Enthusiast of All Things Awesome.

Our souls orbited each other even before our bodies did. Even before we heard each other's names. I know you never believed in that kind of thing, but it's what I believe. What I have to believe to offer myself some comfort in the absence of you.

Does this have to be as impossible as it feels in that moment between the end and you leaving? At first, it feels like maybe anything is possible or maybe it's what I tell myself to convince myself to ask you to stay. But I never would. And you've never dared. Even in the sleepy afterglow, neither of us allows ourselves to hesitate, both so worried about sleep finding us before our instinct to run in kicks in. Before we think too clearly. Before we let ourselves forget the world outside waiting to deride us or pick us apart.

I feel your warmth like a phantom on the other side of my bed even after you're gone and although I know it's not really possible, I swear I see your fingerprints on everything you've touched. Including me.

1. something that might surprise the moots: I'm so much more open on Tumblr than anywhere else it's very possible folks won't be surprised by much. I guess it may or may not be surprising that I'm bi (because I think I've posted about it before) but I only fully realized it when I was in my late 30s and almost 20years deep into my hetero-presenting (and very happy) relationship. (Also it's to Dan Howell's credit that I finally realized it, but that's a story for another day.)

2. favorite drink: I am a Diet Coke girly through and through, although coffee in the morning is my life's blood. (My boozy drink of choice is a G&T.)

3. activity/hobby: I write - (mediocre) poetry mostly but am currently working on my first novel (yikes! Scary!) I am also a big reader and love cross stitch.

4. currently watching: Heated Rivalry and only Heated Rivalry honestly. Otherwise I'm writing or reading.

5. currently reading: Star Shipped by Cat Sebastian and then I'm looking forward to starting the chronological re-read of the Game Changer series for July. (Been meaning to do this for months but I kept having library holds come available 4 at a time and didn't have time.)

6. favorite dessert: PIE. (Fruit pie specifically, and only if it's *good* pie. Otherwise creme brulee).

I haven't. I think about it a lot.

"Cry For No Reason While Listening to Florence and the Machine" Day!

This pride month, I aspire to be the kind of bisexual menace that Ilya Rozanov would be proud of. 🩷💜💙