. He leaned back and played along, even if he wanted to come over, pin you against the window and fuck you so that everybody could see who you belong to. The shirt now slipped off your shoulder, displaying your bra that peeked underneath the sheerness of your shirt. It was now followed by your skirt, the matching panties coming into his sight. You took your skirt off slowly, letting the man spectating you get impatient. You heard his voice shudder on the other line– means your plan was working.
Logan was practically holding himself back. Until he saw you sit on the bed and spread your legs apart, your fingers running lightly on thighs as he heard your breath getting heavier on the call. The touch was small, but knowing that he was currently watching you on the other side, it riled you up even more, making even the smallest shifts send sparks in your entire system.
“Logan…” You called him. He heard your cry on the other side, that was his cue. He stormed out of his room, rushed through the crowd and there he was at your door. He rang the bell once, then again. You rushed downstairs, tying the knot of your silk robe as you opened the door to see him standing. None of you said anything in that moment, there was a quiet intimacy in the way you both stood– as if the past and future mingled something into you both could not comprehend. Logan took a step forward, your chest touching his. You could feel the warmth radiating off his body, as you looked up at him– the streetlight illuminating a side of his face, his eyes waiting for you to give the cue. Logan clenched his fists on the side, trying to keep the last speck of his willpower. And then he said your name softy, it sent sparks through your whole body.
“Logan” your voice came out soft, as your hands placed itself on his shoulders like it was meant to be placed there. He understood it, he saw it in your eyes, he heard it in your tone– the desperation that he always misunderstood.
He didn’t miss another second pulling you in– his lips on yours. Yours were soft, a hint of cocoa that he could taste. His hands rested on your waist as it slithered from your hips to your ass, a slight grip. You pulled on the collar of his jacket as you gasped into his lips. Your lips moved against his, the heat between you both increasing. He guided you inside the house and locked the door behind him. You pulled away from the kiss as you looked at him– his lips red from the kiss, the rouge on his cheeks and his pupils dilated. He looked so pretty– so yours. You pulled him in for a kiss again. Your hands were now sliding through the nape of his neck to his hair, your fingers tangling into his hair. He hummed into his kiss as he peppered kisses from your lips to your neck, sucking into the skin of your neck and marking open kisses into your collarbone. Each second made you want him even more.
Logan pulled away as his eyes were on you now, a small smile on his face.
“Do you want this?”
“Yes”. Your voice was a little rough.
“Are you sure?”
You nodded.
“Words, baby”
Baby, the word hit you like a truck. Logan saw you froze for a moment.
“Yes. I want you, Logan”
“Perfect.”
He leaned in for a kiss again, but this time it was a little rougher. His hand held the back of your neck as his other hand grabbed on your hip tightly, as if you could slip away so easily. He pressed himself against your thigh; you could feel him hard already.
“See what you did to me, baby?” His voice was rough in your ear. “That's how you made me the second you danced on me.” The way he said each word, it reached between your legs before it hit your conscious.
“My pretty baby wouldn't make me wait today, hmm?” He held your chin delicately so as to meet your eyes. “Would she?” He waited for you to answer.
“No,” He could see you melting with each second. “Wanna be good for you.”
Logan felt his composure break the minute he saw you look at him with pretty eyes, as if they were begging him to break you tonight. He flashed a small smirk, “That's my girl”, his voice was low. He leaned in to kiss you again, this time, slow but steady– his tongue prodding your lips and you letting him in with no hesitation. Your nails scratched softly at his shoulder through his shirt, you heard him groan into your mouth.
His hands moved to the back of your thighs, grabbing you and lifting you like you're nothing. He moved to the kitchen island, his kisses rough on your neck and to your chest– you leaned back to his touch. His fingers looped into the knot of your robe, as your eyes met his. You could see a soft tease in his expression; and he could see the want in your eyes. The robe untied between his fingers, and he could see the delicate black lace adorned on your body. He ran his finger along the delicate line of your panties.
“Is this for me, pretty?” He asked.
You nodded.
“I need words.” He demanded. It made your thigh clench, and he noticed that.
“Yes. Just for you.” Your voice came out low and shaky, as his hands inched closer and closer to where you need him the most.
“So good for me,” his finger glided softly over your covered slit. A soft sigh elicited from your lips. “Showing yourself off so prettily, like you know who you belong to”, then presses his fingers to your clit through the fabric. Even the softest touch made you so worked up. “So wet f'me.”
His hand pulled away as he slotted himself between your legs, kneeling down. You propped yourself on your elbows, looking down at him as he left small kisses along your inner thigh. “Logan.” You called him.
He was now alert, “What's wrong baby?”
The word made your brain short circuit again, “You don't have to do it.”
“Don't have to do what?”
The words were difficult to get out, ironic considering the position you're in.
“Uhh. You know. What you're about to do.” You murmured.
“You don't want me to eat you out. What kind of man does that?”
You couldn't reply to that.
“Listen.” His grip on your thighs tightened, “You're here with me now. You're mine. And I'm going to do what you like, okay?”
“Yes, Logan.”
“Do you want this?”
“Yes, I want this.”
“That's my girl.”
He kissed your clit through the fabric, immediate sparks. And then his tounge teased it, a soft moan leaving your lips. His teeth tugged at the waistband of your lace as he took it off with his teeth, dragging it slowly through your legs for you to observe. That was the hottest thing you ever witnessed.
He pulled your legs apart again, settling between them. His eyes were on you as he took a long stripe along your slit, your fingers gripped nothing. His tounge continued his work, alternating between small circles on your clit. Your body was on sparks and you didn't even mind the sounds that escaped your lips– sounding like most beautiful song for Logan. His hand held you tight to keep you from moving away. His lips were on your clit now, sucking on it softly as you held yourself back from breaking down right there, Logan noticed that.
"It's okay, come on my tounge now." His pace fastened as his tounge remained flat as your hips grinded to reach your high.
It didn't even take much time, you fell apart– a moan escaping your lips as you gasped with overstimulation as his tounge worked on your pussy. He pulled away as you reached for a kiss, tasting your essence on his lips.
"Did so good for me." He left a peck on your lips.
"So, do you wanna do me here, or upstairs." Your voice came out rougher. You saw it in his face, him breaking a little.
"Don't say it like that, baby. You know how you make me."
"I know that."
"Of course you do", he picked you up in his arms and took you upstairs.
You lost the consciousness about the time for a while as he cradled you in his arms to the bedroom upstairs, the reality hit you when you back hit the bed– and Logan just above you. This was exactly moment that you both waited for, hidden behind those very blinds from which you both peeked but never spoke. There was a silent initmacy between you both, a realisation of what this series of events might bring for both of you. You saw the rogue in his cheeks and he saw the desperation behind your eyes. Your hands reached out to caress his face, him immediately leaning into your touch as if he was depraved of it for years, his eyes closed for a moment and his lips gaped before he looked at you. He immediately leaned in for a kiss, this time a little gentle and intimate. His hands shifted to your shoulders, taking off the robe that hung from your shoulder and throwing it somewhere on the ground. His kisses fluttered from your necks to your shoulders, his lips engraved in every mole on your shoulder.
You lost your touch with time and space, everything in your awareness turned into him. His fingers that worked skillfully to take your bra off, and his thigh that settled near your sex. Logan looked at you momentarily, seeing you lose yourself, that made him want you even more. His pleasure was your pleasure, and he could give anything for it. You felt his lips grazing, laying small kisses around your breasts, before his tounge circled around your nipples. He heard your soft moans. Your hips shifted under his knees, and chased for the feeling.
He lifted himself up for a moment. "What d'you want?"
"Please," your voice soft and needy, it immediately went to Logan's dick. "I want it all."
"You sure, baby?" his fingers tucked a strand falling on your face. You nodded frantically, lips caught behind your teeth as you held yourself back from making anymore noises.
Logan took his jacket off, followed by his shirt which landed somewhere near your robe on the floor. Your eyes landed where it was supposed to, his muscular built– a result of meticulous physical toil of hockey. Your hands unconciously grazed his abdomen, nails lightly scrarching where he just wanted to. Every touch worked up every nerve in his body. He held your wrist and guided it to where he needed the most. He swore he saw heaven when you palmed him. Your fingers crept to the fly of his pants and worked to take it off.
He took his pants off, sitting there with his boxers. Two of your fingers pulled on his boxers as his dick springed out, tan at the tip and a shape that made your thighs close and mouth water. You looked up at him, and you felt him pulse on your hand. Your hands shifted, drops of precum leaking from his tip. He threw his head back, chest heaving with need.
"Maybe next time, I promise." His voice was rougher. The thought made you shift a little, maybe, it made you pull your legs closer. His hands immediately caged your legs. You didn't realise when his boxers were discarded. He pulled you closer to him, you felt him near your slit sliding up and down, his tip hitting your sensitive clit and making you moan.
"Please, Logan," you cried out, music to his ears.
"Please what baby?" He was so condesending. You wanted him even more.
"I want it so bad."
"How can I deny you begging baby?" His tip now prodded at your entrance, making you moan at the stretch. He shifted more, giving you time to adjust. You felt so good against him— warm, wet, and fluttering with need as you moaned out gripping the sheets beneath you. His fingers dug into your hips or wherever it managed to grab, holding to urge to push it all in. And when he bottomed out, moans erupted from both your throats.
"I'm gonna move now okay?" He tried to manage his words out of a tangle. You were as worse as him, your fingers holding on to his shoulders, nails leaving marks on his back. His hips rocked, giving you the most wanted push ever.
His paced quickened before he could even realise. And how could he not— you were sprawled out so prettily, squirming and moaning as if he was the only one who could give you the pleasure you deserve. "Yes, yes Logan. Just like that– oh I'm not going to last long!" You cried, fingers digging into his arms.
He was now only focused on your pleasure, pace quickening as your every spasm send shivers down his back. "Come for me, baby", and that was your signal. A moan tore from your throat as you felt every nerve in your body stimulate, the wave of your orgasm hitting you in the best way. He moved until the rode off your release.
Both of you paused for a moment, you coming back to reality. "You good?" He asked.
"Yes," You nodded. "Never felt better"
"Good," he seemed to prepare something that he knew would make you lose your head. He leaned in to whisper in your ear, "Because I'm not over with you."
Before you could even comprehend, he flipped you on your stomach and began with his move, hitting every spot so relentlessly as if he intended to break you apart tonight. You gripped the sheets beneath you, pleasure heightened even more because of your previous orgasm.
"My- pretty baby–" He groaned out, the tone sending sparks in your belly. "Making me feel so good." You moaned in response.
"Huh– so loud, no one made you feel this way?", you were pathetically moaning under him. "Only—only you, Logan." Your response resulted into a smack landing on you ass. "So filthy," every word from his mouth etch closer to your orgasm
Logan couldn't hold himself back anymore, he felt it in his lower spine, his grip tightening on you hips as he hit your g-spot deliciously. "Logan– I'm not gonna fuck last long" You forced your words out.
"Where do you want it, baby?" He groaned.
"In me."
"Inside?" He questioned.
"Yeah. I'm on the pill."
You felt his hips stuttered as he held his groan. So he liked the thought of it. You wanted to push him even more but decided to keep it for another day. And he knew that you would use his kink to your advantage someday. But the thought made you kind of hot, you felt yourself getting closer. "Fuck– come with me." Logan groaned from behind you.
h You both broke apart. Your fingers gripping so hard on the pillow that your knuckles were white, and you moaning so loud that it almost sounded like a prayer. Logan pushed as much as he could, filling you up to the brim as his whole body shuddered above you. You stayed there for a moment, with him, before he pulled himself out and lay beside you.
There was a silent question between you both, which none of you dared to ask– what are we now? It was complicated but you both decided to let this question rise with the sun tommorow. You reached for the warmth in his embrace and he welcomed you with a small peck on your forehead, promising something just for the moment before you both could lose something.
Maybe the answer was right here, this is the right way. The right one.
۶ৎ boyfriend!john logan does anything you want without you asking twice. need help carrying something? he’s already got it. your car is making weird noises? he’s on it immediately, his friends called him whipped but he calls it love.
۶ৎ boyfriend!john logan loves holding your hand. whether it’s walking down the street, you two are at a restaurant, or even if you’re in class. his hand finds yours always, rubbing soft circles on the back of it.
۶ৎ boyfriend!john logan loves when you steal his hoodies. especially when they start to smell like you after awhile. he starts to notice his shortage of hoodies and gets slightly confused til he goes over to your apartment and see your closet full of his hoodies.
۶ৎ boyfriend!john logan secretly loves doing facemasks with you. he thought he would hate it at first but he loves the silent moment between you two when you’re on the bathroom counter & he’s in between your legs, watching you concentrate placing the mask on his face.
۶ৎ boyfriend!john logan lets you know you’re beautiful in moments you don’t feel it. when you’re sick, he’s calling you the most beautiful woman he’s ever met. when you’re kind of grouchy and annoyed at the world, he thinks you’re absolutely gorgeous.
۶ৎ boyfriend!john logan has a girlfriend instinct. he can feel when you’re close or about to walk into a room he’s in. his friends think it’s crazy how he can tell when you’re close and how he’s right every. single. time.
۶ৎ boyfriend!john logan is an absolute gentlemen. ever since you’ve started seeing each other, you never open you door with him, you don’t ever pay, you’ve never walked on the outside of the street. and you for damn sure don’t worry about guys hitting on you.
۶ৎ boyfriend!john logan kisses your cheek or forehead as a goodbye. when you first started dating, you always kissed his cheek and just never stopped and now it’s apart of your routine. whenever you or him are about to leave, you kiss his cheek and he leans down and kisses your forehead.
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a/n: i'm so sorry for the extra long wait with this one, but it is finally here and is hopefully worth the wait!! i am finally done moving for the next little bit so i will be trying to get the next chapters out faster but thank you guys so much for your patience and all your love for parts 1 and 2, i hope you enjoy this chapter just as much!!
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part I part II
word count: 6.6k
synopsis: logan gives you his jersey to wear to his game, but you can't decide whether wearing it means you're his or not
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The bell over the door chimed, announcing the entry of a new customer. You looked up from the book you had open in front of you to find John standing there with something blue draped over his arm. A smile matching your own immediately spread across his face when he spotted you behind the front desk.
“Hey, what are you doing here?” you asked, bookmarking your page and closing the book.
“I came to see my favourite person,” John announced, catching you off guard. “Is Lucinda around?”
“Ah, you actually just missed her, she’s on her way to her grandkids’ concert. You can probably still catch her though,” you played along.
“Damn, I guess I’ll just have to give these to you instead,” John sighed, handing over the item he was carrying. You gave him a quizzical look as you unfolded it before your jaw partially dropped upon realizing what you were holding. The name Logan and the number 22 stared at you from the back of the jersey, while the Briar name and another large 22 were sewed onto the front. You gaped at the item as John then handed you something else that was much smaller. A ticket to the Hawks game the next day with a small sticky note that said in surprisingly legible handwriting: “For my lucky charm.”
“You know you’re really risking it by calling Lucinda your lucky charm before she’s even seen you play,” you remarked.
“Well, since it’s going to you instead, hopefully whatever jinx I could get doesn’t actually happen.”
“I’m sure Lucinda would’ve been very appreciative of this gift had she been here to accept it,” you said, folding the jersey back up. “I’ll take good care of them for her.” John let out a breathy laugh, watching as you carefully set the folded jersey beneath the counter.
“How’s your day been?” he asked, leaning his elbows on the counter.
“Pretty slow,” you shrugged. “I’ve only been here for a couple hours, but not many people have come in.”
“Want me to buy something so you make a sale?” John asked, you assumed jokingly, though it was sometimes hard to tell with him.
“Well it wouldn’t hurt if you did,” you teased. You watched as he looked to his right and grabbed a book off the closest stack and placed it on the counter, sliding it towards you. “Oh my god, no, stop, I was joking,” you interrupted his actions, covering your hand with his, a spark felt between the two of you, and pushing it back towards him.
“What do you mean? I’ve really been wanting to check out,” he paused to read the title he’d picked up, “‘What to Expect When You’re Expecting.’” You nodded along, scrunching your face as if you believed him.
“Mhm, and you’re buying it for yourself?” you asked, deciding to play along with this new bit he’d started.
“Yeah, of course,” he scoffed.
“So you’re pregnant?”
“Not me, necessarily, but…yeah.”
“And does the other parent of the child you’re expecting know that you’ve been out here giving jerseys with your name and number on them to other women?” John’s mouth opened and closed like a goldfish, grasping for words.
“Way to ruin the fun, implying that I’m a cheater or something,” John quit causing you to laugh as you placed the book back where it had come from.
“Well, are you?” you asked earnestly, meeting his eyes again. You noted how he hesitated before answering, making your stomach churn.
“I’ve only ever done casual,” he finally replied. “I’ve never asked anyone to wear my jersey before, if that helps.” You nod along, understanding what he was implying. Only ever casual, nothing serious. You didn’t know whether you should be raising the red flags or not, considering you were apparently the first girl he’d ever asked to wear his jersey to one of his games. Which was a big deal, considering how superstitious hockey players could be.
“So, I’d be the first person to wear this, is what you’re saying?”
“Well it was my freshman year jersey, so maybe not the first person to wear it, but the first girl, yeah,” he explained, almost sheepishly. “And I washed it, multiple times, so it hopefully doesn’t smell like I used it all of freshman year.” You scrunched up your nose, causing him to laugh.
“I’m really the first girl you’ve asked to wear your jersey?”
“Yeah,” he fizzled out, as if he had more to say, but didn’t yet know how to phrase it. “But you don’t actually have to wear it if you don’t want to. I know it’s like, a big thing, to be wearing a guy’s name on your back, so if you’re not comfortable, you really don’t have to.” A wave of relief washed over you, choosing to believe what he told you. He had yet to give you a reason to believe he was lying, other than the fact that he was a male hockey player, and felt as if you knew him well enough to know he was telling the truth. You just hoped this faith in him wouldn’t somehow backfire on you.
“I’ll definitely think about it,” you said with a smile.
“Of course,” he replied, a matching smile on his face. “I should actually probably get going, I have a car to work on at the garage, but I’ll see you tomorrow?”
“Definitely.”
“‘Kay, see you later.” He waved bye before opening the door and stepping out into the autumn air.
“Bye, Johnny,” you replied, watching him leave with a small smile on your face. You looked down at the folded jersey, huffing out a sigh as you began to compare the pros and cons to wearing it for everyone and anyone to see.
“I say wear it,” your roommate, Mandy, said from your desk chair where she’d been keeping you company while you tried on different outfits for John’s game in a couple hours. “He gave it to you to wear, why not do it?”
“Because I’m not his girlfriend,” you said, flopping onto your back on your bed. “What if people say something?”
“Like what? That John Logan has a new hottie in his jersey? Oh no, one of Briar U’s best might be locked down!” You gave her a look which she replied to with a grin. “Is it that big a deal to wear it?”
“To me it is, yeah. It’s like he’s claiming me as his or something.”
“Are you not his?”
“I’m not his, or anybody’s, anything. We’ve only hung out once and yeah, we’ve been texting, but that’s just as friends from what I can tell.”
“Didn’t he tell you that he would’ve kissed you if Peyton and I hadn’t been watching from the window?”
“He could’ve been joking.”
“Oh my god, okay,” Mandy exclaimed, turning in her chair to fully face you. “I don’t know how you’re missing it, but he likes you! He gave you his jersey because he likes you enough to want to see you repping his name! Hockey players don’t just give their jerseys to anyone. He even told you that you’re the first girl he’s asked to wear his jersey.”
“What if he was lying?”
“So what if he was?”
“Then I’ll look fucking stupid!
“To who? If anything it’ll make him look like a jersey slut!”
“He’s a hockey player, of course he’s a slut!”
“But do you like him?” Mandy asked, causing you to pause. You did like John, a lot, but you felt like there was still so much to learn about him that half the people on campus already knew thanks to Jules’ social media. The fact that he was so popular around the school and the area in general made you wonder why he seemed to pay such special attention to you. In your mind there had to be some kind of ulterior motive. You almost felt like Laney Boggs from She’s All That or Andie Anderson from How to Lose A Guy in 10 Days or any other leading lady in a romcom who was only chosen by the male main character to win a deal of some sort. But maybe you were just projecting.
Yes, his Instagram followers and comments were filled with hundreds of blondes, but the only people he ever seemed to interact with on there were his teammates and Jules, as you had found during your initial online stalk after you had exchanged phone numbers.
John hadn’t given you any sort of reason to think this way other than the fact that he was popular, which he barely even seemed to notice. He worked a bunch of random side jobs on top of working at his family’s garage to help out and make some extra money. He didn’t let you pay a single cent or touch a door handle of any kind when he was around and he seemed genuinely interested whenever you told him anything about yourself. You’d told him stuff you’d only ever talked about with your closest friends. And he told you stuff he’d only ever talked about with Jules.
Maybe it wouldn’t be the worst thing to just wear the jersey.
It was only a jersey right?
A couple hours later, you found yourself walking into the Briar University Arena with Garrett’s girlfriend, Hannah, and her best friend, Allie. Both of your roommates, Mandy and Peyton, had already had plans for the night when John had invited them along with you, so when you told him that it would just be you at the game he asked Garrett if Hannah would want to go with you. Being the sweetheart that you had heard of her being from John, your friends, and others in passing, Hannah agreed and the two of you had followed each other on Instagram and started talking about whatever was happening between you and John all in the same night. At some point she had asked if her friend, Allie, could come along and already knowing her from some introductory classes you had taken together, you happily agreed, believing that the more emotional support the better. The three of you had made a group chat and coordinated plans for the game, with you offering to pick the girls up from their dorm before heading to the arena.
When you had left the house the jersey had been folded and tucked in your arms, still unsure about whether to wear it or not. You had placed it in the backseat of your car, figuring that you would ask Hannah and Allie for their opinions when they got in the car. When you presented your dilemma to them, Hannah told you to hang on a second before leaving the car and hurrying back into the dorms. Three minutes later she emerged, holding something in her arms.
“I will wear Garrett’s jersey, if you wear Logan’s jersey,” she declared, holding the jersey in her arms up for you to see the name and number on the back. You sighed, taking in both hers and Allie’s encouraging smiles, before agreeing that you would put it on when you got to the rink. The other two cheered, causing you to laugh as you started your car, the engine purring like brand new.
You slipped the jersey over the blue sweater you had chosen to wear to still be repping Briar’s colours had you not decided to wear the jersey. You tugged your hair out from under the collar, allowing it to fall down your back. When Allie saw this she came up to you and swooped your hair to lay in front of your shoulders, allowing the name and number on your back to be completely visible. She nudged you playfully before linking arms with you, Hannah taking your other arm, and the three of you walked into the arena arm in arm.
Once your tickets were scanned you set out to find your seats, following the signs at each section’s entrance. You found your section not too long after, and followed Hannah through and down the rows to your seats.
“Damn, Logan chose good seats,” Allie remarked, as you sat down. She was right. You were a section over from center ice on the home team’s starting side and a few rows above where the benches were. You had a perfect view of the entire ice, not having to lean over Hannah or Allie to see what was happening behind either net. Hannah also pointed out that if Logan did something special for you, you wouldn’t be too far away to see it, which caused your cheeks to flush.
In the tunnel leading out onto the ice the guys were all vibrating with excited energy, fully amped up to play their game. John was especially antsy to get out there, eager to find you in the crowd and hopefully wearing his jersey.
“You good, Logi?” Tucker asked, slapping Logan on the back, bringing the guy out of his thoughts.
“Yeah, yeah, just hyped up, man.”
“Is your girl here, Logan?” Dean asked in a teasing tone.
“I’m hoping so,” was John’s reply, a grin breaking over his face.
“Let’s go!” Garrett called out from the back of the line, the rest of the guys crying out and beginning to move down the tunnel. Logan huffed out a breath and flipped the cage of his helmet down over his face, following the guys in front of him out. As soon as his skates hit the ice he felt at home, easily pushing and gliding his way down the ice towards the home side. His eyes scanned the crowd, automatically looking for the section he’d selected the tickets for. It wasn’t long before his eyes fell on you in his jersey. His breath caught in his throat at how good you looked with his number on your front and on your sleeves. He had to remind himself to watch where he was going, tearing his eyes away from you so as to not crash into the boards or any of the other guys.
“He definitely saw you,” Hannah remarked, the blush in your cheeks growing even stronger as your smile grew even bigger.
“Is she wearing your jersey, Lo?” Dean asked, skating up to John who was waiting for his turn to practice shooting. John looked back up at you, a smile instantly on his face as he saw you talking and laughing with Hannah and Allie. He was really happy that they’d been willing to come out to the game with you. While he was sure that you would’ve been fine coming on your own, he was glad that you were getting to know the girls and that they were getting to know you, hopefully thinking that you were as great as he thought. Based on the amount of times he’d looked over and seen you all smiling and laughing he didn’t think he had anything to worry about.
“Yeah, I gave it to her yesterday,” John replied, Dean taking note of how his eyes kept swerving back to you.
“John Logan giving a girl his jersey. Has Hell frozen over?”
“Shut up.”
“Nah, man, in a good way. When was the last time you liked a girl as much as you seem to like this one?” The question caught John off guard, genuinely having to think about the last time, if there had even been one, where he’d liked being around and talking to a girl as much as he liked being around you. He wracked his brain, a small montage of faces playing in his thoughts, but he couldn’t name one who he had liked in the same way he liked you.
“Never too late for a first,” John replied before it was his turn to shoot. He easily took the puck off of Tucker’s pass, dribbling it towards the net, the goalie ready to intercept whatever shot he took. John kept the puck close, his hands moving fast before he wound up, faked going for a slap shot, then easily shot it into the small space between the top right corner of the net and the goalie’s shoulder. He looked to you in the crowd, checking to see if you had seen what he had just done and found you clapping and cheering along with Hannah and Allie. John was sure his cheeks would fall off if he smiled any bigger.
“Show off,” Dean commented with a smirk as he skated up to John a few moments later after his own practice shot.
“Me? Never,” John deadpanned. The two guys shared a laugh before the buzzer sounded, announcing the end of warm-up and that the game was about to begin. The Hawks got to where they needed to be, John finding his spot on the ice along with Garrett, Tucker, Dean, and Birdie, placing his helmet on the ice in front of him. Your heart fluttered when he stood back up, his hair flipping back. As the anthem started playing, John looked back to the stands to catch a glimpse of you. You were standing, facing towards the anthem singer, your hands politely clasped in front of you. Any nerves he had instantly washed away, the sight of you instantly settling him into a ready and relaxed state. He was still looking at you when your head turned his way, your eyes meeting across the rows of other spectators between you two. Matching smiles grew across both of your faces. As the anthem came to a close John gave you a wink, causing you to giggle, before the singer finished and the audience erupted into cheers and applause.
John picked his helmet back up and slipped it on, finding his starting spot on the ice. The other starting players found their positions, the exciting energy building as the ref told everyone to have a good game before dropping the puck.
The game was fast paced from the very start, the Hawks instantly taking possession of the puck, getting it over to the opposing team’s end. The three forwards passed it between themselves, Garrett finding an angle and going for the shot, but it was taken down by one of the other team’s defencemen. The Hawks chased after them, Dean and Birdie right on their tail. Dean was able to knock it off the other defenceman’s stick and passed it over to Tucker, who turned fast and sped towards the opposite net. He passed it back to Garrett who set up for the shot again and managed to get it past the goalie, the Hawks getting the first goal of the game.
You, Allie, and Hannah all jumped to your feet cheering, Hannah cheering louder than the rest of the crowd. You watched as Garrett waved and smiled at Hannah after high five-ing the guys on the bench, giggling at how Hannah’s smile had grown at her boyfriend’s acknowledgement. As the first period continued, the Hawks were aggressive and all over the other team, keeping close on their tails and never letting it stay in their zone for too long. John especially was all over the ice during his shifts, making his presence well known. Watching him you couldn’t understand why he was yet to be drafted. Even if you were biased, it would be impossible to deny his talent.
When the first period ended the Hawks were up 2-0, Garrett and Tucker having scored, with John having gotten an assist on Tucker’s goal. During intermission, you, Allie, and Hannah decided to take a walk around, getting popcorn and sodas from the concession stand. Soon after you got back to your seats the guys re-emerged from the tunnel, lapping around the other side of the rink this time. Six minutes into the second period, John swiped the puck out of the other team’s powerplay set up, skating as fast as he could to the opposite team’s net, two of the other team’s players on his tail. He found a slot, set up his shot and whipped it into the net through the goalie’s legs.
You yelled in shock, instantly jumping up, popcorn flying from the container in your lap, cheering and clapping along with the rest of the crowd. John celebrated, going for the archer celebration, before the rest of the guys on his line crowded him in a hug. He had a huge smile on his face as he looked up and met your eyes, a matching smile on your face. Once he finished high five-ing the rest of the team, he looked up again, pointing directly at you with a huge grin. You waved back sheepishly before sitting back down, Allie and Hannah playfully nudging your shoulders as your hands covered your face to hide the blush you were sure was climbing up your neck all the way to your cheeks and the tips of your ears.
“I bet your girl liked that, Lo,” Tucker exclaimed once the line had returned to the bench, nudging his friend’s shoulder.
“I can’t believe she got you out of your slump,” Dean remarked, shaking his hair out. John punched him in the arm, but couldn’t help the smile growing on his face. It was true. He hadn’t scored a goal in eleven games before this, and now that you came to a game he finally did? Call it a coincidence or a hoax, but he was going to start calling you his lucky charm.
The rest of the game was just as entertaining. The Hawks scored two more goals, while the opposing team managed to slip one past the Hawks goalie late in the third, bringing the final score to 5-1 for the Hawks. The most entertaining part of the game though came right after the other team’s goal, when Dean must have said something as he skated past one of the opposing players who then crosschecked him in the back. The rest of both lines instantly went into action, getting all up in each other’s faces and shoving each other around.
“They should all just kiss and move on,” you remarked, gaining laughs from Hannah and Allie. You noticed how John especially seemed to be causing some trouble on the ice, the smirk on his face visible from your seat as he went back and forth with one of the opposing players. You’d be lying if you said you didn’t find it extremely attractive.
Eventually, the refs managed to break up the interaction, the Hawks getting a powerplay for the last minute and twenty-two seconds of the game. The guys all seemed to cheer extra loud when the buzzer sounded, essentially cheering their opponents off the ice. You and the other girls stood, clapping as the Hawks thanked their goalie and slapped each other on the ass before heading back down the tunnel to shower and change. Before leaving the ice, John made sure to catch your eye with a huge smile.
“How long do they normally take?” you asked once you, Hannah, and Allie had found an empty table in the lobby to wait at.
“Oh, they take their sweet time,” Allie said with a smile. “Maybe they’ll hurry today though, since you’re here.” You waved her off, playfully rolling your eyes.
“They can take all the time they need if it means they won’t smell like they just played a sixty minute game.” You all laughed, the conversation flowing into being about the game, the boys, and their weird hockey superstitions and habits. Eventually, the team started trickling out one by one, with John, Tucker, Garrett, and Dean all emerging at the same time. For reasons unknown to the guys, this made the three of you burst into laughter.
“What’s so funny?” Garrett asked, coming up beside Hannah’s chair.
“We were just wondering if the four of you were going to come out skipping and holding hands,” Allie explained, the three of you cracking up again.
“They were pretty damn close to it,” you remarked, smiling as John came to stand beside your chair. You greeted him with a smile which he returned full force.
“She hasn’t even formally met us yet and she’s already laughing at us, Lo,” Tucker exclaimed, his beaming expression undercutting any offense he actually felt.
“Then she’s already fitting in,” John answered. He then introduced you to the guys, who all thanked you for bringing John out of his slump.
“Eleven games, Logi. Eleven,” Dean emphasized, John shaking his head as he was reminded of how long his scoring slump had lasted. “You gotta come to each game now, no excuses,” he pointed to you. “We need our boy playing like this every game.”
“I’ll do my best, but I’m leaving as soon as you guys start playing like shit.”
“Us? Never,” Dean feigned shock, a hand to his chest.
“I’ve seen your stats Di Laurentis, I wouldn’t act like a martyr.” The rest of the group laughed, including Dean.
You all sat around talking for a few more minutes before they invited you out to go to Malone’s with them for dinner and drinks. You happily agreed, Allie and Hannah saying they’d drive over with you. Once at the restaurant, John and Dean pulled into a spot that was one over from where you had parked, and Garrett and Tucker pulled into the spot across from them. The group easily found a booth to fit all of you, John gesturing for you to slide in first after he’d asked if you were okay sitting next to the window, with him taking the seat beside you and Hannah taking the one across from you. Once you guys all got your orders in, the guys all tried to subtly interrogate you about yourself and John, except they were horrible at the subtle part.
“So, you’re an Oilers fan?”
“From an Oilers family.”
“You’re from Edmonton then?”
“Born and raised.”
“Why’d you pick Briar?”
“The offered full-ride scholarship for the most part. But also to see some place outside of Edmonton.”
“Did you ever play hockey?”
“Until I was fourteen.”
“What position?”
“Defence,” the guys all ooh’d at this fact and seemed to get even more enthralled with the conversation.
“Could you give Dean-O a run for his money?”
“It’s been a while since I played, but I could probably put up a fight.”
“I’ll see you on the ice then, kid.”
“Eat your heart out, Di Laurentis.” The rest of the group all laughed at your jabs at Dean, who took them all in stride.
“You found a feisty one, Logan,” the blond remarked, lifting his drink in your direction.
“Go to the bathroom before your tears start falling, Dean.” You smirked at John’s comeback in your honour. Dean pretended to wipe tears from his face before challenging Tucker to a game of pool. The two guys went off, with Garrett following after Tucker claimed they needed someone to make sure that Dean didn’t cheat. You mentally noted the new room on John’s side of the bench and how he didn’t move away from you despite it. Hannah and Allie also seemed to notice this when you met their smirking faces.
“Hannah, come with me to the bathroom?” Allie asked, looking pointedly at you. Hannah looked at you too with a smile, nodding her head.
“Of course, we’ll be right back.” The two girls exited the booth, leaving you and John alone, sitting side by side. You laughed almost nervously, turning your body to face the guy who did the same.
“Are you doing okay?” John asked.
“Yeah, yeah your friends are all great.”
“I’m sorry if they’re being too much. That’s just how they are honestly.”
“Hey, they’re hockey guys, I can’t say I’m surprised.” You both laughed. “Also, do they only ever call you by your last name?” John looked away sheepishly, scratching his neck.
“Uh, yeah. It’s a hockey thing, y’know?”
“Do you want me to start calling you Logan then?” John shook his head, looking at you earnestly.
“No. I like that you call me something that no one else does.” Your heart warmed, yours and John’s smiles growing. Right on time, the food was then all delivered to the table and the rest of the group reappeared. John’s side was pressed back into yours as you both made room for the others.
“Are you comfortable?” John asked you, noticing how close you were to each other.
“Yeah, are you?” John shrugged before moving his arm that was pressed against yours to lay across your shoulders. Your breath caught slightly in your throat at the even closer proximity, but leaned into his arm.
“Is this okay?”
“So long as you can eat with one hand,” you joked.
“Easy.” Your group all ate their meals while swapping stories about the game tonight, the guys focusing specifically on things that John had done.
“What did you say to the guy at the end? The one who was all up in your face?” Garrett asked, causing John to smirk at the memory.
“Something about how if his shot was as strong as his words maybe he would’ve scored a few more.” The guys all erupted in laughter, Allie and Hannah rolling their eyes, being used to their post-game behaviour, but you loved it. It reminded you of being back home and watching Oilers games with your dad, him always commenting on the fights and the words the players must be exchanging. It was one of your favourite things growing up and you and your dad had sort of kept up the routine by discussing the Oilers and other NHL news through text and call. It wasn’t the same, but it was the best you could do while being away at school.
“You went with The Archer again, Lo. Seems like that’s becoming your signature celly.”
“It’s always the first one that comes to mind.”
“And was the point to the stands afterwards also the first thing to come to mind?” Dean asked, looking between you and John. You looked pointedly at John too, a teasing smile on your face. He looked down at you, his arm still comfortably around your shoulders, seeming to consider his answer.
“Yeah, something up there just kept catching my eye.”
“I bet it was the giant number twenty-two on someone’s back,” Hannah added.
“Possibly.” You smiled sheepishly, turning your focus to the food on your plate as the rest of the group noted John’s jersey that you had on. You didn’t notice how John continued to look at you, a relaxed smile on his face, while neither of you noticed how Allie snuck a picture of the two of you in this pose.
Once you had all finished eating and had just been sitting and chatting for a while, Hannah announced that she should probably head back to the dorms seeing as she had an early morning. Allie joined in, saying that she would go back with her.
“Did you guys want a ride back since I picked you up?” you asked. Both girls shot you a puzzled look which they quickly masked with smiles.
“I can drive them,” Garrett announced before either of them could make up an excuse for you to stay.
“I’ll come along too,” Dean added, quickly downing his beer before hopping out of the booth.
“Uh, yeah, I guess I will too,” Tucker agreed.
“Logi, you have your truck, right?” John nodded, giving his friends a knowing look at what they were doing, similar to the one you were giving Hannah and Allie.
“Well, it was great getting to meet you guys,” you said earnestly, hoping it didn’t sound like you were trying to push them out the door. “I hope we can all hang out like this again soon.” The guys and girls all agreed, saying how nice it was to meet you and stating that you needed to be at as many games as possible from now on. Dean refused to leave until you agreed to be at the next game, which you did hesitantly. You and John both seemed to be waiting for them all to file out the door before saying anything else.
“So.”
“So?”
“Did they scare you off?”
“Are you kidding? If anything I’m scared in,” you smirked, remembering a similar conversation that had occurred between the two of you weeks ago when you had first found out that John was a hockey player.
“Good. ‘Cause I think I’ll somehow be at fault in their eyes if you stopped coming around.”
“So far, I have zero reasons to not want to be around you, Johnny.”
“Well isn’t that what every guy wants to hear?” You laughed in response, John noticing how the corners of your eyes crinkled when you laughed or smiled widely. “I like how easily you get along with the guys. I think watching you go back and forth with Dean made everyone’s night.”
“His reputation makes it way too easy to tease him,” you replied. “But, I really liked getting to know them and getting to see you in your usual scene. And it was really nice of the girls to come to the game with me.”
“According to Allie, they were a lot more excited to hang out with you than to actually watch the game.”
“Oh, well the sentiment goes both ways.”
You stayed in the booth, continuing to talk about whatever came to mind. Like most, if not all, of your previous conversations it was filled with laughing and smiles that made your faces hurt. At some point, John’s hand had come to rest on your knee, sending sparks up your spine, but you didn’t push him away. If anything you wanted him closer.
The time flew by and before you knew it the other customers were packing up and heading out the door as the staff began to clear away tables and wipe down the bar.
“Looks like we should get going,” John noted, glancing around the rest of the restaurant that had seemed to disappear while the two of you had been talking. You nodded, allowing him to slide out of the booth before you. You happily took the hand that he offered to help you up, sparks once again flying between the two of you. He thanked the staff members that you passed as he led you out the door, your hands still intertwined. The cool air was refreshing as you hadn’t realized just how stuffy the bar had been. Something must’ve been distracting you.
“You’ll be okay getting home by yourself?” John asked as he came to a stop beside your car.
“Oh yeah. I’ve actually done it successfully a few times before so I should be good,” you joked, gaining a smirk from John.
“Can you text me when you get home, please?” Your heart warmed at him wanting to make sure you got home safe.
“Of course.” A moment passed between the two of you where it seemed as if you got lost in each other’s eyes and the rest of the world seemed to freeze. The air around you two even seemed to move slower. John’s hand came up as if in slow motion and gently pushed a strand of your hair behind your ear, his fingers leaving a tingling trail behind as they grazed your cheek. Your breath caught in your throat as you inhaled, almost shocked as he did such. His hand never left your body though as his fingers traced down your jawline, his index finger and thumb gently holding your chin and tipping it upwards to his. Your heart felt as if it might fly out of your chest with how fast and wild it was beating, hoping that he couldn’t hear it with how close he was to you.
“Is this okay?” he asked, his voice as gentle as his hand.
“It’d be even better if you kissed me.”
He smirked and in the next moment his lips were on yours. His were surprisingly soft as they were at first just pressed to yours, but then slowly began to move. The kiss was gentle yet passionate, your lips seeming to fit together just like puzzle pieces as you became completely consumed by the other. His cologne flooded your senses as your eyes were squeezed tight. Your hands found the back of his neck, your fingers weaving into his hair at the nape of his neck. His hand had slid from holding your chin to now cupping your jaw, his thumb gently rubbing back and forth across your cheek, while the other was on your waist, pulling you close. Your whole body felt as if it were made of flames, fireworks seeming to explode between the two of you as you connected.
You didn’t know how much time had passed by the time you pulled away from each other, both of your chests heaving and both of your smiles as bright as the moon overhead. Your shining eyes met as you laughed breathily, John’s forehead pressed against yours.
“Better now?” John asked, his voice almost shocking you as the rest of the world came back into existence around you. You nodded, a huge grin still on your face as you processed what had just happened.
John Logan had kissed you.
He sighed as his hand that been cupping your face slid to meet his other hand at your waist, pulling you closer so that your bodies were flush together.
“I’ve been waiting weeks to do that,” he uttered, his breath brushing against your cheek.
“What took you so long?” you asked cheekily.
“I wanted to make sure you felt the same way. Didn’t want to rush anything.”
“You’re sweet.” This time you reached up on your toes to press a kiss to his lips. You began to pull away, but unable to get enough of you he chased after you, pressing another and another and another to your lips before standing upright. Your matching grins lit up the space between the two of you as you laughed, not wanting the moment to end. “I should probably get home,” you whispered despite wanting to live in the moment forever. John groaned at the thought of having to pull away from you, but nodded in agreement. His hands slid from your waist and up your sides - gaining a laugh from you at the tickling sensation - up your arms and to your hands that were still fiddling with the hair at the base of his neck. He gently pulled them away, taking your hands in his and pressing your knuckles to his lips.
“You sure you’ll be okay getting home by yourself?” he asked again, your hands still in his. You nodded.
“And I’ll call you when I get there,” you reassured him.
“Thank you,” he said. Another moment passed of the two of you just staring into each other’s eyes, taking in what had happened in the past ten minutes. John then sighed again before swooping down and planting a kiss on your cheek, causing you to laugh. You squeezed his hands before forcing yourself to let go of one to retrieve your keys from your bag. As soon as the car was unlocked, John opened the door for you and gestured for you to climb in. Once your seatbelt was buckled, John then leaned in one more time to kiss you.
“Goodnight, beautiful.”
“Goodnight, Johnny.” He closed your door for you and waved before rounding the back of your car and climbing into his truck two parking spots away. You waved at him one more time before backing out of your spot and heading for the exit to the lot. Your music kicked as you pulled up to the stop sign, ‘Locked Out of Heaven’ by Bruno Mars flowing through the speakers.
Your grin never left your face the entire drive home.
☄︎ Warnings: not proofread! girl on top.
☄︎ Pairing: F!Reader x John Logan
☄︎ Rating/Genre: Mature (🔞). Smut.
☄︎ Words: 4629
☄︎ Summary: You work as the Hawks' Social Media Manager, and one of the players has a crush on you.
💭: yeah, so logan and i are locked in now... the social media part was also inspired by a tiktok from England Rugby. if you enjoyed, please consider leaving a comment, ask, reblog etc, it means a lot xx
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Some days as the media manager for the Briar U Hawks Hockey Team, you genuinely felt like you spent half your life waiting around for them, just to get a 30-second result. Today was one of those days. Anybody who claimed women take longer than men to get ready had clearly never waited on a hockey player to put his gear on.
You shifted your weight from one foot to the other on the rubber floor mats, the freezing arena air biting at your cheeks. You had been standing here with your phone in your hand for far too long. But you stayed ready, camera open and prepped to ambush them the second they exited the locker room corridor.
You silently laughed to yourself, thinking of how you were going to torture them this time. ‘Do it for the fans,’ was your usual go-to when you had to encourage them to participate. It was a strategy that worked on 99% of the roster.
However, for Logan, that rule didn't apply. For him, it was only a soft, ‘do it for me,’ accompanied by a slight pout, that ever actually worked. You had a feeling you might need to put one of those on today.
The double doors finally swung open, and your first victim player walked up the tunnel to the rink.
“It’s content day!” You sang, intentionally stepping right into his path just before the ice gate. “I need five seconds of your time before you hit the ice. Do not look at me like that, Graham. I promise you’ll actually like this one.”
Garrett stopped dead in front of your lens, as he adjusted his helmet. He sighed heavily. “Yes, ma’am.”
“Garrett, I’m like two years older than you,” you laughed, holding the camera steady. “I’m not a ma’am.”
“Yes, boss,” Garrett teased. When you looked at him with an unimpressed look, he let out a loud chuckle. “Hey, don’t look at me like that. You know what you did.”
Memories of the last promotional video you’d edited flashed vividly in your head. To be fair to Garrett, you had slightly embarrassed him in the final cut.
“Okay, fair point,” you conceded with a shrug. “But today, I promise I won’t embarrass you.”
Technically, that wasn’t a lie. If Garrett ended up looking foolish in this video, it would be entirely by his own doing, not yours. Semantics mattered.
You lifted your phone, centring him in the frame. “Just a quick geography question for the away-game promo. We want to show off how incredibly smart our Briar boys are.”
“I feel like you’re baiting me, but I’ll bite. Hit me.” Garrett squared his broad shoulders, his game face instantly switching on as he leant in toward the lens.
“Garrett, how many miles do you think it is from Massachusetts to Johannesburg?”
Garrett blinked, his eyes darting upward. “Uh. Well, if you go from...” He started mumbling calculations to himself, genuinely trying to do the map math in his head. “Maybe like... 3500 miles? Give or take. Maybe.” He said eventually, offering a definitive nod.
You put on the best performance of your life, widening your eyes in surprise. “No way! That’s actually right!”
Garrett paused, looking back and forth between your face and the lens, completely bewildered. “Wait. Really?”
“Yeah, honestly,” you lied smoothly.
“You’re not having me on, are you?”
You were having him on. The actual distance was well over 7000 miles. But you just smiled brightly, giving him an encouraging nod. “No, Garrett. Seriously, good job.”
Garrett puffed his chest out, looking dead into the camera with newfound pride. “Well... I have always been pretty good at geography.”
“Clearly,” you smiled, waving him through.
Next up was Dean, who gladly jogged over the moment he saw you with your camera, a flirtatious smile already pulling at his lips.
“How do you want me?” Dean asked, striking a series of poses for the screen.
“Dean, focus,” you said, suppressing a snort. “How many miles from Massachusetts to Johannesburg?”
Dean smirked, “You've come to the right guy. I have an excellent sense of geography.”
“I’m sure you do,” you deadpanned.
“It's exactly twelve thousand miles,” Dean stated with unearned confidence.
You maintained a perfectly straight face, nodding in solemn agreement. “That is exactly right, Dean. Perfect answer. Spot on.”
Dean pumped his fist in the air. “I knew it! Spatial awareness, baby!”
He skated off onto the ice, completely oblivious to the fact that you were slowly losing the ability to breathe from holding in your laughter.
Birdie and Tucker came out next. You hit them with the exact same question, and they immediately stopped in their tracks, squabbling and throwing wild guesses back and forth. Finally, Tucker turned back to you.
“We’re going down the middle,” Tucker decided. “8500.”
“How did you know that?!” you gasped, feigning shock. “That’s the exact number.”
“Is it?” Birdie asked, his jaw dropping.
“Genuinely?” Tucker demanded at the exact same time.
“Yes! Spot on!” you encouraged, watching their competitive faces light up with pure excitement.
“Yes! Well done, Tucks!” Birdie beams, ruffling Tucker’s hair.
They skated away, thrilled with themselves.
You were still quietly giggling, resetting the recording length, when a shadow fell over your phone screen. You looked up and found yourself staring directly into a pair of dark, but soft, eyes.
“You need me?” Logan asked.
“I do need you,” you smiled softly. Neither of you spoke for a heavy moment, the quiet space between you filling up with a that unspoken heat as you just looked at each other. You cleared your throat, snapping yourself back into media-mode. “Oh, and I also need you for a video.”
You lifted the camera to line up the shot. “Stand there, please.”
“Fine,” Logan chuckled as he moved where you directed him. “Hit me.”
You tried your best to ignore the fact that he was looking directly at your face instead of looking at the camera lens.
“How many miles is it from Massachusetts to Johannesburg?”
Logan blinked, his eyes flicking down to your hands for a split second before returning to yours. “...Two hundred?”
You bit the inside of your cheek; did he even hear the question? “Yup! You’re spot on, Logan.”
Logan let out a low laugh. “Come on. I was way off, wasn’t I?”
“No!” you insisted, maintaining your best poker face. “That’s about right, genuinely.”
Logan’s eyes instantly crinkled at the corners. “That’s actually not fair. You distracted me.”
“I– what? I didn’t do anything!” you stuttered, your face growing hot as you completely lost your professional cool.
“You did! How am I supposed to think when...” he trailed off looking at your now trembling hands.
Before you could fully recover, Logan's hand reached out, wrapping securely around the top of your phone and gently pulling. “Give me that. I'm deleting the evidence.”
“Logan, no! Stop!” you shrieked playfully, causing a few of the guys on the ice to turn around and look over the boards.
“Nope, the public can't know this,” he laughed. He was inches away from you as you both wrestled over the handle, the camera recording a chaotic, blurry feed.
“Coach!” You called out mock-threateningly. “Logan is stealing media property!”
“Logan! Leave her alone and get on the ice!” Coach Jensen’s voice sailed across the rink.
“Snitch,” Logan murmured against your ear. He immediately let go of the camera with a soft chuckle, but he lingered for a second longer, his dark eyes locking onto yours with an intensity that made your breath catch. “You owe me for my hurt feelings.”
As he finally skated onto the ice, he glanced back over his shoulder once. It was just long enough for you to catch him smiling to himself. And you knew, without a doubt, that he had caught you smiling right back.
A week later, you were on the bus back with them. It was just past nine in the evening, and the three-hour trek back to campus felt twice as long following the frustrating away-game loss.
Up front, you sat alone in the fourth row, the soft glow of your laptop screen lighting up your face. Most of the overhead reading lights were off, leaving the bus in near darkness save for the passing flashes of the highway streetlights. Behind you, the hockey players were scattered across the reclining seats. Some snored softly, others staring silently out the windows, too exhausted and frustrated to sleep.
The mood on the team’s social media account needed to be resilient, but your brain was too fried. At this point, you had spent so much time with these boys, been to so many of their intense training sessions, that you knew exactly how much they put into this sport. Because of that, you felt the weight of the loss almost as heavily as they did.
But Coach Jensen wanted the post-game recap video live by tomorrow morning. So, you were here, desperately trying to get a head start on the editing despite your electronics slowly dying on you.
You finally hit save on your third draft just as your laptop screen faded to black, the battery drained.
Not thirty seconds later, a sudden shadow fell over your row as someone stood next to you in the aisle.
“Is that seat taken?” Logan whispered.
You looked up, meeting his eyes in the dim light. “Go ahead,” you said softly.
Logan slid into the empty seat next to you. “Thanks. I was going to sit here earlier, but I didn’t want to interrupt you while you were working.”
“Oh, so you were watching me?” you laughed quietly, turning your head to face him.
“Hmm,” he hummed thoughtfully, leaning his head back against the headrest. “How do I say yes to that in a totally normal way?”
“It’s okay, I watch you too,” you supplied, a playful glint in your eyes. “I even take videos sometimes.”
Logan let out a low chuckle. “Nice. My own personal stalker.”
“I didn’t say you were the only one I watched,” you countered smoothly.
“But am I your favourite one? That’s the real question.”
“Hm.” You pretended to think about it, tapping your phone against your palm. “There’s no contest, actually.”
“That’s what I like to hear.”
He exhaled a long, tired breath, as he sank deeper into the cushion, stretching his long legs out under the chair in front of him. For a few minutes, neither of you spoke, letting the steady hum of the bus engine fill the silence.
“Are you're still awake,” Logan whispered suddenly, though his eyes remained closed.
“Hard to sleep on these roads,” you replied, keeping your voice dropped low so it wouldn't carry past your row. You turned your head slightly on the headrest, studying his side profile in the dark. “Besides, I'm trying to figure something out.”
“Yeah? What's that?” He opened his eyes, turning his head on the cushion to meet your gaze. In the darkness of the cabin, his eyes looked incredibly dark.
“How you guys deal with frustrating losses,” you explained.
“We have our ways,” Logan laughed quietly.
“Does one of them include flirting?”
Logan’s eyebrows lifted in surprise. “You noticed?”
“Logan...” An amused huff slipping past your lips. “You volunteered for every single media interview these past few weeks. You invented ridiculous reasons just to walk me back to the media office. You literally sat through me editing raw footage for hours with the excuse of 'keeping me company.'“
When you laid it out like that, it was painfully obvious. The little hints he had been dropping over the past few months had all been noticed by you, and the fact that you were finally bringing it up now changed everything for him. He had been testing the waters, and you jumped right in.
“Okay, you caught me... does this mean I can stop pretending?”
“You were pretending?” you teased.
“I was pretending that I wasn’t going insane over you.”
You laughed softly. “You can stop pretending.”
“Why did it take you this long to call me on it if you knew?” he asked, his tone turning a little more serious.
“I wanted to see how long you'd keep trying.”
Not that you thought Logan was that type of guy, but you also wasn’t about to risk your career for a guy who just wanted you to be another notch on his bedpost.
“And?” he asked, leaning an inch closer.
“You lasted longer than I expected,” you murmured.
Silence settled over the row again, but the air felt different now.
The bus let out a loud hiss from the brakes, slowing down as it finally pulled off of the highway and onto the familiar roads of the Briar campus.
“The guys are throwing a post-game thing at the house,” Logan murmured, his voice laced with anticipation. He turned his body toward you fully, placing his hand softly on your knee. The heat of his palm soaked straight through your jeans. “Come back to the house with me. Just hang out in my room. Away from the team.”
He said it casually. Too casually. It was a tempting invitation, but you knew there was no way you could do that. If Coach Jensen knew you were flirting with the players on a team bus, or if you crossed that line so publicly...
You met his eyes, holding his gaze as you slowly shook your head. “I can’t, Logan.”
Logan’s smile faded slightly, knowing the hesitation was strictly about your position with the team. “I'm not asking you to break any rules right now... just hang out.”
“Logan. If I walk into the hockey house with you at night...” You trailed off.
There were so many ways you could finish that sentence. Dean would never let either of you live it down. Garrett would feel compelled to give some sort of responsible team-captain lecture. The entire team would know by breakfast, and your personal boundaries with them would probably be broken.
“I like my job too much,” you finished gently instead.
A flicker of disappointment crossed his handsome features. “So, that's a no.”
“It is.”
He nodded slowly, swallowing his pride as he accepted your answer. His hand slipped off your knee, leaving a cold space where his warmth had just been. “Yeah. Yeah, okay. I get it. Sorry, I didn't mean to press you.”
“But,” you whispered, a daring smile playing on your lips, “my apartment is off-campus.”
Logan froze mid-movement. He blinked, his dark eyes widening. “What?”
“If you’re not too tired, that is,” you murmured.
The heavy bus finally shuddered to a full stop in the arena parking lot.
You unbuckled your seatbelt and reached down to grab your backpack, putting your phone in the pocket.
For a second, Logan just stared at you as the reality of what you were offering sank in. Then, the disappointment vanished, replaced by a burning desire.
“Give me five minutes to come up with an excuse,” Logan whispered, his voice incredibly thick and rough. “Don't leave the parking lot without me.”
All around you, the overhead lights clicked on with a harsh flash, and the players began standing up. They groaned as they stretched their sore muscles, grabbing their duffel bags from the overhead racks.
“I’ll wait around the corner,” you whispered as you slipped out of your seat, blending into the crowd of hockey players shuffling down the aisle. Stepping off the bus, the crisp night air hit you instantly, a welcome relief from the stuffy interior.
As the players crowded around the luggage compartment to grab their bags, you walked up to the group casually.
“Great effort tonight, boys,” you said with a warm smile, nodding to Garrett and Tucker. “I’m sorry we couldn’t get the win.”
“Thanks,” Garrett muttered, slinging his bag over his shoulder. “You have a good evening.”
You walked towards your car, quickly sliding in and driving around the corner of the athletic building, parking in the shadows where the bus headlights couldn't reach. Your heart was hammering against your ribs, the thrill of having a secret making this so much better.
It didn’t take Logan long to make his way to you. He walked with a purposeful stride, his eyes scanning the dark street until they landed on your car. He jogged over, opened the passenger door, and slid in.
“Smooth,” Logan murmured as he buckled his seatbelt. “Very professional.”
“I try my best,” you laughed softly, shifting into drive.
When you walked through your front door, you tossed your keys onto the entryway table and kicked off your shoes. Logan did the same, following you through your apartment as he took it all in for the first time.
“Can I get you something to drink?” you asked, walking toward the kitchen nook. You at least wanted to play good host before jumping his bones.
“Water is fine, thanks,” Logan said, walking over to the living room and sinking into your plush sofa.
You poured two glasses of water and walked back over, handing one to him. Instead of taking the armchair across from him, you sat down on the opposite end of the sofa.
“Thanks,” he murmured, taking a slow sip before setting the glass down on the coffee table. He shifted his weight, turning his body toward you and resting his arm along the back of the sofa.
“You look exhausted,” you said softly, pulling one leg up onto the cushion so you were facing him too.
“I was,” Logan admitted, his dark eyes fixed on your face. “But I'm feeling a lot better now.”
“Yeah?”
“Mhm.”
You placed your own glass down on the coffee table, before looking back at him. He usually looked at you in one of two ways. The first was when you laughed or spoke; he’d look with a soft expression. The second, like now, was when he’d basically be undressing you with his eyes.
“So...” you started, but you didn’t finish your trail of thought.
Logan watched you for a few beats longer, before blurting out, “Will you think less of me if I’m bold?”
You bit your lower lip, shaking your head. “No.”
“Good, then come here.” He leant forward, sticking out his hand.
When you took it, he pulled you towards him, he kept pulling until you were straddling his lap.
“Hi,” you breathed, looking down at him.
“Hi,” he said back.
He kept looking up at you expectantly, wanting to let you set the pace to this.
You leant forward and bit down on his earlobe. He signed and moaned as you sucked it into your mouth. Then, you moved to where his jaw met his neck, nipping and sucking at the sensitive skin there.
“I’ve been waiting a while for this,” you confessed against the skin of his neck.
“Yeah?” He panted. “Me too.”
His lips slightly parted as you resumed your trail down across his neck, over his jaw, and then to his mouth.
The kiss started slow, almost cautious, as if he was still making sure he wasn’t dreaming. His lips were soft against yours, but the moment you breathed a sigh against his mouth and leant into his touch, the hesitation vanished. You found a rhythm together quickly, his tongue swiping across yours.
You pulled back to get some air and Logan followed you, his breath puffing against your mouth as he came to claim you in kisses once again. He tilted your head so that he could deepen the kiss.
He didn’t stop kissing you as his hands went under the hem of your shirt, warm, calloused hands sliding up your smooth back. He stopped at the clasp of your bra, fingers moving smoothly over the clasp to undo it on the first attempt.
This time, it was Logan who pulled back, but only for a second so that he could tug your shirt up over your head and pull off your bra. The second you were bare; his lips were back on yours.
Pulling you flush against him, his hand snaked between your bodies and up to your chest. He kneaded your breasts, before focusing his attention on one nipple, softly pinching and rolling it between his fingers.
You moaned into his mouth as he flicked a finger over it, back and forth and back again.
Then, the pad of his thumb stroked firmly over your nipple, and another moan left your lips. He pulled his mouth away from yours, tracing down your throat. Burying his face in your beck, his teeth grazed your pulse point while his hands continued across your chest.
“Don’t mark me,” you warned, you didn’t want to have to cover up at work.
“I won’t,” he groaned, his voice vibrating right against your skin. “I've pictured this every single day since the start of the season.”
You hadn’t realised how much you were grinding down into him until you begun to feel the rigid length of him beneath you, straining against the fabric. You desperately, purposely, moved your hips against him again, the friction coming from the fabric of your jeans and his length pressed up into you driving you insane.
He shuddered as he leant back against the armrest of the sofa, his hands sliding down to your hips as he looked up at you. his gaze was heavy and heated, roaming over the way you grinded into him, up to your bare chest, and finally to the look of ecstasy on your face. You felt exposed, but so powerful, as you watched his head loll back.
Slowly, you reached down, your fingers catching the hem of his top. “Your turn.”
It’s like your words revived him, he immediately sat up, pulling the top over his head and tossing it onto the floor. The sight of his tanned skin, the trail of hair leading down his body, and the sharp lines of his abs made your breath hitch. He had a few bruises from the game across his torso and it made him look even more attractive to you.
You leant forward, pressing your bare chest against his bare skin, as you captured his lips again, much hungrier this time. Your hands slid down his firm abdomen to the waistband of his sweatpants.
He bucked up to you, groaning into the kiss, as you wrapped your hand around his erection. You squeezed it tightly before dragging a nail along the throbbing vein at the underside of his dick.
Moving your attention to his leaking slit, your thumb traced over it, smearing the small amount of pre-cum around the head.
“Logan,” you purred as you made a ring with your fingers and worked his length.
“Hmm?”
“I’m really wet,” you said darkly, “and I need you to fuck me now, okay?”
Immediately jumping to action, his hands found the hem of your jeans and, together, you worked in a frantic and uncoordinated rush to get rid of the rest of the clothes. You slid off of his lap, your bare feet hitting the carpet as you pushed your jeans and underwear down your legs. Logan kicked off his sweatpants and boxers at the same time, freeing his thick length.
He slid to the floor, back resting against the base if the sofa.
When you looked down at him, he was watching you, mouth wide as he looked over your naked body.
“Come here,” he murmured, his voice rough.
You immediately straddled his lap, the direct skin-on-skin contact sending another bolt of ecstasy through you. he slipped a hand between your legs, collecting your arousal on his fingers before popping them into his mouth, sucking it clean off.
“I can’t wait to properly taste you,” he said.
“Next time,” you huffed as you rubbed your dripping pussy over his dick.
Tilting his pelvis up, he guided the head of his length to your entrance. He paused there for a second.
“Look at me,” he whispered, his eyes locking onto yours when you looked at him. He wanted to make sure you were ready.
You stared directly into his eyes, your fingers digging into his shoulders as you slowly lowered your hips, taking him inside you.
Logan’s head fell back against the sofa cushions, a low groan rumbling from his throat as you squeezed around him. He gripped your waist tighter than he probably realised he was.
For a long moment, he didn’t move, letting you both adjust to what was happening. His chest heaved as he stared up at you with unadulterated desire.
When he finally began to thrust into you, every stroke hit you deeply, and was perfectly aimed at the spot inside of you that had your toes curling. The room was silent save for the combined sounds of you both raggedly breathing and each slap of your ass against the tops of his thighs.
It had only taken a few bounces before Logan felt his orgasm approach.
“Oh– shit,” Logan called, as he was then suddenly shooting ropey cum up into you.
You leant back, hands resting on the floor behind you as you spread your legs wider. He was still buried inside you, so you opted your small rolls of your hips rather than bounces. His hand came to your clit, it throbbed under his thumb, and the tight coil built rapidly in your lower stomach.
One of your hands came to play with your nipples as he kept gently rubbing at your clit, not sure what kind of pressure you needed. Your orgasm crashed over you, pulling an undone cry from your lips.
He winced as your walls squeezed around his sensitive, and slightly softened, dick.
“I’m sorry,” he mumbled, turning pink as you came down from your orgasm. “Guess I’ve been holding that one in for too long.”
You were an adult, and knew that the reality was that sex wasn’t always a marathon. You didn’t mind a sprint every now and then, especially considering there was actual build up.
“You don’t need to apologise. I enjoyed it. Really enjoyed it. Did you?”
He nodded sheepishly.
“Then there’s no problem.” You leant in to give him a swift kiss. “Do you want to take a shower with me?”
“I do,” he said eagerly.
You stood up, wincing as you felt his release run down your inner thighs. Walking on shaky legs, you led the way into the bathroom, Logan following close behind. You turned the handle, waiting a moment for the water to warm up before stepping under the spray.
When Logan stepped in behind you and helped you to wash, it was incredibly sweet, feeling way more intimate than what you’d just done. The heat mostly washed away the worries you hadn’t realised you had, but a voice nagging in your head kept asking you what would happen now that you’d crossed that boundary with him.
The shower was over quickly, and you gave him the only pair of shorts you owed that you thought could fit him. You both walked back to the living room and sat on the sofa, putting on a movie, but the exhaustion of the long night was catching up fast.
“By the way,” he said. “I was thinking about what you said on the coach about wanting to see how long I would have kept trying.”
“Hmm,” you mumbled sleepily, shifting closer against him.
“I want you to know I would have kept trying until you rejected me,” Logan murmured, his arm tightening around your shoulders to pull you securely against him. “This isn’t a game to me. I’m serious about this.”
A soft smile pulled at your lips as you felt yourself drifting off.