This Blog Is No Longer Active
( Aug. 17, 2020)
Donβt worry, Iβm alright and will explain my reasons as to why. No, this is not due to the recent drama in the fandom (contributing a lil bit, but not causing); those issues have been tossed around since....January, was it? (Idk anymore...) Nor is it the lack of game activity. Itβs my fault.
A couple months back, I said something that hurt a friend....I mean really hurt. She needed time and space to heal....I didnβt know how long that would be, and Iβm sure as hell not proud to say that I didnβt give her that. She didnβt block me at first, I didnβt know what or if it meant anything (in hindsight, she was probably trying to be nice because thatβs the kind of person she is; a good person). I didnβt know what to do or what the parameters were, if I should ask or no... BUT THAT WASNβT ANY EXCUSE FOR MY BEHAVIOR. She was in enough pain already, she was hurting, and I donβt know if it was all because what I did or not! I really hope it was! Because at least then I know that blocking me is all it took!!! But you know what?! Tumblr will still show reblogs from blocked blogs....we have so many friends in common, I donβt want her to stress out if she sees my artwork on their blogs, and I donβt want to put our friends in an awkward position. I canβt contribute art to this blog knowing itβs going to hurt her. Letβs face it; I shouldβve left long ago. Iβll leave the blog here, thereβs too much to simply get rid of and I already left the discord servers I modded for. Itβs time for me to move on, away from here. All I ask is this: If she writes a rant calling me out on all of this, DO NOT DEFEND ME. I AM IN THE WRONG. I AM THE BAD GUY. I donβt care about loyalty or whatever other excuse anyone can pull from thin air! LISTEN TO HER. And you know what? Whi,e weβre on that note: LISTEN TO EACH OTHER!!!! If you have time and energy to argue or send hate mail, then you have time to talk through your problems; remind people how amazing they are; how beautiful their artwork is; what amazing writers they are!!!! BE KIND, FOR THE LOVE OF THE EARTH BENEATH US!!!!!
To my friends; Iβm sorry for not saying goodbye to you personally, you all deserve better...so much better. Thank you for giving me the name βBlueβ (not the fairy, but really me), thank you for always saying such beautifully kind things about my art and writing, thank you for sharing the stories about your ocs and aus with me, and thank you for helping me grow as a person through this year. Itβs ok if youβre disappointed in me...I am too....and I hope you will all be able to find happiness wherever it is life takes you. Please remember, youβre all amazing, incredibly talented people with imaginations that can rival the heavens. I love you.
Thank you for letting me be Blue!
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