Evolve Or Repeat

Maybe this is a difficult question to ask, or topic to speak about. This is probably one of the things I’ve had on my mind for the longest of time that I cannot tell you exactly when I thought about it. Maybe it was because I was too exhausted by uni, chasing deadlines trying to get everything done in time that it felt like I missed out a lot of my life. Or maybe, it’s because I spent so much time doing nothing that it felt like I was doing something but then when I look back over the past 4/5 years it seems like I was just not a part of it. Not a part of life.

This is probably one of the most confusing things because I had these big things I wanted to do but somehow I haven’t done a single thing. I don’t think I really had big expectations of life besides living life to the fullest…

Nothing I have accomplished I ever dreamed about. It’s as if whatever direction the wind blows that’s the direction my life takes. There’s a lot of maybes in this life thing, now it feels like I’m having a midlife crisis.

My Evolve in terms of redeeming my life means to seize the day. To live in the now. I have a huge bucket list and I want to see it through.