Autre

Your best friend will tell you that there are plenty of fish in the sea, and you will not be able to tell her that all you can think of is that your colleague smells like him, and that your teacher has the same scar on her forehead as he does

“…So the next day I realized that falling for you was the biggest mistake i’ve ever done. But in a way my favorite one. You’re my favorite mistake. Baby, you are my favorite sin.”

“Do you get butterflies when you smell my perfume in a crowded place?”

you said i had some trust issues and i bet you were right but we never thought that would turn all the bright nights to fights i was sure you loved me but i can’t remember how it felt like i was an angel, an angel flying in your starless night i bet that was all you’re asking for but im sorry im an angel who’s never polite i know i fucked things up too many times and you were tired of all the bruises i left on your heart i did love you and i bet you’re surprised i was never soft when you needed me in your harsh nights i was never calm when you call and we fight i was never fine that’s why i always walk with knifes in my both hands.

I went to all of the places that we planed to go, watched all of the movies we wanted to watch, and broke every promise I made to you. I ran to my worst fear, hoping to forget that I got used to hearing your voice whenever I’m under my bed sheets crying. I threw away every feeling I had for you and I answered every goddamn question I didn’t have an answer for. Sleeping was an escape for me, but how can I fall asleep when everytime I go to bed I hear your voice wishing me a goodnight sleep. How can I sleep when whenever I close my eyes I see you flying away from me, leaving me behind without an explanation. No, you don’t have to apologize for leaving me behind and never looking back, for letting me go and for shattering me to pieces. you don’t have to apologize for breaking your promises, like I didn’t know from the very start that you were nothing but a pathetic liar. but why didn’t you leave when I wanted you to, why did I meet you when I was enjoying my loneliness. Now I feel nothing but disgusted of the idea of having you back, pushing you away never worked out, you were too busy trying to convince me about how much of a good person you are, but my angel, we both know that you are not.

I just want to hold on to someone, I just want to feel something.