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anyway.....people calling Mickey abusive always forget that he tried to walk away every time.
I'm not excusing his actions or Ian's. I'm not saying they are an example of a healthy relationship.
What i am saying is that Mickey is self-aware. Mickey is an abuse survivor from a violent household who was raised to talk with his fists. he is often a "violence to resolve conflict" kinda guy. But with Ian, he tries to create distance. he tries to NOT be that kinda guy.
He is self-aware enough to recognise he is prone to violence and we can see him try to break that habit.
In season 3: the abandoned buildings. He did not engage in conversation. He tried the silent treatment. When Ian didn't leave Mickey tried to walk away. He tried to create distance. He tried to not engage because he didn't trust himself and didn't want to get violent with Ian. Nobody else in his life would have been given that courtesy. Ian purposely antagonised him and then dared him to become violent. And Mickey in his fight or flight, drunken state did lash out, and cried as he did so.
In season 5: Ian throws the first punch. Mickey does not immediately retaliate. Mickey says "what the fuck, Ian?" And "excuse me for giving a shit." Ian shoves him. Ian corners him. Ian antagonizes him and they end up in a full fist fight.
In season 10: Ian leaves Mickey at the alter. Mickey walks away. Mickey is self aware enough to know he can't talk about this right now. He needs to calm down. He needs space. He tells Ian to leave him alone. He tries to create distance. Ian doesn't let up and Mickey lashes out.
In season 11: They're having a petty bullshit argument about masculinity and the roles they play in their marriage. They both throw crude insults at each other. Ian headbutts Mickey in the face. They have a fist fight.
None of this behaviour is okay. I just find it fascinating that so many people in the fandom seem to hold Mickey's actions against him and judge him more harshly than they do Ian.
Ian's mental illness is a contributing factor, not a justification or an excuse. Mickey's history of abuse and his upbringing is a contributing factor, not a justification or excuse.
At least Mickey was self-aware enough to try to walk away. He knew in those moments that they wouldn't be capable of resolving things pacifistically with emotions still running high. He didn't trust himself to engage until he'd calmed down or processed.
No, it's not healthy that Mickey is seemingly unwilling to talk about his feelings and work with Ian to find a resolution. But it's also somewhat understandable that he doesn't know how to do that. He feels cornered when he's vulnerable and is prone to lashing out.
I just feel like not enough people acknowledge that, when I think it's a really fascinating and significant part of his character. He gives Ian more leeway and grace than he would ever give anybody else, because he doesn't ever WANT to hurt him.
I could cry just thinking about how they were so fucking young and life had already treated them so badly. It’s no wonder they both became each other’s refuge, that they were so desperately bound to one another and so desperate to love each other, each in their own process. Because truly being seen by the other person in such a fragile world was impossible—something they couldn’t cling to—and precisely that urgency born from insecurity drove them to love with their hearts on the outside.
I think about Mickey, about how even as a young kid in an abusive household, he was able to draw a line with cruelty. He wasn’t cruel; he gave the gun back to Ian because he wasn’t cruel, because it didn’t interest him. If Mickey never showed anything other than anger, it was because he had been carved into believing that family had to be protected. By extension, everything Mickey knew and eventually cared about had to be protected as well—like Ian. But that protection of his family was born out of fear (and here I’m really talking about Terry), whereas the protection he felt toward Ian came from a different place: affection, appreciation, love.
I don’t think that in the early seasons Mickey felt that need to protect Ian yet, but rather that impulse to have something that was only his. Something Terry couldn’t have. A kind of control over his life that he had always lacked. That was enough for him, creating something outside his family. Still, there are moments, like when Ian visits Mickey in jail in season one, where Mickey somehow starts to appreciate Ian. He probably isn’t even aware that Ian might like him, because I don’t think he was in the mental place to have that kind of self-awareness. In moments like that, I think Mickey was letting his brain connect the dots, because it was the first time someone told him I miss you smiled at him genuinely, showed him warmth and softness. That must have caught Mickey off guard, and that smile, to me, shows a bit of that.
Really, they were just kids smiling at each other, back when things were still a little easier, when Ian had a small, innocent crush—nothing more. They didn’t deserve anything bad.
In season two, one of the moments that has stayed with me the most is when Mickey is having a panic attack over the possibility of his father finding out (I truly believe Mickey suffers from anxiety, and you can see it on several occasions, later on as well, when Terry dies and he’s trying to control his emotions while he cries. Probably because sometimes he scratches his eyebrow, like a nervous tic). Ian is no longer his, he can no longer handle the situation with his fingers. what fucking world do you live in?. It’s fucking heartbreaking that someone so young says, with a trembling, terrified voice, If my dad finds out, he’ll kill me himself. And the worst part is that, knowing everything Terry does later and his personality, it’s not just a figure of speech—he really would kill Mickey. And Mickey knows it.
One of the reasons Mickey has such low self-esteem and so much self-hatred is that his own father doesn’t care about hurting him, and that, of course, makes you feel like you’re worth nothing. He can treat you like garbage. And so Mickey feels that hatred when Terry is part of the equation, because then it’s no longer something he chooses to do with Ian, it becomes yet another proof that it’s disgusting, like everything he does, and therefore that he deserves the harm.
Probably no one had ever touched him before Ian, and even with him, Mickey was so conditioned by trauma that he tried to seek power or strength through sex. There’s been a lot of talk about how Ian used his body, but Mickey did too. It was also his way of being seen, in some sense, because sex was violence and it was raw, stripped of feelings. For a while, the only way Mickey had to cling to Ian was through his body.
I think about how Mickey had all these feelings colliding inside him, confused, and how absolutely terrified he was of his father. I don’t think Mickey truly believed, deep down, that what he was doing was wrong, his fear came from the rest of the world having decided it was wrong. His understanding of others, of life, had been shaped by Terry. When Ian tells him that they have nothing to be ashamed of, Mickey doesn’t say that they do. He only blames the rest of the world for thinking that.
In season three, words arrive—conversations—where Mickey’s body is no longer the only thing he can offer, or rather, it’s no longer the only thing Ian wants from him. That opens up even more fears for Mickey, because when sex stops being impersonal and feelings get attached to it, he no longer has control. That first kiss is such a huge fucking step for Mickey. I mean, kissing someone is more intimate than sex for him; it implies other things.
As his feelings for Ian begin to develop, as he actually starts to like him, the reason for the kiss is precisely that he no longer controls the situation. Because Ian has become something more, and he knows he wants to kiss him. And that’s where the protection slowly begins—the way he starts having these impulses to make Ian happy or comfortable.
Even with the kiss, with inviting Ian to stay over and sleep at his house, Mickey is able to align the physical and the emotional on the same level, where both things can coexist. He wants to keep Ian close because he is his safety, living proof that he has that something—that he can build something on his own that is kind. But he’s still scared, because his father is still there. He can’t offer Ian much more than those moments of intimacy, because that’s all he has at that point, everything he’s able to manage.
It takes incredible courage to open your heart when you know that someone who was supposed to protect you—who has even been your model your entire life—can destroy you, can kill you just for feeling things. And even though Mickey has that, he also now has gestures, words, moments that aren’t just sex, that aren’t just harsh. Mickey had to let go of everything he knew about himself, about the world, or rather, he had to name things no one had ever taught him, with a knife to his throat. And I’m not even talking about season four.
God, Mickey Milkovich, from the very beginning searching for proof that you can touch with your hands and not only fill them with blood. Even if that blood could be your own.
They were so fucking young and they didn’t know anything about love, but they survived by biting down on something they had built, fragmented, messy, taped together, but theirs. They only wanted to belong to each other, having learned about their bodies before their feelings. And I think that’s what I love most about it: it’s desperate, it’s need. Ian and Mickey have always been driven by a fierce need to be together, even from the beginning, even if for different reasons. And it’s need because they were never allowed to desire.
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Hi! So I tried thinking outside the box for this one. Hope you like it.
Enjoy!!
SUMMER CAMP
“It’ll just be like summer camp, Mickey”. Mandy’s telling him for the tenth time while she drives him to the rehab center where he’s supposed to get clean. It’s his second time and he feels like a fucking failure.
“No it won’t, but ok”, he replies, no real bite to it. He’s actually pretty grateful. She didn’t turn him down when he showed up all strung out on her doorstep, she didn’t abandon him. She’s stuck by him, through thick and thin since they both ran away from the clutches of Terry Milkovich. The fact that Mickey sort of dove into hard drugs to deal with it… well. Not Mandy’s fault.
She reaches the driveway of the clinic. Neither one of them could afford this facility. It’s not even a high-end one, it’s just not a dump. But, through her contacts, she’d been able to secure a spot for Mickey. “I bet it will be like summer camp. People sitting in a circle talking about shit. You’ll fit right in”. Mickey can hear the sarcasm. They never went to summer camp, they don’t know how it is. And Mickey’s never been good at making fucking friends or sharing.
“Whatever, skank. I’ll see you in three months.”
They hug when he checks in. He punches her shoulder and gives her the middle finger as he walks away. She knows it means thank you.
He’s got his own room, which is a blessing in disguise. He’ll be going through withdrawal in a few hours and it’s going to get nasty. It’s better if no one sees him like that. The orderly tells him all about the schedules and therapy and activities that he might want to partake in.
Across the hall, there’s a tall, skinny redheaded guy leaning against the door, blatantly looking at Mickey while he settles in.
“What’s Raggedy Anne’s deal?” Mickey asks the orderly, loud enough for the guy to hear. He doesn’t even flinch.
“That’s Ian. He’s cool. If you need anything and you can’t find us, he can probably tell you what’s what. He’s been here for a while”.
Mickey looks at the guy again. Ian lifts his chin in acknowledgement and leaves it at that.
"Doesn’t he have something else to do than stare?” Mickey doesn’t really like the idea of the guy knowing his every move. Call it paranoia, call it having to look out for himself since he was a child.
“Ian, if I’m not mistaken, you’re supposed to be attending group. Still not going?”, the orderly asks calmly.
The guy shakes his head, “I’m not sick.”
“Three different shrinks and that van you blew up would beg to differ, but whatever. You know how it goes. You refuse treatment, they won’t let you leave. Simple as that”.
Now that gets Mickey’s attention. That skinny bitch managed to blow up a van? Mickey’s impressed. He watches Ian as he gives the orderly the middle finger and he walks inside his room.
“Don’t worry about him giving you any trouble. Underneath all that bravado, he’s a pretty sweet kid”, the orderly says before giving Mickey some final instructions. They know he’ll be going through withdrawal so he’s not expected to show up for anything for the next few days and the staff will be making regular appearances to help him out, if needed.
Mickey doesn't see or notice much for the next couple of days. He gets the shits, the shakes, the chills, the vomiting… you name it. It takes a few days and he reminds himself why he tries to stay clean for as long as he can. He sees a shock of red hair from time to time, and then he sees the orderly.
After the worst has passed, Mickey wakes up in the middle of the night with cold sweats and someone placing a wet, cold rag to his forehead. It’s the shock of red hair that gives him away.
“What are you doing here?” Mickey asks, while he grabs Ian's wrist to stop him. “Where's Jean?” She's been taking care of him through this.
“You asked me not to call her, don't you remember?” Ian replies quietly. He's sitting there, all folded up in a chair next to Mickey’s bed, with a rag in one hand and the other one holding a pan steady. Mickey doesn't remember.
“So you what? Decided to play nurse instead?” Mickey spits out, “Fuck off,” he adds for good measure. He doesn’t need the hot redhead from across the hall to take care of him.
Instead of cursing him out, Ian smiles broadly. “Fuck you. Stay still or you'll sleep on a wet pillow”. He stays for another hour, he changes the water twice. Mickey falls back asleep eventually and when he wakes up, he's alone in the room.
The next night, Mickey wakes up to a repeat of the same scene.
“Again?” He asks through a mild headache.
Ian shrugs. “You sort of yell and I can't sleep anyways”. He dips the rag in the cold water. “You're doing better tonight, though”.
Mickey nods. “So what are you in here for anyways?”
Ian frowns as he drops the rag in the pan. “I'm not sick,” he says, jutting his chin out.
“Ok, so you're not sick. Watcha in here for, then?” Mickey asks calmly.
Ian stares at him for a moment. “My family. They hate me. I was the quiet middle child in a litter of six. No one had to worry, no one had to pay any attention. I sorted my shit out on my own”. Ian's rubbing his arms, his hands going up and down slowly, he's tucking his legs close to his chest. “And then I got sick of it. I couldn't hide it anymore. They saw. And Fiona got all worried and then Lip… They… Dumped me here”. He lifts a hand to rub his eyes, they're glassy and sad. “I know I haven't been good lately, it's all just been a lot. But they didn't have to get rid of me like that, you know? I was always there for them, when they were having a rough time. I didn't abandon them, I didn't send them away”. He lets out a soft sigh. “They hate me.”
Mickey lifts a hand and he places it over Ian's knee. “And the docs? What do they say?”
“Bipolar”, Ian breathes out, “Like my mom”. He stands up to pace the room. “They never liked her. They always said I was the most like her. I should have known. They hate her and they see her in me. They can't stand it.”
Mickey can tell that Ian's getting all worked up, raising his voice and walking fast. They can't really get caught in the same room at night, so he gets up to soothe him. “Hey, it's ok. You know? My sister dropped me off. Said I should look at it like summer camp. Group activities and shit, a break from the routine or some crap like that”.
Ian glances at him, but continues pacing.
“Never went to summer camp. There was never any money. As soon as I was able I was expected to go get money, summer was the best time for it, I didn't have school.” He points a finger at Mickey. “I always brought in my share and then some. Fiona never cared where it came from until she did. ‘Dancing, Ian? What's next? What else are you getting paid for?’ Oh she fucking knew. Where else would I be getting that kind of money?” He glances sadly at Mickey again, closing his mouth into a thin line.
Mickey walks closer to Ian, grabs his shoulders bringing him into a tight hug. If the kid continues pacing and yelling like that, they'll have the orderlies all over them in less than five minutes. “Hey. Summer camp. Come on. I never went either. Too busy running drugs and trying to stay alive.. But maybe we can do it together, right? Have our own not fucked up version of this?”
Ian doesn’t struggle. He just settles inside Mickey's arms almost organically for a moment. “Maybe”, he says as he leads Mickey back to the bed. “You should sleep.” He says as he detaches himself from Mickey.
“And you should stay”, Mickey says immediately, grabbing Ian's hand and pulling on it.
They sleep together, wrapped up in each other as if they were born to do it. A few minutes before rounds, Ian leaves the room, kissing Mickey’s forehead.
Mickey doesn't see Ian for the rest of the morning. In the afternoon, he sees Ian sitting alone in group therapy. He makes his way to him.
“Summer camp, right?”, Ian murmurs, a sad smile on his lips.
“Summer camp,”Mickey replies quietly while he squeezes Ian's knee for just a second.
i do think it's so funny that ian says "things have been weird between me and trev since mickey got out" and fiona goes you mean since he BROKE OUT OF PRISON
something shameless gets right (and fandom largely doesn't*) is that similarities between characters as often as not lead to one person repelling the other rather than it drawing them closer together (recognition of the self through the other with a lens of self-hatred: fiona & mandy, fiona & mickey, svetlana & mickey, even mickey & mandy sometimes although that’s more complicated)
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Fiona didn’t hate Mickey. I don’t think she even disliked him.
Honestly I’ve always interpreted them as being quite cordial but I’ve interpreted Mick as being cordial with all the Gallaghers. I mean that may not be everyone’s belief but it’s certainly mine.
But for Fiona, I don’t think she hated him. She wasn’t ever really opposed to them. She wasn’t too bothered when Mickey was staying with them in season four. She seemed fond of him in season five. And even moments like “I didn’t”-in all fairness to her, she saw Mickey bolt out that room after they saw Ian, and she already knew he was wigged out by hospitals. She kind of expected it because that’s all she knows-someone gets close to the Gallagher family, they leave. Someone sees the crazy, like Frank and Monica, they leave.
But before that they were cordial, she asked if he was okay after they visited Ian, she knew Ian would be happy to see him, she asked where he was at the pool party, she recognised that it was difficult for Mickey to see Ian in the pysch ward, she seemed proud when he called Ian his boyfriend. She always seemed tolerant of him, if not quite fond.
Her priority was always Ian though. Always. Liking someone doesn’t mean caring about them deeply. Fiona liked Mickey and maybe she started to care about him, but between him and Ian it was always going to be Ian. That’s her baby brother.
And when she says “Mickey would set a match to it” she was right. Mickey was an escaped convict on the run, that wasn’t the life Ian needed. She wasn’t talking about the Mickey who kissed Ian goodnight and stocked up on vitamins, she was talking about a man on the run for attempted murder. She was right.
She seemed happy when they got back together in prison. She didn’t hate him.
I’m tired of people acting like she was a jealous bitch or just hated Mickey. She was being protective because Ian’s her baby. She raised him.
i'm usually a lurker here but this is just a lil idea of ian and mickey getting drunk, losing a shoe each, and ending up on the gallaghers front porch and mickey cant stop telling stories. ian's just happy mickeys happy
icl I do really like that shameless has so many gaps when it comes to Ian and mickey. I mean, at times it's annoying, but it also means that so many extra things could just be canon.
I see a lot of people saying that my fic iron bars is canon to them, which I really appreciate and love to hear, but also like, it could be. We know nothing about their time in prison, so none of it is a re-write of canon. It's more of a gap-fill, so it could be what happened.
Same with the s3 sleepover, the gap between s4 and s5, even s7 when the cop says 'you visited Mickey on multiple occasions' is a huge gap because we only saw one so you never really know what happened there. I really like that. It just opens up so many things to the imagination.
I especially love that last one because it could be so many things. Maybe the cop was wrong and it was just that once. Maybe Ian had visited before the one we see in s6. I saw one theory that Ian turned up to the prison a few times between s6 and s7 but never actually visited, just signed his name in and then couldn't go through with it. Maybe he was sporadically visiting in s7 pre-Trevor (unlikely, because mickey says he 'never fucking visited' but Mickey's very capable of exaggeration, and we already know it's not entirely true because we see one visit).
I also love the gap between s4 and s5, because that's when things would have been pretty smooth sailing for them. Ian will have recovered from his depressive episode at some point and would not have been as manic as he becomes later in s5 (he might have even been somewhat steady, because lets not forget that bipolar people aren't always in an episode and can have periods of stable mood even without medication). I lean towards Ian being in a stable mood, tbh. There's a reason we don't have any episodes during that time, and with Shameless that's often because nothing big is happening at that point. I love the idea of them just being domestic and boring and fine and happy in the ~6 months between s4 and s5. Getting used to being out, living together, being in a relationship without hellfire raining down on them every five seconds like in the early seasons.
The s3 sleepover gap I think was intentional. I posted about that a year ago, about how I think the s3 sleepover was purposefully not included in the script because they finally have privacy from everyone to just be together, which includes privacy from the audience. When I posted that I had a few people saying that it's a nice idea but the Shameless writers weren't that intentional and didn't think things through that much, which I disagree with. Sure, the writing gets sloppy in the later seasons, but in the first 5 seasons, everything is very intentional. They clearly do think things through then, so I think it was purposeful.
Either that, or they were nervous about showing gay sex and stuff, which I've heard a few people say, but even then I don't think so. I agree that the writers didn't want to show as much sex between Ian and Mickey as with other characters, probably because they were gay, but they still showed some things in s1 and s2. They show the hands in s1, which implies sex, they show them in the freezer at the KashnGrab in s2, they show Ian bending Mickey over about fifty times, so they could have done that again. But they don't. They leave it completely blank, and I think it's because that's such an intimate moment for them that it's not even open for the audience to see.
Also, Shameless doesn't show intimacy that much. It shies away from it. It's more comfortable with graphic sex scenes than more intimate ones, generally. Intimacy is very much implied throughout a lot of the show, and I think that is for two reasons, one, because Shameless often relies on shock factor, on fast paced scenes, on dramatic moments instead of soft ones (it's a drama at the end of the day) and two, because it's self-aware enough to know that its viewer can realise the intimacy is there without it being shown.
Of course, there are exceptions. There are a few intimate scenes with Jimmy and Fiona, like when he takes her to a hotel. But still, they're few and far between and their intimacy was not as monumental as Ian and Mickey's was, because Ian and Mickey were under threat of death by Terry and had refused to admit feelings for each other for two whole years.
Sorry, I went on such a rant from my original point. Anyway, I love that Shameless leaves some things to the imagination. It lets you explore so many different aspects of what could have happened and it opens a lot of discussion which I love. I don't think I would be as obsessed with it as I am if it had made everything super clear and obvious.
Ian choosing to stay in prison with Mickey in s10 (even though it didn't end up happening) is such a huge act of love that people ignore.
Ian had every reason to want to get out (while Mickey had far less, so it wouldn't have been as much of a sacrifice for him if it were the other way round). He had his family waiting for him and Lip's new baby, while Mickey didn't have any family on the outside like that (except for Sandy, but it's hard to know how close him and Sandy were throughout their lives since she's such a new character). Ian had ambitions and goals and dreams for the future while Mickey (although seeming less hopeless about life than he did in the early seasons) only wants to survive, be with Ian, and have enough money to live off. Ian wants to restart his life after prison with a legal job and a steady income while Mickey is still happy with stealing and scamming and dealing when they get out (their arguments in s11 about money stem from Mickey being happy with working just not legally, while Ian won't let him do that anymore).
Ian also knows Mickey very well. As much as Mickey says that they'll be fucking other people if Ian's on the outside and Mickey's inside and says they won't wait for each other, Ian knows that doesn't mean they're breaking up. It hurts his feelings, definitely, but Ian is aware that Mickey's just insecure and unhappy and worried about Ian leaving. He knows that if he gives Mickey enough time, Mickey will eventually have a proper talk with him about how things will work, because that's what always happens. Mickey shuts down, is reluctant to communicate, pushes Ian away, and then eventually relents when he realises Ian isn't going anywhere.
All of that makes what Ian does in s10 that much bigger. When Ian chooses to stay in prison for Mickey, it isn't to save their relationship, because Ian knows they'll stay together. By now, he's very much aware that Mickey isn't going anywhere. (Besides, I also think that whether Ian was outside or inside prison, by that point he wouldn't let Mickey go anywhere).
So when Ian chooses to stay, it is literally for the sole purpose of making Mickey happy. He doesn't like that he's made Mickey feel insecure about what will happen on the outside and he doesn't like that Mickey's upset about him leaving. So instead of waiting him out like he might have done normally, so that they could talk, Ian prioritises Mickey's happiness over their relationship. Remember Ian wanted a 'temporary seperation', which him being on the outside while Mickey was in would have granted (even though it's not an ideal situation and would have been a lot longer based on what they knew of Mickey's sentence at the time). That 'temporary seperation' probably would have been really good for their relationship.
He does it purely to make Mickey happy. No one's life is at risk. They won't be breaking up. He just sees that Mickey isn't happy with Ian getting out and he tries to fix it. He even says it:
'If I choose it, you would be happy. I just want to know, yes or no, would you be fucking happy?'
And sure, he's pissed about that making Mickey happy. Ian's not happy with Mickey wanting him to do that, Ian doesn't want to do that, but he does want to make Mickey happy. He's willing to make that huge, huge sacrifice to stay in prison because it would make Mickey happy. That's it. It's not for anything else.
That's such a huge sacrifice and it's a massive gesture of love and I'm so glad Mickey wisened up a bit and decided that he was being pretty selfish and it didn't end up happening.
But Ian was going to do it. He was going to do it to make Mickey happy even if he was unhappy, even if he would lose a lot of time with his new nephew, his family, even if it might make it harder to get a job in the future, even if he had to postpone starting his life again. He was going to do it to be with Mickey and to make him happy and that's so sweet.
Side note: if anyone's seen The Good Place, it really reminds me of one of the last episodes with Chidi and Eleanor. When Chidi needs to leave the Good Place but will stay at his own unhappiness to make Eleanor happy and Eleanor realises that she's being selfish and has to let Chidi go.
It's like, they're just so in love. I hate when people say Ian doesn't love Mickey that much or whatever because did you open your eyes at any point during the show?? People really see Ian giving up so much JUST to make Mickey less sad and go, oh no, Mickey loves Ian so much more blah blah blah. Like shut up. They love each other the same.
Also, Mickey getting Ian to leave in the end shows how much he loves Ian. It's the same thing. Ian leaving would make Mickey unhappy but he lets him go in the end because he knows it's the best thing for Ian and it would make Ian happy. He puts aside his own insecurities and past hurt surrounding 'waiting' when he's in prison and Ian's outside to make Ian happy. That's also a big gesture of love, and it shows growth, because Mickey wasn't able to make that same gesture at the border.
(Maybe the border isn't the best comparison, because that break up would have seemed very permanent to them at the time, while the prison thing is temporary.)
Anyway, I'm just trying to say how much this episode shows in terms of their love for one another and the sacrifices they're willing to make for each other. I feel like people gloss over it a lot, because it came to a fast resolution for Gallavich (in that they made up in two episodes instead of over the course of a season like they usually do, and actually made up properly with mutual 'I love you's and an agreement to stay together which they've never done before), but it's SUCH a big deal.
It's a huge moment for them and they love each other so so much and they want each other to be happy more than they want themselves to be happy. They're both somewhat selfish characters (not a bad thing) and they're selfless for each other and that's massive. I just think it should be spoken about more.
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I love the deleted Gallavich scenes from season 10 but I can actually live without them not being in the actual episodes. But do you know which deleted scene I’ll be forever upset they took out though? The Lip and Ian scene from 7x12. Not only is an excellent brotherly exchange (which is one of my favourite things ever), but it also really adds depth and nuance to Ian’s feelings about leaving Mickey at the border.
Bascially: he’s really not sure that he did the right thing. (And I, for the record, absolutely think he did the right thing, but I’m still very, very, very happy to see him feeling hesitant about it, torn over it.) He repeatedly seeks Lip’s reassurance that he did – or did not – make the right call: “Stupid, right?” he asks, and “You think I should have?”
(Sidenote: the line about the sex being fucking fantastic is fucking fantastic. HELL YEAH IT WAS! I also love that Lip asks about it so casually: he knows they had sex, he is zero percent concerned about Ian cheating on Trevor, he just wants to know if his brother got properly laid.)
But the most important bit, the best bit, is when they start talking about Lip abstaining from alcohol and Ian goes: “Is that a thing again?” and Lips nods yeah, he’s trying.
“How many days?” Ian asks.
“At this point I’m just counting hours,” Lip says and this is the point, I think, where Ian realizes that oh, that’s what he’s been doing, too. Counting the hours until the ache passes; until the longing fades; until he once more can pretend not to remember what it feels like to have Mickey’s arms around him.
And so, when Lip says that he’s glad that Ian came back… Ian doesn’t answer. Because maybe it was the right call, but he’s not sure that it was, and he sure as hell isn’t glad.
I mean, he tries and he tries and he tries, for the next few hours and days and weeks, but this time he can’t do it. Looking back at the past year he can’t unsee the lies he’s told himself and others, and yes, there’s been good things too, worthwhile and real things and maybe he wouldn’t undo any of them, but having seen Mickey again, having had the ruse exposed, he can’t go back to fooling himself that Mickey doesn’t thrill and fulfill him in a way no one else can.
And this, I think, adds a lot of context both to his feelings regarding letting Mickey go and his downward spiral in season 8. It is an excellent and important scene and it is the one scene that should not have been cut.
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