Daily Doses

I grew up about 30 miles north of Philadelphia, Pennsylvania. I lived there most of my life until I was 44 years old. All of my family was local, and everyone was within 10 minutes. It was great. I then moved to New Jersey down by the shore. It was still home because I was only about 1 1/2 hours away from the family and the area was quite familiar since we had always had summer vacations at the…

There are many different cleaning hacks out there to help you be more efficient and thorough. For example, choosing the best time of day to clean. Some people work better in the morning because mentally and physically they are fresh. Some folks are not morning people and need several doses of caffeine and motivation to be at their best. Some work better in the evening. This is a foreign concept…

It’s mid-January and the weather is turning colder here in Middle Georgia. I don’t like the cold but I guess I have to accept it. You can’t change the weather, can you? I am also living in a personal winter season. That is, it’s cold and dark and sad in my soul. I’ve lost my beloved son and I’m trying to scratch my way out of this incessant grief. I don’t like winter. The days are especially long…

Round and round it goes, where it stops nobody knows. My mind, my ruminating mind, doesn’t have an off switch. Sometimes I feel dizzy with thoughts. Whirling around with the force of the wind, a tornado touching down, wreaking havoc in my world. The constant racing makes me lose my balance and then I fall down. My life has had so many changes in the last year. I used to be grounded and at…

Scattered, Here, There, Everywhere

My mind, oh my mind, it is running laps around a very small area called my brain. The thoughts keep racing. The details continually spew out of the grey matter. Oh my! Did you ever pack up your house to move away? You never really know how much stuff has been accummulated over the years. For example: You open up your kitchen cabinets. It’s just a tiny kitchen, very unassuming. Slowly open the…

It’s been a hot minute since I have written anything. It’s been a hot minute since Covid arrived. It’s been a hot minute and my life has changed drastically. My last post was about exhaustion. Exhaustion from not being able to freely express my disagreeance with anyone. It’s been a hot minute since I have felt that. I have come out of that mindset through many tears and depression. It’s been…

I’m awake but I’m tired. I’m tired of being tired. Im tired of not being my true self even though I know better. Im tired of trying to please everyone. I’m tired of not expressing myself with raw feelings. I want to scream but I don’t want to upset anyone. When is it my turn to just scream from the rooftops how I truly feel. I’m sick and tired of taking care of everyone but me. I’m tired of…

This is a repost from my friend Renee @ Silent Wisdom. The world is ready for a big change. Please read her post to help leave behind the old, unworthy worries and move forward into a new, loving world.

Today’s Learning Curve

Lessons I’ve learned:

The true meaning of “in sickness and in health”. : I have many health issues and throughout the years I have needed to be taken care of. I’m grateful that my boyfriend has always been a wonderful caregiver to me. Now, He is in need of a caregiver and I will always be there for him. Through these interactions I feel that we have become even closer than ever.

Patienc…

Boyfriend got his surgery and he’s doing quite well. The first 3 days were harrowing to say the least. Step-daughter and I took turns the first night setting up ice machine on and off every hour around the clock. Second and third night, step-daughter took the night shift while I slept and now, finally, he is able to get himself up during the night so we can all sleep. The surgery was friday and…

What’s Stress Got to Do With It?

My boyfriend is having surgery in the coming days. He was injured almost a year ago and we have been waiting patiently for this surgery. Covid got in the way and so here we are at this late date finally scheduled for surgery. To say that this is stressful is an understatement. The last week has been off the charts. He’s more anxious about getting everything in line before the surgery. He needs…

God’s Promise

Sitting here today looking at a blank page. I wonder what’s going to come up from within. You never know what will tickle your fancy when you’re sitting alone waiting for whatever. Could it be the 85 pound Rhodesian Ridgeback that doesn’t want me on the computer, laying his head on my lap and pawing at me? Maybe! Or, could it be the background voices of household occupants talking on the phone or…

The Green, Green Grass of Home

Picture this is you will: A spring and summer of a pandemic. Everyone quarantined to their homes. Oh so bored we all are. In my home, I have an alien believer roaming the halls. “They’re coming back I tell ya.” These are the echoes I hear in my sleep. All the neighbors constantly teasing him about how aliens don’t want to come to earth because of our craziness. Oh, how he longs for his unearthly…

It’s a new day. Where did all the days go? I’ve lost track of time just like everyone else. It’s funny how the concept of time has changed for us all through this year. All of a sudden time has become meaningless. The constructs have changed.

In all of this time quarantined at home, somewhat in a box, we have had to redefine our relationships with others living there. It has been an…

“Did I say that?”

It all started in early November 2019.  The boyfriend got injured at work.  Complicated injuries have him home full time for now.  With everyone being home quarantined at present, here is my experience with home quarantine not related to the coronavirus.

At first, all hands on deck in caring for my beloved.  That has not changed.  Actually, we both care for each other the best we can since I have…

You Can Teach an Old Dog New Tricks

Last week I was in the waiting area of a physical therapy center.  I played around on Facebook for a little bit and then decided to shut off my phone and just engage in my surroundings.  I like to at least look people in the eye as they pass by me, giving them a quick smile.  It’s important to interact that way.  The passerby and I each have something to offer the other.  We exchange energies, I…

It’s a new year and everyone is celebrating.   Last night I heard the firecrackers going off and people laughing.  I was happy to be warm and cozy in my bed.  All the well wishes for a new year are spinning around with hopes of a bigger, better year.  Many wishing good riddance to 2019.  Expectations are high for big changes in life and circumstances.  It’s a new year with an opportunity to start…