Ezra

Bekka nods, “We’re going to lose touch. I’ve lived in the same house as someone and lost touch and I’ll be miles away from you.” She sighs, “You don’t have anything to Lose, Angel. You work at freaking cloud 9. You live in this shitty apartment!” She was a hurtful girl.

“I don’t think I’m coming back here… I’ll just miss you.”

“I just thought you might have loved me enough to go, I guess….” she shrugs.

Bekka just broke down crying. “You’re right.” She cries, “I shouldn’t have asked.” Bekka wipes her tears she missed Dimitri and she felt alone even in the company of other men.

Bekka as less than enthused with him. “Knock it off.” She pouts. “You look stupid.” She said watching him sing around. “I’ll pay for you to move up there.” She was afraid of him not being available when she needed him in Boston. “What’s it going to take?”

Of course it was a bad way to start the new year without Dimitri but Bekka felt she couldn’t express that to Ezra without sounding like a broken record. “Food is the best way to kick off the new year.” She chuckled but was happy they ringed in with a kiss. Bekka kissed her boys and hugged them. “Mommy loves,” She smiles and the most important thing was that the boys were happy. Bekka had a little more relief now that Atticus was home with her.  “Bedtime beebees.” She said and put them to bed and Gadget drifted to sleep easily for once.

“Oh right, right.” She laughs small. “Yes, let me know because if you can’t be here I’ll be there.” She leans in and kisses him. It felt needed, like her emotions were crying out for some sort of way to be consoled. “Are you kidding I love cold Pizza. I don’t discriminate hot, cold or mold-I’ll eat around it.” She chuckles.

“I appreciate how chill you are about my son almost choking to death.” She sighs, “Can it be a meat lovers?” She looked at him with her spoiled grin. “Also, you’re going to make it home to us before the ball drops tonight right?” Bekka didn’t want to be alone for the new year… It triggered her to think about Dimitri because that’s when they sparked.

Bekka was in a panic that required her meds that she was using often even more than before since Dimitri passed. “Okay!” She grabs Ty after Angel unchoked him. “You okay? Baby,” She hugs him and pets his pretty dark hair. “You okay?” She looked at Ty seeing him smile and not know anything was wrong with him. Bekka let a small sigh of relief and then cried. “Thank you.” She said to Angel. It reminded her of that one time she hated to remember when she chocked Ty and Dimitri saved him. Ty squirmed to get down so she let him down. “I’m going to have to monitor him more now that he’s getting older I guess…”  The twins began to play. Bekka took Atticus back from Angel and just observed his face taking in his features she hadn’t gotten to hold him much. Bekka could see Dimitri in his little nose but she could so easily see him in all of them.  Her meds began to work and her tears stopped. “Thanks for putting up with me…being a wreck even more so now.” She cleared her throat.

Bekka blushed. “Uhm, maybe you’re not actually working over?? Kidding.” She laughs small but felt territorial towards him. Bekka glanced over hearing the noise of Thadd smacking Ty on the back. “What the?” she laughs a little. “Don’t hit your bro.” She shook her head. “Choke Mom!” Thadd cries. Ty didn’t even know he was choking. “Omg, Angel do something!”

Bekka laughed small, “He sorta does look like you…” It was strange Ty also looked like Dallas. “Are you still having one night stands?” what business was it of hers? None but she felt the need to know.

“Hey Ty only woke you up three times last night.” She small laughs. Gadget had been staying with Rebekkah while Bekka was settling in with Atticus. “Do you just offer my son Bacon like he was a dog? Don’t forget to flea him while your at it.” She jokes a little. “You look good holding a little dude.” Bekka smirked at Ezra being dadish. “Eat, eat, Ty it good? yeah.” She smiles warmly at Ty.

I Think I’ll Go Back to Boston

“That’ll be a first. hopefully he can set a tone and example for all the others.” He laughed. “Lemme see the little booger.” He took a look awe a dark and daunting little fella.” Ty ran in and grabbed on with his arms and legs around Ezra’s leg holding on just because. “Hey buddy lets set over here and I’ll give you some Bacon.” He pulled him up by his arm and set him in a chair giving him a paper plate with his food on it.

It hit her hard hearing an outsiders point of view on the death of her husband. Bekka shook and cried clearly being upset by something her said. “…That- that was Dimitri.” she shook her head. “He was murdered.”

Ezra fucked up big time. His expression dropped completely. “Oh my god.” He looked like he didn’t know what to do. “Aggie- I-I I am so sorry. I had no idea.” Ezra was bad at situations like this and never really had to deal with death like this. 

“Shhh!” She reached her hand out for him to come closer. Bekka wanted it quiet, Dimitri would be speaking ever so softly just above a whisper to her right about now but these other guys were just not caring about the volume in the room. O’Hara spoke up, “It’s a boy, Momma. Worrying won’t help anything so please don’t. He’s okay right now.” She said as she worked quickly with the staff to get the best chance and care for the premature newborn. Bekka’s body basically felt like it collapsed. Her breathing was heavy and her heart rate was fast so O’hara administered some more Valium for Bekka before she delivered the placenta. “So which of you guys want to eat this, or are you sharing?” O’hara asked she seen how Bekka was moving on so quickly with these guys that had been on the back burner for a while and she was mad because she liked Dimitri he was her friend. Bekka looked around as if she was waiting for Dimitri to tell her she did good… but she didn’t do good because their baby was born very early. “He was right,” Bekka shrugged with teas in her eyes. “Dimitri said– he said that it was boy. We didn’t know. but somehow how he just knew.” Like he did. Some how he just knew things or used to….

Bekka was annoyed at Nick talking right now, however her eyes held a bit of relief seeing Ezra. “Let him in!” She said with a strain in her voice as she was pushing.

Bekka giggles, “Maybe not, you never know what the future holds.” She noticed Ty enjoying Ezra’s ice cream better. “Okay, let’s see what it’s about Ty man, “ Bekka held her mouth open for Ezra to feed her. “Hey now! we never got that loud…we so did.” She shook her head reminiscing a little bit of their fighting.