Diary of Bliss

“At the end of this day there remains what was left behind of yesterday and what will be left behind of tomorrow: the insatiable, innumerable longing to be always the same and always other.”

If there’s one thing I know about our love, it is that I may not always know what is on your mind, but I know that it matters. If there’s one thing I know about our love, it is that I know you are not perfect and neither am I, I know you’re scared, you’re terrified and so am I. But I want you to know that if there’s someone I want by my side when I’m scared, it’s you.

If there is one thing I know about our love, it is that I know you don’t want me to just read your words, but you need me to understand the place where they come from. I know, that if there is one thing you want me to know, it is to see the ache you write them from.

If there’s one thing I know about our love, it is that I know you want me to stay up all night with you counting the stars. I know you want me to hold your hand and stand beside you as you count each one. But I won’t. I will instead wrap my arms around your chest and hug you from behind and giggle into your shoulders while you count each star and whisper to you how happy you make me. If there’s one thing I know about our love, it is that I know you want me to name every star in the sky after you.

If there’s one thing I know about our love, it is that if you ever make a mistake, you never have to ask me for forgiveness, and I you, because I love you. I want you to know that when you’re afraid of failing, I want to pull your head into my lap and close your eyes and hold you close and whisper to you a thousand times how much I love you for who you are. If there’s one thing I know about our love, it is that when you are hurting, even though I won’t say it, my heart will break for you. I want you to know that even when you are at your worst, you will be the only person I ever want to be with, I will never stop falling in love with you.

If there’s one thing I know about our love, it is that when you feel lost, I won’t try to find you. I will let you be. But I will stand beside you, and love you as you grow into the man you want to be.