Where all my thoughts are collected....

Each night that I lay here in bed next to you I’m realizing it’s another night towards you leaving. I hurt knowing I won’t have you here to be with us but am equally as proud of the future you’re setting our son up for. I love you Donnell depree and I am so lucky to be your wife. I don’t know how to be without you because you are the piece that completes our family. You’re the glue that holds me together. I know I have to hold it together for our son but it’s gonna be so hard not being able to tell you everyday I love you. Not being able to kiss you good morning or goodnight. Yes I will write everyday but that’s definitely not the same. Please let these 10 weeks go by so I can hold you for those 2 days. So I can get the little love I need to keep pushing through the next 17 weeks. Baby I am here for you. I am proud of you. I hurt because I will miss you not because I don’t support you. This is our life now. You are my soilder. My world. My soulmate❤

Things are getting really emotional for me these past couple of weeks. My husband leaves in exactly 12 days for 27 weeks of basic and advanced training for the army. I have never spent more than a week apart from him or more than 1 day of not talking since we met 7 and some years ago. I've slept next to him every single night for about 4 years now. This adjustment will be tough. I cry a lot but I know I have to be strong. I have to make things as normal as possible for our son. I have to stay strong for him. Let him know how proud I am. How grateful I am. This has always been on our minds but now it's here. He's made the choice. We are now going to start a whole new life. But first we have to get through this boot camp. No communication for 9 weeks and 4 days besides the snail mail. I miss him so much already.

Today is a huge day for our family. Things are starting to begin and Tuesday is even more impacting. I don't want to say any specifics but let's just say I'm extremely happy but yet so anxious. I have the most hard-working, family oriented, loving husband in the world. Everyday I'm thankful I get to wake up next to him. Tuesday I'll be more in detail but for now, this is it.