by Madhavi Devi

I couldn't find the lyrics to this song online so I'm transcribing them here. Expect errors.

Cry me a river, build me a bridge

Take your sorry body and get over it

Call me a stranger, cuz I don't wanna be your friend

I've got the gates locked, swallowed the key

Keep the bones in your closet far away from me

You break bitches hearts and you're too fucked up to act sorry

I hope you take all the blame for the walls that she's built

I hope you stop reaching out, though I know that you will

She's the carpenter, tried to fix you

She only wrecked the home cuz you dared her to

And there's only so much to forgive when I hate you for what you did

Drag me through the mud, hold me for the weekend

Lose what you love just so you can keep him

Lie to my face cuz you don't want my opinion

So here's to the silence,a` I'll keep to myself

I'll go to her house, why don't you go to hell

There's nothing to save here when you're too far gone for help

I hope you take all the blame for the walls that she's built

I hope you stop reaching out, though I know that you will

She's the carpenter, tried to fix you

She only wrecked the home cuz you dared her to

And there's only so much to forgive when I hate you for what you did

And I know I said you'll hurt a lot of people in life

And I know I said you owe it to yourself to treat yourself right

but when was it at the expense of the ones who loved you the most?

When was it at the expense of letting your best friends go?

I hope you take all the blame for the walls that she's built

I hope you stop reaching out, though I know that you will

She's the carpenter, tried to fix you

She only wrecked the home cuz you dared her to

And there's only so much to forgive when I hate you for what you did

There's only so much to forgive when I hate you for what you did

We are feeling very hopeless and do not like our options

How do we inform the public about our choices and come up with a collective game plan?

How do we make it digestible for these bisexual AuADHD theybies with stummy issues?

How do we make content that can transcend the hellscape that is the internet?

Does anyone even care? Are we that deep into nihilism?

I need to narrow down what I want, and what I don't.

I do want you as a friend.

I don't miss your romantic love, I don't miss your breath on my face, I don't miss your touch.

I do miss the intimacy we had, I miss your laugh, I miss the comfort you brought me.

I miss my best friend.

I'm longing for break up purgatory -

Let me explain.

Wouldn't it be great if there was a period of time between ending things and beginning new things? Time for us to process

and heal and explore and reflect and compare.

We should have space, I don't deny that, but

What about the conversations we could never have before or after?

Shouldn't we have time for that? Before all those feelings are buried?

Before you give all your secrets to your new lover?

I didn't even have a chance to digest and you're digging in again.

(in the age of social media) is so fucking weird.

I got enough to deal with but now I gotta extremely conspicuously change all my profile pictures? Everyone knows what's up. And I don't even have any recent solo pictures so I have to do the embarrassing thing of *posting selfies*. So Try-hard. Put a bullet in my brain. I feel like I'm a zoo animal being returned to my habitat after a tragic accident. Everyone gathers around to pity me, or encourage me in the most cringe way, or just observe to feed their curiosity.

Do I add some Taylor Swift lyrics or is that 2000 and late? Do I caption with a cheeky emoji? Do I throw out the trite "New Year, New Me"?