๐ฆ How is everyone's weekend! I'd like to take a minute to get kinda candid on here. Scroll away if you wish ๐ฃ So I've been really inactive on social media for the past week or so, I've been really reevaluating my life in general. ๐ Social media (mainly IG), "building your brand", and producing as much art as possible, really took over my life without me meaning to I love all the friends I've made on here but the insane time and energy spent painting, and learning IG and Etsy, has hit an unhealthy level. I let a lot in my life really slip though the cracks and I think I just pushed my art so much because other things in my life weren't how I wanted them. Art was easy to excel in so I kept excelling. I let my lack of sleep & lack of exercise get out of control. I am really introverted so it was easy to stay inside & stay up all night to paint. My mind and body told me "enough is enough. Take care of yourself!" when I suffered a HUGE back injury in Feb. that made me quit working. After that I was told by a therapist that I have anxiety, and which brings out OCD tendencies. I knew that all along but I didn't think it was a large part of who I am. Apparently it's a large enough part of me, to give me insomnia and make me seek counseling. I really don't want pity or anything, I just thought I would share this with anyone who cares. I'm really glad I went to therapy. It was my first visit ever. Even in that one visit, it was so out of character of me, enough to make me really want to fix myself even more. I have extremely minimized social media, started going to bed at a decent hour, waking up early, going outside for walks each day with my boys, and actually cooking again. I am ashamed to say I've not made a scratch cooked meal in probably a year until 2 months ago. I miss tangible things, real moments and sunshine. I bought a planner binder (how 90's of me) and even just using my own handwriting to enter in all the calendar months and years was extremely satisfying. .. All that being said, I'm hoping to continue all of my self care routines that I've recently created, and painting is now strictly for the weekend. ๐ Thank you for reading if you're out there. ๐๐
