37 and mentally unwell

https://www.spamtongspamton.tumblr.com/

A list of what im currently into:

Bg3, Date Everything, Pokémon, Undertale/Deltarune, and Gravity Falls

I ship myself with fictional characters. Feel free to block/dni with me if you don't share these ones

Deltarune: Spamton, Tenna

Pokemon: (ZA) Corbeau, Ivor, Lysandre. Grisham, Philippe

BG3: Halsin, Rolan, Gortash

If you support Donald Trump or consider yourself an 'Anti'/someone who thinks telling someone to kys over fiction is okay, stay the hell away from me.

I’m currently taking commissions through my Artistree account and my Kofi!

TW/CW for depression ahead

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I’m posting this as a reminder to myself. I have anhedonia. About 3 years or so, I lost an 8 year friendship because of my bpd/choices/actions. I was disgusting, hateful, and in my mind downright evil. I got to the point where I didn’t see any reason to keep going. I genuinely thought about dying daily. Because what was the point after all the bad things I did. I eventually threw myself into BG3 and met quite a few of its yume/self shippers. They were so lovely and kind. I found a tiny spark of joy that I’ve been holding onto ever since. Gortash did something I can’t explain, but seeing people who loved him and Durge made me think I was still capable of being loved too. I was capable of being better. Maybe I didn’t deserve to be punished for the rest of my life.

Another Gortash practice. About 90 minutes. When I allow myself to think about using my anime style instead of sticking to my realism studies, I tend to have more fun and feel like he reads as Gortash better.

My 10 year old niece: I can't see myself dating anyone in the future.

Me: I was told I could date when I was 15. I never did. 37 and still not interested in anyone. Only fictional characters.

Mom: Thats a complete lie.  What about Gortash?