Elliebear Arts

Here’s the bakushima fanfic I was talking about

It came out in march, right? Jan-June has marked some of the worst depression I’ve been in since I was probably 13. My abusive, manipulative boyfriend broke up with me on January 26th. We had been dating nearly a year, and I never saw how manipulative he was until after we broke up. He was so kind and genuine to me, but it was all a lie. I was completely heartbroken and I thought we were going to get married; he gave me his ring and promised me. 

For almost three months, I felt no emotion at all. I can honestly say that I don’t remember the majority of that time. I didn’t want to deal with anything so I just didn’t eat. I lost over 30 pounds throughout those 3 months. I didn’t have a job, and I was barely making it through school without completely failing everything. All of my friends had turned to be on his side and left me alone to be by myself. 

Breath of the Wild suddenly came out, and my sweet 11 year old brother bought me it with his own money that he had been saving up for months. I started playing and it gave me.... purpose in a way. I found reason to gather each item and find every shrine on the map. I was.. Finally feeling something. The calm atmosphere of the majority of the game gave me a peace of mind that I hadn’t felt in longer than I had thought. My anxiety was no longer keeping me up so late because I felt that the characters could protect me and show me that I don’t have to be weak. 

Of course this game didn’t magically cure my depression or anxiety, because I’m still recovering from what happened almost 9 months ago. I must say though, because of this world and these characters urging me on every step of the way, it gave me some hope. They were my family. 

Now I have a full time job that I’m able to go to. I’m working on a few college classes and I’m able to actually eat and feel emotion again. The progress is small, but I am able to function and I’m finally making a difference in my life.