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Happy holidays Merry Christmas peaceful blessings of yule tide joy. Santa brought me a new laptop to write more poetry on it. And some groovy books to read with 2 new sweaters 4 pairs of socks 2 pairs of jeans 1 pair of dress pants and 2 lovely lanterns to set my world a blaze.

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June 27 2022 Sliding backwards into repressed emotions i stumble and fall. Sliding backwards into mania but forwards into depression am i losing my mind again? these small things all add up loss of sleep, loss of hunger feeling a sense of something not right do you love me enough when i am not myself but a manic person fighting her personal demons? can we fight this mental…

June 24 2022 my best girl friend disappears in the summertime. she slowly sinks into pits of despair. depression grabs hold and i dont see her that often i unerstand the avoidances i just really miss my friend. She is my best friend and I have no one else ever/ please get better. call me soon ot just come over? written for karen timek

June 22 2022 i look for you in every song i listen too. i look for you in every crystal i gaze upon i look for you everytime my phone rings. i look for you among the shadows i look for you whenever i look into a mirror but your gone and I am lost here without you.

June 21 2022 Summer Solstice the longest day beautiful and bolden the flowers stood tall. the animals frolic and dance as they roll in the grass. Looking for some peacefullness. idiot me just another mid summers day. celebrate among the grass and leaves celebrate the beckoning fullness of flowers bursting into bloom a single red rose.

June 20,2022 My broken brain split apart into manic depression. One comes faster after the other but i cannot tell which one. Medicine calms my storms. without it i would surely die. this enemy wears my own face in my mirror. the muse is usually manic where the crying fool usually masks my depression. Stablity is too far gone beyond my grasp one foot into the future one foot…

june 20,2022 i see you effortlessly in my dreams. i see you with the sparking eyes the full lip i see you. i wished we had more memories together each one is like a treasure map that leads directly to me and i see you in my dreams.

waiting on you takes raw courage it takes my breath away. waiting on you your the phone call that never rings bells ir shout it the deafness of damages call me call me call me,

since youve been gone

june 19, 2022 my mind is a place where I cannot escape your ghost. my mind hears you softly saying my name im a wreck sometimes i wish i could see you again when you feel so tired but you can sleep dreams come and go i will try to fix you.

June 19, 2022 love is dark shores broken by the stars scape. love is the sound of your voice and your laughter. love is butterfiles in my stomach love is all nervous yet full of grace. love asks for nothing but has so much more to give in return. love is the picture i keep of you on my cellphone. old worn but handsome as hell. love is my memories of You.

june 16 2022 first fog then flashes of red and white colorful skin tones an embankment of tress webbing the brantches into a wreath a celebration a burst of good news a pyramid with a crimson eye and we dance as the moon is full.

miles apart still i want your heart. itś not possible Itś been 20 years since i last saw you. i want you to visit me at my home I want you to see how good I am when Im stacle Im sorry dont leave me.

p.s i never told you

that I was falling in love with you/ you swallowed me whole and it was too late to go dance in the rain/ p.s. I never told you that i was falling in love with you/ because i never knew the real you. just the mask you wore. torn a bit tattered like your soul a bit battered. p.s. i never told you that i was falling in love with you. perhaps i didnt know it myself yet? but god do i…

June 14 2022 Itś a childrenś game where you hide and then seek for the others. Itś not useful in matters of the Soul, Spriit and heavy heart. Still I seek you out and your always there. hiding in plain sight. from miles away and years apart. your still here paying rent in my heart.

june 14 2022 whispers lightly beneath my right ear a touch of breath breathless words closed off heart blocked from the main artery. Suddenly silence disappears beneath layers of sleep upon layers of dreams. closed off heart heart racing anxiety leads to gray shades of frustration.

June 13,2022 Waking up 5Am just to pee. But by then I was wide awake. I did take a nap between 8Am and 1030Am. you didnt have to say anything. i saw it written all over your face. you think i must be getting manic again. you set your watch to time the next nervous breakdown.