the sand n the ocean

I am always barely repressing lots of sadness and guilt lmao

Google How do i tell my boyfriend that it's always sunny grosses me out

Sometimes I think “hm why am I so lame and introverted and bad at reaching out to people” and then I reach out to someone and they brush me off :)))) I’m a sensitive bitch that’s why I’m an introvert

what is scissors was pronounced skeezers

 I am strong. I know a lot. I am able to remember important things. I will get better at speaking. I am grateful and graceful and not petty. I am in charge of my feelings

Sometimes I have dreams about doing really extravagant beauty preparation...like last night, I had a dream I was carefully spray tanning my legs a golden bronze. It felt magical and transformative

I want to be in Florida again... I miss the beach... the quaker parrots...the iguanas... the insufferable humidity

Bitch I don't have money. I don't want to spend money. I want to live in a hole and sustain myself on grass and rocks. Anything to stop living this capitalist self destruction

God I'm so lazy I hate myself I get home from work and feel paralyzed by technology and my brain feels fuzzy and I don't do anything but I need to cook and clean and do art and exercise. I need to do these things for myself. I don't do anything for myself anymore I just fuel escapism through consumption of media and goods

I'm pretty fucking bummed out my dude

How do people have...enough money..... who are companies even advertising to when they show shoes that are 200 dollars... Not this bitch that's for sure

It’s so vitally important to me to be able to talk to my family but holy shit the mental contortions I have to do to relate to them. I always feel a bit traumatized after a few days with em