the journal factory exploded so i’m gonna be mentally ill on main so trigger warning ED ✌🏻
my eating disorder can’t stop thinking about ariana grande’s eating disorder it’s actually so wild. like i accept that i have body dysmorphia but i kind of dismiss the disordered eating as a symptom rather than its own problem (and also bc for the most part it only lives in my thoughts and i only occasionally actually starve myself and i don’t feel like it counts when it’s only two days) ((yes i will bring this to therapy)) but like ive been hungry for only 2 days at this point and felt like i was gonna pass out after going to the gym i genuinely don’t know how she is that thin and remains conscious for her entire concert like that is crazy. she must feel like absolute shit though like when i was bad in 2020 i felt awful all the time and i got sick at the drop of a hat and my lips were blue and i was just sitting around bc it was 2020!!!! i cannot imagine singing and dancing for 2 hours!!!! genuinely i want to call the police about her she is so frightening to me i will be so so angry if she dies
