(  you  know  that  dynamic  of  the  emotionally  closed  off  one  &  the  kind  one  they  have  a  soft  spot  for?  yeah,  that’s  the  vibe.  )

said from the lone wolf.

❛ you think you know me, but the truth is, you don’t. ❜

❛ going home isn’t an option anymore. ❜

❛ i’m fine. there’s nothing for you to worry about. ❜ 

❛ do you wish i was different? ❜ 

❛ i just, i don’t want anything bad to happen to you. ❜ 

❛ you deserve better than what you’ve got. ❜

❛ i guess we both lost something we were fond of. ❜ 

❛ i’m not leaving you out here alone. ❜ 

❛ you don’t have to keep me company, i’m fine by myself. ❜ 

❛ coming here to see you is the only place i could go. ❜

❛ i’m afraid of losing you, okay? ❜ 

❛ i know you probably hate me right now, and i get it. ❜

❛ what is with your weird fascination with me? ❜ 

❛ yeah, you keep on telling yourself that bullshit. ❜ 

❛ i didn’t mean to hurt your feelings, i just have a lot on my plate. ❜ 

❛ you’re lucky you got away with only a scratch. ❜ 

❛ if i could be a different person, i promise you, i would be. ❜

❛ people like us don’t get to decide when we’re done. ❜

❛ i’ve never had anything good happen to me when i trusted others. ❜

❛ you won’t survive out there. they tear all good things apart. ❜

❛ i don’t know what’s the truth or what’s a lie anymore. ❜ 

❛ you got guts, i’ll give you that. ❜ 

❛ the more you know, the shorter your life will be. ❜ 

❛ for the first time in years, i felt something that i thought had been lost to me. ❜ 

❛ what you think you’re going through is nothing to what i have been through. ❜ 

said from the soft spot. 

❛ you’re not as bad as everyone says you are. ❜

❛ how is it that you’re never scared? ❜

❛ you think i’m weak because i’m not like you. ❜

❛ you wanted to be left alone, right? ❜ 

❛ how do you make the pain go away? ❜

❛ you shouldn’t smoke, you know. ❜

❛ destroy what is destroying you. ❜

❛ i hope you find the peace you’re searching for. ❜

❛ you know my door is always open to you. ❜

❛ i look at you and my heart breaks because all i see is loneliness. ❜

❛ you’re avoiding the subject and you know it. what are you hiding from me? ❜ 

❛ you’re not at war anymore, you can come home. ❜

❛ it feels like you’ve been avoiding me. ❜

❛ what are you so afraid of? ❜

❛ you shouldn’t be out here by yourself. ❜ 

❛ why do you care? you could have just walked away. ❜ 

❛ i know you. how else do you think i found you so easily? ❜

❛ if it was the other way around, would you have come back for me? ❜ 

❛ i just thought you’d like some company. ❜ 

❛ are you jealous? want me all to yourself, do you? ❜

❛ i knew you had a heart. ❜ 

❛ can you look at me? please? ❜

❛ i don’t think i’ve ever seen you smile. ❜

❛ if you won’t take care of yourself, then who will? ❜

things  are  different  now ,    though  probably  not  as  much  as  penny  would  like  to  believe .    in  a  town  where  everyone  seemed  to  want  to  judge  pen  &  lie  to  her ,     eddie  was  an  oasis  in  the  desert .     he  was ….   genuinely  sweet  and  kind ,    never  asking  for  more  than  what  penny  offered .    he  seemed  to  hold  no  entitlement  when  it  came  to  her  time  &  attention ,    offering  a  place  penny  could  lay  down  her  sword  and  just  breathe :    a  relief  she  has  never  felt  in  the  presence  of  anyone  but  james .    she’s  found  more  and  more  reasons  to  hang  around  eddie ,     each  more  ridiculous  than  the  last .    what  was  a  simple  reconnection  for  the  sake  of  getting  fucked  up  has  shifted  to  something  more  genuine ,     something  worth  exploring .    

the  meteor  shower  was  a  dumb  fucking  excuse   ( she’s  really  not  even  sure  if  it’s  actually  happening ) ,     but  it  didn’t  seem  to  matter  much  anymore .   they  lay  side  by  side ,    blonde  &  brunette  hair  fanned  out  beneath  them ,    inches  apart  from  each  other  but  not  touching :     as  though  the  slightest  brush  will  shatter  the  surface  tension ,    cause  a  ripple  that  turns  everything  upside  down .    eddie’s  breathing  is  a  little  shallow ,   nervous  maybe .    he  keeps  sneaking  glances  at  her  out  of  the  corner  of  his  eye.    she  lets  him ,    pretends  she  doesn’t  notice  so  he  can  look  as  long  as  he  wants .     his  gaze  is  different  than  the  men  she’s  used  to :    none  of  the  greedy  hunger .    eddie  looks  at  her  like  she’s  art ,    and  it  almost  makes  her  a  little  bashful  to  allow  herself  to  be  seen .    penny’s  okay  with  taking  the  lead ,     driving  them  forward  towards  wherever  this  is  going .   

‘  your  heart  is  beating  so  fast  right  now .  ’    the  observation  is  murmured ,    gentle  amusement  coloring  her  tone .    his  face  flushes  almost  immediately ,    and  a  prideful  grin  dimples  penny’s  cheeks .    exactly  the  reaction  she  was  looking  for ,    the  way  he  gets  so  flustered .    SEVENTH  GRADE ,     eddie  says ,     and  it  gives  penny  pause  even  though  she  doesn’t  show  it .   ‘  who ,   me ?   i  have  no  idea  what  you’re  talking  about .  ’    mock  innocence  drips  from  her  tone ,    facetiousness  more  than  clear .    is  it  even  fair  for  her  to  be  doing  this ?    she  knows  she’s  going  to  end  up  hurting  him .    she  always  does .    her  pattern  is  clear ,   her  cycle  of  serial  monogamy  leaving  broken  hearts  &  destruction  in  its  wake .    the  built  up  years  of  unrequited  feelings  means  it’ll  only  hurt  him  worse  when  she  inevitably  crushes  his  heart ,     but  it’s  hard  to  keep  that  in  mind  when  he’s  tracing  down  the  exposed  skin  of  her  arm .    his  hands  are  rough ,    fingers  calloused  from  hours  spent  playing  music ,    but  his  gentle  grasp  on  her  hand  is  still  somehow  the  softest  she’s  ever  experienced .    the  surface  tension  disrupted ,     the  door  of  possibility  has  been  flung  open .

their  eyes  locking  nearly  makes  penny  shy  away  as  well .    it  feels  like  he  can  see  right  through  her ,     to  the  broken ,    messy  monster  she  tries  so  desperately  to  cleanse  with  all  the  alcohol .    he  sees  it ,    and  he  likes  her  anyway .    he  sees  the  danger  and  still  kisses  her  hand  in  a  way  that  manages  to  feel  more  intimate  than  sex .    a  quiet  but  sharp  inhale  is  followed  by  a  shaky ,    breathless  exhale  before  penny  finally  speaks ,    humorous  despite  the  vulnerability  she  feels .

⛧˖ ─── THE  MOMENT  SEEMED  TO  PASS  especially  slowly,  as  though  it  had  peeled  itself  away  from  the  fabric  of  time  for  the  sole  purpose  of  making  the  metalhead  squirm  beneath  its  tormenting  thumb.  Perhaps  if  Eddie  would  have  been  surer  of  himself  and  the  situation  that  he’d  gotten  himself  into,  he  might  have  relished  in  the  way  in  which  the  universe  had  differed  itself  to  the  cozy  confines  of  his  old  beat-up  van;  the  feeling  of  his  lips  against  the  soft  flesh  of  Penny’s  hand,  the  light  shade  of  pink  that  tinted  the  bridge  of  her  button  nose,  the  way  that  those  big  doll-like  eyes  of  hers  were  staring  back  at  him  beneath  the  hood  of  long,  fluttering  lashes.

            Alas,  the  pounding  of  his  own  heartbeat  was  drumming  so  loudly  within  the  hollow  of  his  chest  that  it  made  it  difficult  to  focus  on  anything  that  wasn’t  the  WHAT  IF’S.

            What  if  he’d  read  all  of  the  signals  wrong?  What  if  this  wasn’t  what  she’d  wanted?  What  if  she’d  been  playing  him  like  a  fiddle  this  entire  time,  and  he’d  foolishly  fallen  for  one  of  her  characteristic  games  like  all  of  the  other  pawns  that  had  come  and  gone  before  him? 

            Eddie  had  been  pretty  confident  beforehand  on  where  he  stood  with  the  blonde…  Many  late-night  talks  and  long  drives  into  the  city  had  given  him  a  better  idea  of  who  she  was  beneath  all  of  the  makeup  and  the  prima  donna  façade  that  she  liked  to  parade  around  in,  but  now  that  the  moment  he’d  been  waiting  for  had  finally  arrived,  he  realized  that  he  still  couldn’t  quite  wrap  his  head  around  the  reality  of  it  all.  That this was anything but unrequited. That  someone  like  her  could  ever  fall  for  someone  like  him.  Not  that  she  was  perfect,  either,  of  course.  He’d  come  to  realize  that  she  was  far  from  it,  in  fact,  which  was  oddly  what  he  loved  about  her  so  much.  She  was  flawed  and  she  was  real—unlike  what  the  barbie-doll  reputation  that  circled  her  around  town  would  lead  most  people  to  believe.

            WHAT  IF—  Eddie  didn’t  allow  himself  to  finish  the  thought,  his  derailed  train  of  rampant  nerves  coming  to  an  unexpected  and  sudden  halt  as  soon  as  he  noticed  the  expression  on  Penny’s  face  begin  to  shift.  It  was  softer  than  anything  he’d  seen  her  wear  before—almost  shy.  It  made  his  heart  flutter  and  his  nerves  melt,  and  in  an  instant,  his  reservations  were  washed  away  in  the  tide  of  her  sweet  voice  and  the  softness  of  her  breathing.  He  knew  her.  He  knew  better.

            Despite  his  best  efforts,  Eddie  found  himself  helpless  to  stave  off  the  crooked  grin  that  graced  his  features  in  response  to  her  cheeky  commentary.  It  was  so…  PENNY. 

            ❝ Shut  up. ❞

            Eddie’s  attention  fell  down  towards  the  plush  lips  that  he’d  long  since  memorized,  his  doting  (  and  embarrassingly  desperate  )  gaze  often  tracing  their  shape  whenever  he  thought  he  could  get  away  with  it.  But  as  ring-clad  fingers  had  settled  upon  the  delicate  curve  of  the  side  of  her  neck  and  he’d  finally  leaned  in  to  capture  her  in  a  kiss,  he  was  surprised  by  how  much  the  sensation  surpassed  anything  that  he’d  been  fantasizing.  Sweeter,  softer,  warmer…  Even  the  tickle  of  her  breath  beneath  his  nose  gave  him  an  unexpected  high.

            If  time  could  stop  again,  that  would  be  great.

            After  mustering  up  the  willpower  to  pry  himself  away  from  that  first  kiss,  Eddie  found  his  face  lingering  close  to  hers,  the  goofy  grin  returning  to  grace  his  features  with  a  swell  of  pure  elation  and  genuine  excitement.  ❝ Shit… ❞  The  metalhead  began,  the  word  falling  from  his  smile  with  the  soft  roll  of  a  laugh.  ❝ —Fuck  whatever  the  sky  is  doing. ❞  He  hovered  for  only  a  moment  before  the  weight  of  his  body  gently  rolled  the  blonde  onto  her  back,  his  lips  locking  with  hers  to  capture  her  in  another  kiss.

𝐄 𝐌 𝐏 𝐓 𝐈 𝐍 𝐄 𝐒 𝐒 HAS 𝐃 𝐀 𝐑 𝐊 𝐄 𝐍 𝐄 𝐃 MY EYES.

a fandomless original character.

@eddie asked : wait, wait – are you sure about this?

penny  has  always  moved  through  time  in  a  haze ,    sharp  edges  of  the  world  softened  by  alcohol  &  sex  so  nothing  ( and  everything )  hurts .   eddie  has  brought  a  clarity  to  her  life ,     clearing  the  fog  more  &  more  with  every  fit  of  laughter  &  kiss  to  her  cheek .    it’s ….   almost  unnerving ,     the  way  he’s  managed  to  slip  past  penny’s  defenses .     she  hasn’t  made  it  easy  on  him ,     that’s  for  sure .    even  now ,    there’s  a  constant  sense  of  waiting  for  the  other  shoe  to  drop :    what  will  be  his  final  straw ?   it’ll  come  eventually .    it  always  does .

but  for  now ,   penny  is  content  with  the  bubble  they’ve  spent  the  past  few  months  in ,    untainted  by  the  harshness  of  reality  that  stains  everything  in  hawkins .    secret .    she  feels  guilty  about  it  sometimes ,    especially  when  he’s  so  understanding .    she  can  see  the  pain  in  his  eyes  every  time  she  leaves  his  trailer  in  the  middle  of  the  night ,    every  time  she  insists  they  go  on  dates  all  the  way  in  the  city  so  no  one  will  recognize  them  and  ask  questions .    questions  that  will  burst  the  bubble  they’ve  built  for  themselves .    questions  that  will  make  penny  have  to  face  the  truth :     questions  she’s  not  ready  for .    

the  second  annual  hawkins  fourth  of  july  celebration  is  in  full  swing ,     carnival  games  and  rides  lighting  up  the  fairgrounds  like  it’s  disneyworld .    people  are  milling  about  enjoying  the  festivities ,    but  penny  and  eddie  were  sitting  in  his  parked  van ,    watching  through  the  windshield  like  it  was  a  nature  documentary .    kids  playing ,    teenagers  giggling ,    people  arguing ….    and  on  dates .    when  a  couple  pauses  to  kiss  under  the  sparkling  tunnel  of  love  marquee ,   eddie  quips  about  the  cheesiness  of  it  all ,     but  beneath  his  dramatic ,    teasing  grimace ,    there’s  a  hint  of  something  penny  recognizes  as  the  same  jealousy  that  tightened  in  her  own  chest .   why  is  she  doing  this  to  him ?

‘  we  should  just  go  in  together .  ’    the  words  are  out  before  penny  has  an  opportunity  to  talk  herself  out  of  it ,     her  grip  tightening  on  eddie’s  ring - clad  hand  as  she  looks  up  at  him  with  wide ,    nervous  eyes .    ‘  it’s  fucking  stupid  to  keep  sneaking  around .    i  really  like  you .   fuck  everyone  else .   ’     despite  penny’s  terror  that  outside  pressure  could  shatter  whatever  fragile ,    beautiful  thing  has  been  built  between  them ,    she  knows  eddie  deserves  better  than  to  be  kept  a  secret .    he  deserves  better  than  penny ,   but  that’s  an  issue  for  another  time .   

⛧˖ ─── FROM THE BEGINNING, EDDIE had known that whatever he was getting himself into with Penny would undoubtedly result in heartache and some level of emotional disarray, but like most of his bad decisions, the forethought hadn’t stopped him from foolishly diving headfirst into the fray of it anyways. To his surprise though, the cause of his grief was something that he hadn’t been able to predict. It wasn’t the way that her moods would swing fickly, or her hot and cold attitude, or even her ‘material girl’ ways… but rather it was the way that he was always feeling like a dirty little secret.

            At first, coping with it hadn’t been overly difficult. A history of coping with abuse and bullying had given him some tough skin… at least outwardly. Whether his methods were healthy or not was beside the point, but just as he’d always done in the past, he’d swept up his emotions and buried them beneath a carefully woven rug that he now wore like a cloak. A mask. Armor. Every lighthearted joke that he would quip in an attempt to hide his wounds was just another fiber in the self-preserving pattern, but tonight, as he poked fun at the cheesiness of all of the couples that were kissing in the fairgrounds, it would seem that the fabric of his cover was beginning to fray. There was a crack in his armor, and Penny had finally pointed it out in a roundabout way.

            ❛ We should just go in together. ❜

            Perhaps the blonde had heard the longing in his tone, or maybe she’d seen it etched somewhere on his face? Eddie supposed that it was only a matter of time before she saw through his façade, after all, as they’d spent far too much time together to be able to hide things like that. He could hide himself from most of the world (it was easy when the town’s perception of him was already cemented in fallacies and misunderstandings), but not from Penny.

            Eddie might have spent more time wondering about how she’d figured it out if it wasn’t for the elation that was bubbling up in his chest, spilling out in a goofy grin that washed the previous dumfounded expression from his face. He’d captured her in an enthusiastic kiss, and after a brief back-and-forth, he was turning off the ignition and striding with a hop in his step over to the passenger side door to let her out. As though she were a princess (she kinda was), he offered her his hand, his torso dipping forward with the motion of a bow. ❝ Milady. ❞ Through a smile that pronounced the dimples in his cheeks, he pressed a kiss to the top of her hand. ❝ Your carpal-tunnel-or-whatever awaits. ❞

― i    etch    my    face    upon    my    wicked    flesh.    /    i    am    my    own    𝙳𝙴𝚅𝙰𝚂𝚃𝙰𝚃𝙸𝙽𝙶    𝙶𝙾𝙳.

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