If you think that i have stopped writing, well i didn’t. Don’t worry, i still write and always will. It’s just that i have been writing it in my mind and books. Basically i was doing a lot of thinking in that period and explore this filthy world. Life without social network is much more better and of course you would agree with me on that. For various reasons, i actually like the idea that people hardly have the time to catch up with what you are doing and your life progression when i disconnected with them. Because i tried to live my life without depending on people’s expectations and i guess you could say i nailed it.

I used to think that there was no light at the end of the tunnel but then when i get to see where i am standing now, well i was wrong. All we have to do is keep on walking and as soon as you feel like giving up, don’t. Hang in there because you have no idea how close you are to the end of it. I must say it was a long bizarre journey but hey that made me a person i am today.

Biggest regrets? I can’t believe that i spent this whole year wasting my time for the wrong people and there is no chance that i will let anyone else in anymore. This time, i really mean it. 

You know, sometimes i hate myself because i tend to forgive people easily but then i realized that there is nothing wrong for doing a good thing. No matter how bad your heart is broken, how sadistic and cruel people treated you, and how many knives you have received behind your back, don’t do the same thing to them because the hate in your heart will consume you too. The world is lack of nice people, so be one. 

There is no such thing as “i treat people like how they treated me” in my dictionary, anymore. I believe in karma, because whatever you do will always come back to you. 

It pissed me off knowing how can a person makes fun of others who are struggling with depression. First things first, we didn’t ask for this. You have no idea how much we want to get over it but it’s easier said than done.

We are just like one big ball of mess, trying to fix these tangled emotions. Most of us are too fucked up, some hurt too much, others are overly-sensitive and struggling with their mixed feelings, and the rest are just too weak to help themselves.