Crowley gives Aziraphale an unimpressed look when the other offers what, in the angel’s eyes, is a very lame comeback. “Angel, as lovely as you can be at times, and while I just say that your scent too is quite appreciable, you are not a good bottle of a nicely aged vintage,” he deadpans, hooking his arm around the back of the bench once again. “Some things earn value the more they age. Wine. Certain kinds of cheese. Art. Wood, to an extent. Not clothing. That’s just lazy. You don’t even try to keep up with the times. But I guess is fine, isn’t it? Sloth is a sin, after all.”
If the laugh that escapes his lips after that, and after the demon’s comment about how he always spoils his Adversary, sounds a bit too smug to be angelic, he chooses not to take note of it. “That sort of is my job, isn’t it? Being nice and caring, even with a sly creature as you are. I’m a guardian after all, flaming sword or not. Watching over others and spreading happiness. And by now I know well that the way to make your heart swell brightly passes through your stomach.”
What a dangerous choice of words. At times, when he is alone, mostly with too much alcohol in his system, he wonders what kind of miracle has prevented him from Falling. Sure, he has never said that word that would have been too much, asked that question that would have switched the tides. But he is always so, so close. It isn’t fair and he knows it, even if he has selfishly never shared those thoughts with his old friend.
He almost scoffs. Upstairs they say it too, even if he fakes ignorance to the kind of things they whisper behind his back. They quietly comment on how well suited for damnation he has always been, even if apparently She disagrees. Just as Crowley, in the hidden corners of his mouth, can’t help thinking that, if he should be the demon, then Aziraphale should have never Fallen. God’s ways and Plan are ineffable, but he can’t really wrap his mind about why someone as his opponent has end up in Hell.
“And the picnic was my idea, so I want it to be good. I get my wine, you get your sweets. It’s just fair,” he adds quickly, perhaps too quickly, but he wants to leave those thoughts behind. Thankfully, the comments he is addressed next offers him the perfect distraction.
“I hope we won’t blend in too well,” he shoots back, his eyes finding the demon’s face from behind his sunglasses. Ignoring the refuelled blush is harder this time, because the warmth is starting to get a bit too bothersome. “Aziraphale, I might be more flexible…absolutely no pun intended, don’t even try it…than the rest of my kind, but that…Uh.” He is digging his own grave, isn’t he? “I’ve never fancied making an effort before and I surely won’t just for…ah, keeping appearances up.”
His lips curl in a displeased frown that he is addressing more to himself than to his Adversary. He can’t be the only one embarrassed. Especially since he got himself in those troubles.
“I’ll…smooch you, if I must, but that’s all.” He tries to shrug, but he doesn’t completely succeeds.but he doesn’t completely succeeds. “Eve thinks we’re married or something, after all. Have I ever mentioned it? And if she, as smart as she is, has that idiotic idea, I bet half of the people who sees us together does too. So, I wouldn’t shock anyone.”
He is rambling by now, and he knows it, even if he would deny if asked. He isn’t even drunk, so he has no excuses. Still, he manages to curl his mouth in a heartfelt amused grin. “Can you picture it, though? Our wedding? I guess I must have carried you all the way through the ceremony. Holy ground and demons don’t get along well.”
His expression turns a bit sour when the other insists his fashion isn’t to be APPRECIATED, even with the level of effort he puts into its maintenance. Yet, the subject quickly shifts, as does the mood. Brows quirk as Crowley begins to laugh, and the DANGER in the words that follow press his lips into a thin line. As much as they might attempt to rationalize his actions as frivolously angelic, they both knew the truth -- the only demonic heart he cared for was Aziraphale’s, and that fact could have dire consequences for the both of them...
For a moment, silence falls between the pair.
Then, Crowley explains the setting of their little rendezvous, and Aziraphale teases him, perhaps a touch EMBOLDENED by the way his adversary was being so open about the... intimacy they shared ( even if they refused to confront the future fallout of their relationship ). Of course, the other draws immediate and UNINTENDED conclusions based on his comment. Words continuously tumble passed Crowley’s lips in response, surrounded by the rosy hue of a vibrant blush. The sight tugs an amused ( if not also slightly saddened ) smile from the demon.
A secluded picnic was rather ROMANTIC on its own merit, and he hadn’t meant to imply anything beyond an air of romance between them. Yet, he quickly receives the offer of a kiss ; it would have been so achingly endearing if not for the apparent DISGUST in the curl of Crowley’s lip. Aziraphale, for as much as the other appears to cherish him, believes this is only a natural reaction to the idea. He would never be WORTHY of such affection, from the gentle brush of hands to the complete interlocking of bodies ; he’s a demon, after all -- a horrid, vile, unredeemable creature. His soul weighed heavy with GUILT without dragging the angel down to his own level, without tempting him so far over the line that he can never return.
“... Do calm yourself,” he assures. “I’ve never been one to make much of an effort either.” A good meal was enough to satisfy him. Anything more than that would be too much. “And I certainly wouldn’t ask that of you simply to blend,” he adds. The shrug he receives momentarily makes him believe the discussion will end there, but it’s almost as if Crowley cannot keep quiet for the life of him today.
Marriage was out of the question. He could sign the papers. He could recite his vows. Yet, it would require him standing before the Almighty and proclaiming his devotion -- HIS LOVE -- to one of Her most treasured angels. The sheer audacity of his actions would inspire more than a little DIVINE RETRIBUTION, he has no doubt. So, isn’t it ironic how well the idea settles in his mind? Indeed, he can picture it almost as if it were tangible, something he could grasp, a memory to hold close. He turns away from Crowley.
“Don’t be foolish,” he chides ever so softly. “... We -- We wouldn’t wed in a church.” What is he saying? “If I were to proclaim my -- ah -- my unyielding fidelity to you before God, I would much rather do it in -- say, a garden -- like where we first met, if you’ll recall. I -- ” A bitter sigh that sounds almost like a laugh. “I might at least be afforded the right to stand on my own two feet before I’m struck down for my insolence.” He means for his response to exude confidence and rebellion, but it it so EARNEST that it would be hard not to take him seriously.
“Not that I would be ungrateful for your sweeping me off of my feet -- quite literally, in -- in this case. I simply believe there are -- you know -- better venues for the occasion.” Is he the one rambling now? “Th -- Theoretically speaking, of course.”