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You know, I was really doing all right. I thought I could say that I recovered. But then there was this moment during my internship. They always made comments about my body, how skinny I am and how I could eat anything without gaining weight.

I never knew how to respond to this and just smiled kinda awkward and said I got a quite quick digestion. But they kept talking about it and always made comments when I ate something unhealthy or so. And that I could pull that off because I'm thin and it won't be a problem.

Like I said, kinda awkward and annoying. But then they made references to people they know who got ‘fat’. Like: ‘yeah my mom used to be as thin as you are but now she's just fat’.

But they didn't stop there, no. She stated her mom was ‘fat’ now bc she never knew how to maintain a healthy diet or how to lose weight. And another colleague replied that was funny and what skinny people deserved. I just sat there, frozen.

They told me that it will probably happen to me either so I better enjoyed that cookie now I still could. I wish I told them about my eating disorder. About how I fought years to 'just' eat that cookie. But I didn't.

can you tell how my body cowers on a late night, how i know im supposed to feel anything but this

can you tell what throwbacks are actually giving me back if they are just some fucked up horror stories?

can you tell how scared i was although i knew you wouldnt hurt me

still working on a new novel, this is a quote. Wanna vote for me? boekgoud.nl/stemmen -> young adult -> Luna 

Naaww thanks for the tag @thatfangirlwithoutalife ! <3

Relationship status: in a relationship with my cute bf 

Favorite colour: turquoise, pink and blue

Lipstick or chapstick: chapstick

Favorite food: chicken nuggets, no doubt

Last song I listened to: atm an acoustic version of Fast Car

Last movie I watched: not really a movie girl. I’m afraid I can’t even remember... whoops... -_- Probably Pitch Perfect 3.

Top 3 favorite shows: RIVERDALE. Uhm yes. Also Riverdale... Oh and Riverdale. And Atypical, The Blacklist is also nice. 

Top 3 bands: how can I pick three without being rude tot the ones I didn’t mention.. well,  I guess by just doing it. First of all, Twenty One Pilots. Imagine Dragons. BMTH. <3