slow activity.

that is all I will say on the matter for now. if you want to talk, I am open to discussion. come to my ask off anon or my ims for a private conversation.

those are only a few things I've heard being spread about me. trying to make someone else look guilty does not make anyone else innocent

this is so much to deal with at 1am, and yet I'm the only one who seems to want to genuinely have a conversation

why are people trying to dig into my old blogs? why are you trying to find things to use against me and lie about? tell me why I was the one who acknowledged someone's behaviour wasn't okay, and now I'm being villanized for speaking up. I never said anyone can't write minors, no one said you can't ship eighteen year olds if that's what you want. all i have wanted was for people to be appropriate. posting things about me and backtracking because there is no proof is childish. trying to find anything about me to use against me is abhorrent. you are showing your true colours.

and also, don't tell me to apologise when the majority of that posts likes and traction come from people defending them. there is no power imbalance from my side, I have no leeway in this community. don't act like I have ruined anything for them when they all continue to go on as normal

I'd like to preface by saying I've made up no lies about anyone, the screenshots are all there. minor, eighteen. that was not the point. writing explicit material about high schoolers was. writing explicit material about eighteen year olds, as a group of fully grown adults was. if anything, I have seen more lies and speculation shared about me without ANY proof and people trying to shift the narrative than I have seen any accountability held. in fact, the joke that many people have made about this situation is absolutely disgusting. I am not going to apologise. "the block button exists" i blocked them, yet they were still making multiple people uncomfortable and no one wanted to speak up. if they want to discuss it and why I felt the need to make that post, I'm open to it. but don't tell me I am the one that needs to apologise.

anyway, I just want to express my love for all of you still here. I cherish you all so much

if you come into my inbox, I will have a conversation with you privately. we can discuss it. a lot of my words have been taken out of context, I have been accused of being a hypocrite and p*dophile (and throwing the word around, which I have never done as I do not like that word to be used lightly and it never should be) and if I have done anything to imply that I am either, I would like to know and I could rectify it.

for clarification, I've not once said you can't ship 18 year olds. I would like to know where I did though

if sexualising minors / 18 year olds is making actual eighteen year olds uncomfortable, you have no right as an adult to defend someone twice their age. it says a lot about you

now I'm getting blocked by half the stranger things fandom, have a good night x