Em's Observations

Lucky for some

Seven ways

I could've come

Seven days

Well, times two

When I could

Be there with you

Will you be there

Or care?

That seven beats

Were missed

When I thought

About your kiss

Your smile

Your eyes

Your breath

Ever closer

Now ive left

Love?

I doubt

Heart's been torn

So many times

Since I was born

And yours

Is tattered

Worse then mine

So why

Do I feel inclined

To make you smile

And laugh

And play

And look at me

In that way

For seven days

Well times two

When I have the slightest chance

Wheel me through

Is it enough?

Am I?

Should I try

Not to bring you too

Last time left

Before I came

Before the sleeping planes

Could talk

Could wake and warn

Of deadly currents

Whispering a name

So now these sticking wheels

Plead under the burden

Leaving me uncertain

As these papers cut

Words waiting to be given

Like a contract to be sealed

Should I appeal?

Conceal the sound

Heartbeats mouthed

On a swollen tongue

I've begun

To move

To step

To skip

This is my trip

Let me just take one sip

Of golden memory

I look up at you confused,

Did you say...?

"irresistible"

I feel so obtuse

You can't mean...?

"irresistible"

But me? Truly?

"irresistible"

I watch your soft lips

My heart flips

As you lean across

And whisper

"irresistible"

Caught in spindled wooden bars

Splintered heart

Wanting to depart

To flee

Hide the scars

Bruise ridden skin

Sunken in

Choking me

Laughter sharp

Breath caught, cut short

Play pretend

Let's be friends

Silently yelling

Screaming muted

Polluted

Drenched in sweat

Emotions set

Placed like pawns

Emboldened

By the yawns

Of a king

beholden

To only death

Chest constricts

Crushed under edicts

Dished out daily

Into this melee

Of frozen hearts

And pointed swords

False starts

Abused by lords

As we collapse

Under hidden pretences

Iron fences

Chains and braces

Hiding our faces

Ready my heart

As it bursts into blue flame

Welcome to the game

When you need to see

Need to run

To fight

To fly

What to do

Have mine, it's yours

Numb?

Share my emotions

I have all shades available

Tired?

Let me wake you

Sweet kisses upon your brow

Heartbroken?

You can have my shattered pieces

Patch your heart with mine

Falling?

Use my body, my being

My everything is you and yours

raise yourself

Even though I fall too

Love

Whoever you choose, however,

I will love you through the pain

Peel back every inch

Let me help you with your layers

Though you resist

You have no voice to tell me

What I will find

These examinations began

Years ago

Never forgotten faces

Echo in our eyes

Scars deeper then bone

Calling for me

As I touch your heart,

Fire at my fingertips

And in our souls

There is no test

And yet I test myself

Reaching past pains

Painfully reaching

Teaching me about me

Blackened glass eyes buried

Hair faded and patchy,

My sweet friend scurries

bothered by brightness

fearing the day

I tremble alone

Yellowed canvas

Torn at the edges

Pain radiates through me

Speech useless,

Do as I say

Obey

Don't push away

Are you good?

Better check..

Tell me no

I'll know

Or that's how it

Should go

Daddies here

You say,

Too much wrong

Feelings just don't belong

Parched

Your heart,

Emotionally starved

Heart carved

Into parts

Stung

Your mind

With words like barbed wire

Choking all desire

As you perspire

Trying to find

A way to be kind

To let go

To let me know

It's no good you sitting there,

it's no good you crying.

There are others worse then you,

men are out there dying.

Soldiers lie down at your feet,

dead or barely breathing.

Bloody rags cover your skin.

Do you think of leaving?

It's no good you hiding here,

it's no good you running.

The enemy will find you soon,

with their speed and cunning.

Voices yell loudly nearby,

in fear and haunted tones.

Fire rages in the sky,

there are no safety zones.

It's no good despairing now,

it's no good staying still.

the enemy is closing in,

ready for the kill.

Try to dream,

Try to stay awake

Give me a break

Breath rattles in my lungs

Am I done?

Heart aches at my mistakes

Words unsaid, read,

Unread,

I dread their meaning

Sometimes no words at all

We just fall

And fall

And fall

Curled up I weep

As memories of us seep

through my pores

Opening doors

To your arms,

Barely, simply, a tad

Over 300 miles away

If I just had

Stiffening my hands

Controlled but wild

Every part of me strained

Sleep distances my heart,

Sharply pulling me

Darkly deeply away.

Why wonder, wandering,

Through dreamscapes

And remembered cares

Destination free

Night illuminates imagined nemesis

Distracting devilish dramatic dreads

Nightmares congregate

Waiting heart pounding

Caress the smooth skin

Of a cigarette

And i am lost

-

The spark of light

Illuminates pursed lips

And I ache

-

Clouds of smoke

Compliment a stony face

Mouth carved in a crooked smile

And I am enraptured

-

Pale tongue

Leaden with ash

Briefly licks dry lips

And I hunger

-

Once bright eyes

Squinting in smoke

Stare blindly

And I meet their gaze

Crumbling as I stand,

Knowing you were here

Strange to feel

Without touch,

To see blindly,

And blindly observe,

Deafened by empty sounds

-

Hands grasp

At thoughts

Mind focusing

On air

-

Still you are here