ONCE UPON A TIME ,

i so badly want an a.j lee blog right now , but refusing to dive back into the w.we fandom ♡.

i'm mainly at @devilher right now !

i'm actually , really working on my come back this weekend ! but in saying that , i've had such a big weight on my stomach. i don't agree with a lot of the decisions that w.we has been making lately. i'm not going into detail on them because if you know , you know. it's really a struggle for me because rh.ea means so much to me ( i know i scream about it so much. ) her and her storyline really helped me heal through the things i went through last year. i'll be honest in saying i don't know how much more i'll keeping up with current events in it because i'm not comfortable giving money to them rn through subscribing to things and what not ( i still plan to watch just in other ways ! )

hey sunshines ! i'm sorry i haven't been around a ton. writing here has just kind of gotten pushed to back of things. i've been in a major flare up of my fibro , and getting everything together for my yearly house inspection ( which just gives me anxiety for no reason at all ). by the time it comes to writing , im just too tired or hurting too bad to manage the energy to even think about tumblr. hopefully after this weekend , things can go back to normal around here !

I know I already posted about it earlier, but im eating another slice of cake. I am just so thankful for my friends making this happen. last year, I was in such a different place, I didn’t think I would make it to 31. But this year has been learning to grow and piece myself back together and I couldn’t have done that without the most amazing and incredible friends that I have. I know it’s just cake but it means so much to me💖.

good morning sunbeams ! i hope each of you are having a wonderful friday that leads to such a bright weekend. i'm so sorry i haven't really be around on any blog lately. the last two days have been super hectic , by the time i get home i just want to sleep. im going to try to be here today a little while the tiny humans are at school !

i still have birthday messages from yesterday that i promise i'll answer. besides the cake mishap , i had a really good birthday thanks to my friends ♡. i've been out and about all day and my body regrets it so much , so i will probably be around tomorrow to get to things !

the worst parts of birthdays are having to update your age here , rip.

i wanted so bad to write tonight , but my anxiety is off the charts for no reason ? so i think it's a night of trying to find something to distract myself.