my heart is different now.

If anyone needs to hear it: you don’t need to have a great time tonight. You don’t need to go to some cool party, you don’t need to drink if you don’t want to, you don’t need to have sex to make it special, you don’t need to wear fancy clothes or be surrounded by hot friends. If you don’t want to do any of those things, if you don’t have a SO right now (or don’t want one), if your friends can’t be with you tonight, if you simply want to spend your evening reading a book or rewatching LOTR - hell, if you want to go to bed at nine and dgaf about New Year’s Eve - that’s okay. Time is a man-made concept, and your life is your own. You can pick your own moments of celebration. Do what makes you happy.