15lbs to go

you don't get to not speak to me or even try to speak to me for days on end or have me waiting all day while you go out with your friends and then cancel the meet up at night or say you will talk to me one day and then postpone it for three days. you don't get to do those things and then say that you love me. if you loved me you would prioritize me, show up, and be there. you never do that. you do not love me so don't even fucking say it. i don't believe a word out of your liar mouth you fucking fake ass bitch man child. you are so immature and stupid. i fucking hate you. you never once brought me joy. al you ever made me feel was worthless. i fucking hate you and everything about you. you are the worst thing that has every happened to me and i regret even talking to you at all. i should've left after your first of one million fuck ups but instead i decided to suffer and forgive you for no good reason at all. i just didn't want to be alone. but you made me feel the most alone. i hate you so much you are the worst person i ever let into my life i hate you so much you are the meanest asshole i hate you so much you are the biggest jerk i hate you so much and i am not sorry anymore.

Damn! I must have deleted the clothes photos after Tradesy sold their site and all my listings where lost during the transition to the new company's website. Oh well you'll see them in person.

i am falling out of love

can it be different this time with the same person?

my boyfriend is going to an annual party at the end of this month. his ex goes sometimes. last year he invited me but i didn't go. after the fact, he found out his ex might go. she didn't. he told me that if she did, he would've talked to her. He would've asked how she was and how things are going. He's going to the party this year. I think he knows she might be there this time. He didn't invite me this time. I think he is going to talk to her and leave me. Since the beginning i have been nothing but an afterthought to this man.