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𝑰𝒏𝒕𝒓𝒐𝒑𝒐𝒔𝒕 𝒐𝒏𝒄𝒆 𝒂𝒈𝒂𝒊𝒏

Okay this is barely enough but look i know yall all in the gc HATE ME by now and its not like something to be surprised about. I love yall even if i dont act like it and yeah im just gonna leave this here and leave all of yall alone. Please do as i said for Beth tho..It means a lot to me.

So i just got a 5 from geography cuz the teacher randomly decided shes gotta ruin ppls lives and now i have a 5 from maths probably cuz i forgot to put "²" on the answers AND NOW SOMEONE STOLE MY FUCKING PANTS FROM MY BAG Not even joking i dispise my life and heavily and want to kms but gotta stay alive for the...yeah idk for why. 🫩✋️

For the first time i actually went and took the bus to the bridge that ive been thinking about for ages. I keep saying "Im going to jump" but i never went as far. I mean. This time i took the wrong bus from school and said "Fuck it" so it wasnt a plan but as im looking down i realize i wouldnt do it. Atleast not now. Seeing it is like a reality check that i dont want to die i want to change. I want to fix somwthing. And even if i cant right now it doesnt hurt enough to permanently solve it. Im so glad.i looked down instead of just doing it.

I got to her posts. To her account. To the past. My beloved Beth. I read all the things she wanted me to know..all the things she thought about me. All i have thrown away. I dont wish to live anymore. Im the reason shes gone. If i just..behaved normaly shed be here with me. Im sorry.

So my phone keeps breaking. I just got a spare phone that totaly sucks and im getting a brand new one this week!! We picked out a gray one it looks so pretty i cant wait lowk-

I myself am a physical form of abstract but i do not have to die to prove a point as i see. Tonight we go. We those who thought the only way to prove a point was to die. I will not die. I will prove a point to that part of me that wants to prove a point. Is as insane as it sounds. I am as insane as i write. But maybe thats good.