searching for my little piece of beautiful

Are there any/many AuDHD drug users out there? Would love a chat to discuss the effects and if you think they affect you differently? or if there are any in particular that really help/didnt help? I've had a lot of different experiences with drugs and experimented a lot and I'm curious to see if anyone else has any comparable experiences to me, or if they were 'just me'. There doesn't seems to be a lot of specific information out there about drug use and there's even less professionals willing to talk about or study it.

everything feels so much different with an actual normal and healthy amount of dopamine.

Well, the systems are all fucked, has anyone else ever noticed that? like how ALL the systems are fucked? like.... allllllll of the systems. Have you ever trrrriiiied to access a system? like reallyyyy tried. they're fucked man. what's up with that.

I really should do a self imposed tumblr ban until i can remember how to be normal and remember social skills. sorrry. at least i know theres IS something wrong with me. and im getting help.