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Ā Ā While Iām talking, Iām going to try not to think about how I might not graduate because of a Chemistry course. Iām not going to think about the front part of my tires-no-the front part of my bumper- dented. Iām not going to think about that. Iām going to try to think about all the things Iāve previously thought about.
Ā Ā So, I was wondering why we have to write about our work. Write about the work, make the work and talk about the work. First, which I think, we should be the most seasoned in doing, is the making of the art. You got the maker of the art, you got the explainer-whatever. If the first step is making the art, then the second one, which Iām used to doing, is talking about the art. Talking about the art, itās a shorter connection from the ideas. Ideas. Ideas, okay, letās talk about ideas. Art, is the thing, right?
Ā Ā Ā With that thing, thereās the idea, which I have, whatever. Which, I guess the art might have originated from, but it has itās own existence now. This quote by Leo Stein, which I read in an article by Bill Brown called āThe Thing Theoryā.
Ā Ā Basically, taking a bit of an anthropological-whatever-mindset on art, things. On everyday things: street signs, toilets, bowls, hairā¦ whatever. In this āthing theory,ā he quotes Leo Stein, āThings are what we encounter and ideas are what we projectā. I guess, things, in terms of art, come from a projected idea. Ideas are what we project. Ideas exist only in a headspace of one person at a time. Saying a piece of art is a physical proof of -
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Ā Ā -physical proof of an idea. Thatās not what things and ideas are. Thatās redefining what an idea is. You canāt say that a piece of art is an idea because it exists on its own. Yeah.
Ā Ā I remember talking to someone about how I didnāt like painting people, or portraying people. Itās just the physical exterior of how you seem to be. But it's not who you are. Ideas and things. Physical existence is just how you're portrayed or perceived but itās not who we think we are. Us, and our bodies, itās a thing, right? I mean, thatās what heās talking about in āThe Thing Theoryā. Our body is a thing existing amongst other things. Once your āideaā, whatever makes you a person, your soul, is gone [laughs] you're dead. That just means that you're only a āthingā then. āYouā is gone, you're just a dead body so, you're just an object.
Ā Ā Portraying objects, obviously the image is not the object. Painting it, photographing it, drawing it or whatever. I try not to think about that. I try not to think about that.
Do people not understand that Iām trying to cross the street? The hospital is the worst.
Ā Ā What I was saying before, Iām supposed to write a paper, write a statement, itās just another physical form of āideasā or something, right? You make a thing, you make the art, you make the sculpture you make the painting whatever. Whatever āitā is. You have to make that. You have to portray the āideaā as best as you can. You have to create something thatās not yet part of this world, something that exists in your own head space. Make it, birth it, whatever. Then talk about it.
Ā Ā I kinda think about domesticity, I think about my mom.
Ā Ā Ā I think about so many things. Yeah, they created me but obviously, my mom and my dad didnāt create āhuman beingsā. What Iām saying is, my mom doesnāt know an-I was about to say anything- she doesnāt know much about me, I guess. Yes, Iām a girl. Yes, I go to art school. Yes, I change my hair a lot. Yes, I donāt necessarily care about-
Ā Ā -Itās interesting. My parents say I donāt care about material objects. Iām not a material person whereas somebody who is a material person-TVs, cars, computers, phones. All of those things are just vehicles, not saying it in the literal sense, like the car. Theyāre just trying to move you or your ideas or your body forward. So theyāre tools.
Ā Ā Theyāre not objects that comment on life. I guess thatās what art is. I guess thatās what antiques are. I guess that's what makes something significant. I mean, thinking about the significance of objects, why do I like things? There are things that I see in a place or a house and itās like, āYeah, that's it.ā What makes it significant? Is it the cultural history, biography or is it the use or whatever? Maybe itās just the use, maybe itās just a tool. I guess I donāt like the tool. I just like my body as the tool.
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Ā Ā I read this really over-my-head kind of article. Art and Agency is a book by Alfred Gell that was written in 1998, I didnāt read that. I found this article and it's The Reassessment of Art and Agency. He used this word- actually he didnāt use that word. Iām looking at the wrong notes. I guess itās not, how, how does that work. But. Um.
Ā Ā Letās talk about Michael Bracewell. Marc Handelman told me to write a- write a- write-a-ah-not write anything. He told me to look. He told me to look at Kai Althoff. For my last crit, I mean- it was-
Ā Ā -how do I talk about work that isnāt created yet, everything Iāve been working on is just in my studio. Itās in parts. If an installation is an environment and the people and all the pieces- everything together at the same time. Then, the piece doesnāt exist yet so-but-um. In this pseudo set up, Marc said look at Kai Althoff. He was talking about the show at ACME specifically. I was trying to find articles about him or about that show. I found this one article by Michael Bracewell. I wanna say it was in an Art Forum but, I donāt know, who can trust my notes here.
He used this word ādomestic-allegoricalā. Which I just, I think itās great. He talked a lot about the fantasy and the real. Whatās that quote thatās supposed to be groundbreaking? Art-Fuck, I donāt even remember it. Art- Art makes life more beautiful than life. Right? You're supposed to look at art and use that as a commentary, I guess. Itās gone so inward. I feel like the connection between art and the real world is so-but I mean- what is the real world? Everyoneās invested in their own things.
Ā When you create something it's a new object. Itās like that really dumb quote that just like, Art is- the steal-whatever that Picasso thing that was stolen from somebody else. Better than make- then to-I donāt know, I donāt know. It doesn't matter, but it does.
So if your body is a body among objects and then that body dies, it becomes an object because it decomposes. You become gravel or soil or whatever. Have you seen the thing online-I donāt know- some article people were sharing on Facebook? You can have your ashes mixed in with soil and a seed- it grows a tree. Itās like everyone wants to become a new form of life. Obviously, itās not their form of life- because they're dead [laughs] you're dead parts are important to creating this tree? If you think about decomposing and regeneration, fucking- almost every tree is made out of some dead things life but we usually donāt give a shit. We're still writing on paper and using it to print my āideasā or whatever. Thinking about that- even just aging, I guess. Ā
Ā Ā Iām obviously done growing. Iām not going anymore but Iām reaching this point of deteriorating? I recently, yeah- this is gnarly-like bizarre- but I recently stubbed my toe. Stubbed my toe, and my toenail turned black and blue. Iām like, āI don't know what to do about thatā. Was I thinking itāll eventually go away? I feel like it wasnāt important enough to go to the doctor or tell anybody so I just kept it a secret. I just went on the internet because somehow it's like a version of our own head space.
Ā Ā When Iām on the internet- I feel like weāre almost anonymous. I mean, we all know-well-most people know that the internet serves to your specific taste. I know it takes statistics like, they know I Googled āMy-[laughs]-What to do about a dead toenailā But I donāt give a sh-like that shit doesnāt matter. Itās embarrassing but itās not crazy enough- itās not like Iām plotting something that could actually be- it's like āwho gives a shit?ā Because people do that. You know how many articles and links I found about peopleās dead toenails? And images. Itās a weird objecthood of something that was myself. It was a weird secret, keeping that in my shoe. Not telling anyone, no one's going to inspect your toe but you know about your toe. I recently pulled it off and it was fucking bizarre. Well, first off, there was already another toenail growing underneath my toenail. But like-I was expecting it to hurt- but it just didnāt. It was just weird because it was this realization that I was carrying around an object. It wasnāt me anymore? My body is a thing but that was really a thing- that was just attached to me for a while.
Ā Ā I guess we think of our clothes as things but you donāt really think of them as an extension of yourself. You could have a pair of shoes- you made some kind of dent in it or spilled some paint on it- you may think itās some version of you. I guess the thing that is closest to you, as an extension of you, but close to being a separate object, is your hair. Thatās why there so many different- there's so many different-itās such a big fucking topic. Why is hair so important? I guess itās an ego thing because it's an extension of yourself. Or what we think we are, or whatever. Itās not the luxury [laughs] luxury of plastic surgery. I guess Iām thinking about the extensions of myself that was living and arenāt living anymore. When it comes to my parentsā dead dog-animals-they're obviously living and they have theyāre own-
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Ā Ā Our ideas of them are pretty much more-
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Ā Ā When you think of your dog-
Ā Ā Because we have language and text and communication, art is just another form of
Ā Ā Dogs donāt have that. Sure they can bark and show some kind of emotion. What is a dogās head space? I donāt know.
Ā Ā Because they donāt necessarily project anything, we can categorize them into our headspace. We donāt know what they're headspace is and all that. We know what their favorite treat is and what blanket they like the most. If they like to lay in the sun or not.
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Ā Ā So Iām supposed to-
Ā Ā So Iām supposed to encapsulate a printed idea. A printed object which displays language that will go into the headspace which will then formulate the ideas. I donāt know.
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Ā Ā Letting someone into your head space, ya know?
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Ā Ā Saying to someone you are what you are? In a weird way? Meaning function. A banana. A banana is a banana. It's not going to want to be called something differently.
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Ā Ā You know when you go into a room and you forget why you went in there?
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Ā Ā I went to this talk with Kate yesterday at TCNJ. It was called- well we were there to see Trudy Benson and- what's the other guys name? Lucas Blalock. The show is really good. Itās called āImage Tech: Making Pictures in a Post-Digital Ageā
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Ā Ā Art imitates, explains or shows, whatever new thing is happening technology or politics. I donāt know. The most interesting thing for me, when they were talking was- some guy asked: āWhat about 3-D Printers?ā-Trudy Trudy. TrudyTrudyTrudyTrudyTrudy. Lucas Blalock was saying āI work in photoshop, I make photoshop workā
Ā Ā But Trudy said āI make paintingsā Itās like the least useful tool. In terms of showing an image, she's saying it's basically object making. I think itās weird that people are making-
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Ā Ā If we're artists, object making. Weāre stuck, inherently, in the object making category. Making objects that are commenting or speaking on this thing that doesn't make objects.
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Ā Ā Itās so new and I just feel like there are so many objects we left behind. I donāt know, to forget about these objects-I feel like itās kind of mean.
Ā Ā If everything is a tool-Everything is a tool-But
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Ā Ā I feel like art means bringing some sincerity into the work. If you throw a bunch of paint on the canvas and show it, thatās some kind of attitude. Thinking about Amy Sillmanās article Ā āAb Ex and Disco Ballsā you know, masculinity and ejaculation just on the canvas. It seems like the most masculine but I donāt know.
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Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Stuff I Talked About
Bracewell, Michael. āA Tension of Moodsā frieze. Jan. 2015
Brown, Bill. āThing Theoryā. Critical Inquiry 28.1 (2001): 1ā22.
Layton, Robert. āArt and Agency: A Reassessmentā. The Journal of the Royal Anthropological Institute 9.3 (2003): 447ā464.
Sillman, Amy. āAb Ex and Disco Balls: In Defense of Abstract Expressionism IIā Art Forum. Summer, 2011.
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