Theres a saying: you meet people who are in a similar state of mind as yourself; sometimes they are in it for the long run, and sometimes they are just here as a test to see if you are ready for the next thing.
I feel like i have always been very lucky in terms of meeting so many different personalities, likely because I am aware i was always undergoing some kind of metamorphosis. But sometimes, because I am always undergoing this transitory space, it feels as if I am trapped in liminality; and so it becomes this notion of wanting to break free by purging through events. And the last thing i did in order to feel free from a depressing love life was i took a leap of faith and ran with it with this kid whom I met out of nowhere.
Recently, what has been on my mind is you again, a figure that i have completedly idealized and preserved in the icy part of my brain. I have been fighting to suppress our memories because one i get sad thinking about it and two, because im with someone else.
It's quite scary to think that I can still be thinking about you when supposedly I am in a happy relationship. well -- was in... The first thought I had after breaking up with him was to call you immediately for some kind of comfort. It bizzzard that I have been holding on to you this whole time.
The thing is, what if you do meet people who are in the same emotional state as you ? And what if he was also in love with someone else this whole time, hoping I could replace her presence in due time.
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