daily eccentricities

every time I get close to working up the courage to tell him how I feel, my body goes into a massive flare and threatens to shut down. currently dealing with stabbing pain in at least 3 areas, loss of vision, extreme infection and inflammation markers in my blood, and the general inability to get out of bed due to intense fatigue and brain fog. It's like the universe is telling me that, hey, leave him alone, don't ruin his life with your stupid feelings, he deserves someone less broken

my favourite thing about vagueposting is that 3 different people think every single post is about them ajsjdjfjakls

are they really that stupid or are they just cruel on purpose

had a nightmare about 2 friends (that definitely do not know each other irl) dating behind my back and i made myself sad

I'm still alive just exhausted

nearly died this past weekend loll hi what's up

perspective is crazy cause sometimes I look at my feet and I'm like wow these are huge and then I try to buy shoes and my size doesn't even exist because my feet are smaller than the standard sizes at most shops which means almost everyone on earth has bigger feet than I do but they still look massive to me

am I the only idiot? did everyone else know this was a primary and not the actual mayor election? I thought he won and became mayor LOL. I mean the way he was going after Cuomo I thought the guy was Republican not from his own party lolll I don't understand American politics and it's one of the easiest ones in the world

they keep calling it a war not genocide but they're only just now starting to hide in shelters since 5 days ago? a war is both ways and if it didn't affect your life for the past 600+ days its a genocide not war

humans are meant to be solitary beings because how the fuck are you supposed to sleep with all that snoring

sharing memes to your Instagram story is an easy way to let your friends know you're still alive and didn't die from the heart episode you had two weeks ago but don't have the energy to talk to anyone or reply to their messages

remember back on Orkut we used to write each other testimonials but called them "testis" good times

honestly doctor who has been a proper mess for years. even when everyone was still obsessed a lot of things were wrong with it but like. I can't stop watching it? it's such an integral part of my life it's the only thing I've stuck with for the past 15+ years. I've made and lost friends, loved and lost, went to university, graduated, had jobs, lost jobs, nearly died a bunch of times, and yet. the only constant. they've had good characters and great characters and terrible characters and awful story lines and tone deaf story lines but I'm always just like shrug it's a tv show set in outer space who am I to expect it to be exactly what I want it to be just show me the dooweeooo I have zero expectations from the show and it brings me so much joy