i rake a hand through my hair , still catching the lingering scent of her on my skin. the way she left — this whole ‘ i’m done ’ routine — amuses me more than anything else. reminds me of back home , when i’d watch green recruits try to talk tough in the face of real danger. but nia jax ? she’s no amateur. she’s fire wrapped in silk , and i’m not fool enough to underestimate her. still , she thinks she can walk away like she calls all the shots.
“ qué gracioso ... ” i mutter under my breath , the ghost of a smile creeping up on me. “ always the one giving orders , huh ? ” my voice is low , carrying that rumble i usually save for backroom deals and boardroom threats.
i stand , stretching out the stiffness in my shoulders. “ and you say this is the last time ? ” i say it to the empty space she’s left behind , letting my words resonate. “ mujer , you know better than that. you smell like me … i taste like you … that doesn’t just wash away in one shower. ”
for a second , i picture her in that robe , the steam curling around her. she said , “ don’t follow me if you know what’s good for you. ” it makes me laugh — soft , dangerous. most people would take the warning and run , but i’ve never been one to play it safe. if i had , i wouldn’t be standing here , occupying a little empire of my own.
i grab a half-finished cigarette from the nightstand , lighting it with a flick of my silver lighter. the glow briefly illuminates my face in the mirror , revealing a smirk that’s half satisfaction , half calculation.
“ no , no … i’m not that generous. see , you say you’re done — ‘ the last time, ’ all that nonsense — but we both know you’re lying through those luscious lips. all that tough talk … it’s just foreplay for you , isn’t it ? ” my voice lowers to a near growl. “ and believe me , i appreciate the show. ”
i take another drag , then stub the cigarette out in a crystal ashtray. but we both know how this ends. stepping closer to the bathroom door , i rest my hand against it , feeling the faint vibration of the water on the other side. “ go on , @beltalks. rinse me off all you want. every time you draw that line in the sand , you’re inviting me to cross it. ”