allegory of your mom

With how busy I am atm I know I'm not gonna finish this unfortunately. (I also attempted a more painterly style, my art is all over the place atm) 😔

Eli is kind of the funniest guy in the world because imagine killing someone, missing them so much that you genuinely develop psychosis to the point of hallucinating and talking to the hallucination, fully convinced it’s a ghost haunting you, when in reality it’s just your own distorted, cruel mind playing tricks on you, and then discovering that the person is alive and continuing to talk to the "ghost" anyway (might as well). And after that proceed to try to kill the bastard again, as if the second time is going to be the charm. As if repetition is going to turn violence into closure. As if you hadn’t already described feeling neither peace nor calm the first time nothing you wanted, nothing you expected to gain from it. No relief. No satisfaction. Just the same hollow aftermath.