think i got food poisoning from a bad salad i’ve been puking on and off for like 5 hours now :/

i’m depressed and a crappy communicator lately, i feel bad that i’ve been so bad at texting my friends back the past year but something in me died and suddenly it’s so hard. i used to expend so much energy masking to be the perfect person that is considerate of everyone and in line with my ethics in all moments and now i can’t sustain that person anymore even if i do care for others. i wish well and mean well but feel pretty ineffectual and lame much of the time. but also i do already feel better and more secure in some big ways by being authentic, it’s all gonna balance out in the end i hope

everything’s gonna be ok i just have to stop being a bitch

having to power wash and spray all my plants like crazy because of spider mites i Hate mercury retrograde :( let me have nice things ok thank you 💚