Mental State

“i never loved you with the intention of getting something back. i loved you as an extension of the love i already have for myself. but when your energy stopped complimenting what exists within me, i had to walk away. darling, love is not an excuse to tolerate anything unrequited.”

I just realised

I have come to a conclusion:

I am tired of being forgotten by others. Only to be remembered when needed.

“It’s not friendship if you have to bullshit yourself to bullshit them It’s not friendship if there isn’t an ounce of mutual benefit You are not obligated to impress fools who mistake you for light air when you’re a demon of thermal energy You would do well to abandon their presence and move elsewhere”

Me: *reads own horoscope* nice

“Someone will come along. Someone who understands that you get jealous and anxious. Someone who knows the fears you have rooted deep in your past and holds you when you’re feeling scared. Someone who can’t dance, but dances with you anyway. They can’t sing, but they’ll sing to you anyway. They’ll love any gift you give, even when it’s the wrong size and they’ll love anything you cook for them, even when it’s burnt. They’ll make you laugh until you cry, and know exactly what to say to make you smile. They’ll leave you feeling helplessly, unapologetically happy as you fall asleep at night. You’ll wonder how you ever got so lucky. Just be patient. Someone will come along.”

“let them miss you. sometimes when you’re always available they take you for granted because they think you’ll always stay.”

“All I want are true friends. Someone I can call my best friend and not have one doubt about it. I don’t want to be someone’s second, or third, or fourth choice. I want to have a loyal best friend who will always be there for me and realize the smile I am faking…”