Faery Queen Llewellyn Emrys

taken from the 2023 album by noah kahan. trigger warnings for mental illness, trauma, medication, references to suicide, and the exquisite agony of life in rural new england. feel free to change wording and pronouns and provide context as necessary. do not add to this list.

northern attitude.

how you been? 

you settled down?

you feelin’ right? 

you feelin’ proud?

you settle in to routine.

what does it mean? 

i’m not how you hoped.

you’re gettin’ lost.

scared to live, scared to die. 

you’re feelin’ lost.

stick season.

you must’ve had yourself a change of heart.

now i am stuck between my anger and the blame that i can’t face.

it’s half my fault, but i just like to play the victim. 

i’ll dream each night of some version of you that i might not have but i did not lose. 

i thought that if i piled something good on all my bad i could cancel out the darkness i inherited from dad. 

i miss the way you laugh.

you once called me forever now you still can’t call me back.

that’ll have to do.

my other half was you.

i hope this pain’s just passin’ through, but i doubt it. 

all my love.

how have things been?

well, love, now that you mention it.

i’m sayin’ too much, but you know how it gets out here.

now i know your name, but not who you are.

it’s all okay, there ain’t a drop of bad blood.

you got all my love.

if you need me, dear, i’m the same as i was.

what i’d give to have you out of me.

i still recall how the leather in your car feels.

and at the end of it all, i just hope that your scars heal.

i swear i was scared to death.

i smiled stupid the whole way home.

you said, ‘i’ll never let you go.’

she calls me back.

there was heaven in your eyes. 

everything’s alright.

look at me and don’t you lie.

don’t you hold your head up high.

for bullshit, i do not have time.

do you lie awake restless?

why am i so obsessive?

this town’s the same as you left it.

the radio is taunting me.

i don’t get much sleep most nights.

i’m seeing you in every dream.

if only i could fall asleep. 

i’ll love you when the oceans dry. 

i was too afraid of living life in your footsteps.

come over.

it was there when we got here, will be there when we leave.

you won’t have to guess who they’re speakin’ about.

i’m in the process of clearin’ out cobwebs. 

i was takin’ the wrong meds; feels good to be sad.

my house is just barely big enough for my family.

my mouth was designed for my foot to fit in it.

i promise you, darlin’.

you won’t ever go back.

i know that it ain’t much.

i know that it ain’t cool.

you don’t have to tell the other kids at school.

someday i’m gonna be somebody people want.

new perspective.

makin’ me nostalgic.

we were kids; but that don’t make this less hard.

if i could fly i doubt i’d even do it. 

i’d probably get high and crash or somethin’ stupid.

gave me your word.

i can’t pronounce it.

no thing so sure that i can’t learn to doubt it.

everywhere, everything.

would we survive in a horror movie?

we trust everyone we meet.

we’re littered with scars from our preteens.

i wanna love you ‘til we’re food for the worms to eat.

‘til our fingers decompose, keep my hand in yours. 

i know every route in this county.

maybe that ain’t such a bad thing.

i’ll tell you where not to speed.

it’s been a long year.

orange juice.

honey, come over.

it’s yours if you want it.

we’re just glad you could visit. 

feels like i’ve been ready for you to come home for so long.

i didn’t think to ask you where you’d gone. 

why’d you go?

my heart has changed and my soul has changed.

you just asked me to hold you.

it made you a stranger and it filled you with anger.

my life has changed.

the world has changed.

don’t you find it strange that you just went ahead and carried on?

are we all just pullin’ you down?

strawberry wine.

darling, speak to me.

don’t you say a word.

you thought you were cursed?

i’m in love with every song you’ve ever heard.

if i could lose you, i would.

all the time we used to have.

the things i miss but know are never coming back. 

no thing defines a man like love that makes him soft.

growing sideways.

finally found some middle ground.

i said, ‘i’m cured.’

i divvied up my anger into thirty separate parts.

i’m still angry at my parents for what their parents did to them.

it’s a start.

but i ignore things and i move sideways ‘til i forget what i felt in the first place.

i know there are worse ways to stay alive.

everyone’s growing and everyone’s healthy.

if my engine works perfect on empty, i guess i’ll drive. 

i forgot my medication, fell into a manic high.

now i’m sufferin’ in style.

why is pain so damn impatient? ain’t like it’s got a place to be.

if all my time was wasted, i don’t mind. 

i’ll watch it go.

it’s better to die numb than feel it all.

halloween.

the dawn isn’t here, the sun hasn’t rose.

they got money to make and children back home.

i worry for you, you worry for me.

the bridges have long since been burnt. 

i’m leavin’ this town and i’m changin’ my address.

i know that you’ll come if you want.

i’m losin’ myself.

i’m seein’ my life on a screen.

i know that you fear that i’m wicked and weary.

i know that you’re fearin’ the end. 

i only tell the truth when i’m sure that i’m lyin’. 

homesick.

are you bored yet?

the weather ain’t been bad if you’re into masochistic bullshit.

this place is such great motivation for anyone tryna move the fuck away from hibernation. 

time moves so damn slow i swear i feel my organs failing.

i stopped caring ‘bout a month ago, since then it’s been smooth sailing. 

i would leave if only i could find a reason. 

i got dreams, but i cant make myself believe them. 

i’ll spend the rest of my life with what could have been. 

i will die in the house that i grew up in.

i’m homesick. 

still.

i don’t wanna say goodbye.

it only falls into place when you’re fallin’ to pieces.

you miss something that you can’t place but you can’t deny it. 

you can’t stay here.

it’s hard to face and it feels too ugly.

it’s like i’m still here with you. 

can i fix what is broken?

the view between villages (extended). 

for a minute, the world seems so simple.

i am not scared of death.

i’ve got dreams again.

there is meanin’ on earth. 

i feel so far from it.

it’s all washin’ over me. 

i’m angry again. 

the things that i lost here, the people i knew.

they got me surrounded for a mile or two. 

i found a town big enough for anything i want.

i’m not a city girl, by any means.

it still has a lot of meaning to me.

i grew up there. 

your needs, my needs.

you ain’t gotta tell me what it means.

i promise to be there this time. alright? 

you were a work of art.

that’s the hardest part.

i’m naming the stars in the sky after you.

dial drunk.

i promised to forget you.

i ain’t takin’ any fault.

am i half the man i used to be? i doubt it.

forget about it, whatever.

it’s all the same anyways.

i ain’t proud of all the punches that i’ve thrown. 

for the shame of being young, drunk, and alone.

i gave your name as my emergency phone call.

i’d die for you.

from charmin’ to alarmin’ in seconds.

i’ll let the pain metastasize.

i beg you, sir, just let me call.

let’s wait, i swear she’ll call me back.

son, are you a danger to yourself?

fuck that, sir.

son, why do you do this to yourself?

paul revere.

this place had a heartbeat in its day.

nothin’ was the same.

it just ain’t that simple, it never was.

one day i’m gonna cut it clear.

i’m not from around here.

i’ll leave before the road crew’s out. 

i’ll turn up the music and i’ll forget.

i’m not ready to let go yet.

i’ll just pretend i didn’t hear.

it’s typical, i fear.

folks just disappear.

if i could leave, i would’ve already left.

no complaints.

i thought i had something and that’s the same as having something.

i get mad at nothing.

i pull no punches, then feel bad for months.

thought i was raised better, tried to fake better.

now the weight of the world ain’t so bad.

i saw the end, it looks just like the middle.

i filled the hole in my head with prescription medication.

who am i to complain?

now the pain’s different. It still exists, it just escapes different.

yes, i’m young and living dreams.

i’m in love with being noticed and afraid of being seen.

call your mom.

oh, you’re spiralin’ again.

don’t you cancel any plans.

stayed on the line with you the entire night ‘til you let it out and let it in.

don’t let this darkness fool you.

i’ll drive all night.

i’ll call your mom.

oh, dear, don’t be discouraged.

i’ve been exactly where you are.

if you could see yourself like this.

you’dve never tried it.

stayed on the line with you the entire night ‘til you told me that you had to go.

throw a punch, fall in love, give yourself a reason.

don’t wanna drive another mile wonderin’ if you’re breathin’.

won’t you stay with me?

you’re gonna go far. 

this is good land, or at least it was.

it takes a strong hand and a sound mind.

it makes me smile to know when things get hard, you’ll be far from here.

pack up your car.

put a hand to your heart.

say whatever you feel.

be wherever you are.

we ain’t angry at you, love. 

you’re the greatest thing we’ve lost.

the birds will still sing.

we’ll be waiting for you, love.

we’ll all be here forever.

we spent so long just getting by.

that’s the thing about survival; who the hell likes livin’ just to die?

you told me you would make a difference.

it won’t be by your own volition if you step foot outside this town.

it’s all we’ve had for always.

you’re gonna go far.

if you wanna go far, then you gotta go far.

forever.

let’s drive for no reason.

you look fine in the evening.

honey, it’s starting to storm.

used to wish i meant anything to anywhere, to anyone.

i’m glad i get forever to see where you end.

i won’t be alone for the rest of my life.

i’ll meet a girl in the heat of july.

i’ll tell her so she knows.

i’m broke, but i’m real rich in my head.

sentence starters based on lyrics from various songs by   elton john.   some lyrics have been modified to be more usable .  change gendered language   &   add context to your needs .   happy roleplaying !!  ♡

❛  why did you have to leave me?  ❜ ❛  how could you do this to me?  ❜ ❛  i trusted you!  ❜ ❛  i'm sorry, but i can't do this anymore.  ❜ ❛  do you even care how much you hurt me?  ❜ ❛  i'll never stop fighting for us, no matter what.  ❜ ❛  i don't know if i can forgive you.  ❜ ❛  i never thought i'd feel so alone, even when you're right here.  ❜ ❛  please don't go, i can't handle losing you too.  ❜ ❛  you were the one person i thought i could always count on. why did you have to let me down?  ❜ ❛  did you ever even care about us? about me?  ❜ ❛  i wish i could hate you for what you've done, but i can't.  ❜ ❛  why do you always have to play games with my feelings?  ❜ ❛  i never thought saying goodbye would hurt this much.  ❜ ❛  every time i close my eyes, all i see is the pain you've caused.  ❜ ❛  why do you insist on tearing us apart when we could be so happy together?  ❜ ❛  i'm tired of pretending everything's okay when it's clearly not.  ❜ ❛  i don't even know who you are anymore.  ❜ ❛  i need you to understand how much you mean to me.  ❜ ❛  i'm scared of losing you, but i'm even more scared of losing myself.  ❜ ❛  why won't you let me in? what are you so afraid of?  ❜ ❛  you were my world, and now everything is falling apart.  ❜ ❛  how am i supposed to trust anyone after what you've done?  ❜ ❛  i can't go through this heartache again.  ❜ ❛  why did you leave without saying goodbye?  ❜ ❛  how could you say something like that to me?  ❜ ❛  you've always had a way of making me feel worthless.  ❜ ❛  don't you dare walk away from me when i'm talking to you.  ❜ ❛  please, just tell me the truth, even if it hurts. i can handle it.  ❜ ❛  i don't know how to fix what's broken between us anymore.  ❜ ❛  you're not the person i fell in love with anymore.  ❜ ❛  just hold me and tell me everything will be okay, even if it's a lie.  ❜ ❛  i trusted you, and you betrayed me.  ❜ ❛  i never meant to hurt you, it was never my intention.  ❜ ❛  i've given you everything, and it's still not enough.  ❜ ❛  why do you always have to make everything about you?  ❜ ❛  why did you do it? why did you betray me like that?  ❜ ❛  i miss you ... more than words can say.  ❜ ❛  you're the best thing that ever happened to me, and i'm scared of losing you.  ❜ ❛  i'll always be here for you, no matter what. just please don't shut me out.  ❜

for the romantic in all of us. all are lyrics and sourced from the linked songs. feel free to change wording and pronouns and provide context as necessary. do not add to this list.

MOON RIVER.

“you heart breaker.”

“wherever you’re going, i’m going your way.”

“there’s such a lot of world to see.”

PUT YOUR HEAD ON MY SHOULDER.

“hold me in your arms.”

“won’t you kiss me once?”

“maybe you and i will fall in love.”

“if there’s a way, i’ll find it someday.”

“tell me that you love me too.”

HEY THERE.

“hey there, you with the stars in your eyes.”

“won’t you take this advice?”

“are you too much in love to hear?”

(I’LL BE WITH YOU) IN APPLE BLOSSOM TIME.

“i’ll be with you.”

“then what will you do?”

“you will be mine.”

I ONLY HAVE EYES FOR YOU.

“i can’t see anyone but you.”

“are the stars out tonight?”

“i only have eyes for you.”

I DON’T WANT TO SET THE WORLD ON FIRE.

“in my heart i have but one desire, and that one is you. no other will do.”

“i just want to be the one you love.”

“i love you too much.”

FLY ME TO THE MOON.

“in other words, hold my hand.”

“fill my heart with song.”

“you are all i long for, all i worship and adore.”

A TEENAGER IN LOVE.

“it almost breaks my heart.”

“each night i ask the stars up above.”

“i’ll still go on loving you.”

BEYOND THE SEA.

“if i could fly like birds on high, then straight to his/her/their/your arms i’d go sailing.”

“i know beyond a doubt my heart will lead me there soon.”

dialogue.

the fabric of the universe wraps around us.

i am yours. even in this waiting, i am yours.

in every universe, i want it to be you and me.

i hunger for your taste, your smell, the feel of your soul touching mine.

i know no end to desiring you.

are you really mine? were you created for me?

everything leads me back to you.

the heart knows when the search for love is over.

i'm prepared to be devastated by you.

the sky is full of stars, yet i seek the twinkle in your eyes.

even if fate unraveled our destinies, i would find my way back to you.

i was never meant to love so casually. i was meant to be consumed by you, undoubtedly obsessed with you.

concepts.

red string theory - our muses discover they are soulmates. no matter how many degrees of separation between them or how often they just missed one another, the moment they meet, they just know.

body worship - our muses are undeniably infatuated with one another and spend the afternoon entangled, extremely loving and caring in bed.

✦ 𝐅𝐈𝐑𝐒𝐓 𝐈𝐌𝐏𝐑𝐄𝐒𝐒𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐒 / 𝐂𝐄𝐑𝐄𝐌𝐎𝐍𝐘

• We meet at last. I confess, the rumors did not prepare me for the reality.   • The contracts bear both our seals. We are bound now, in the eyes of gods and men.   • I would ask that you refrain from such familiarity. This union may be lawful, but it is not affectionate.  

✦ 𝐃𝐈𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐄 / 𝐔𝐍𝐑𝐄𝐓𝐔𝐑𝐍𝐄𝐃 𝐆𝐀𝐙𝐄𝐒

• You did not meet my eyes once during the ceremony. Not once.   • I am not unaware that your heart belongs to another. I have eyes.   • You may take whichever chambers suit you. Save mine.  

✦ 𝐃𝐔𝐓𝐘 / 𝐄𝐗𝐏𝐄𝐂𝐓𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍

• The council anticipates an heir before year's end. We must discuss the practicalities of such an expectation.   • In public, I would appreciate the courtesy of civility, at minimum.   • I did not desire this match any more than you did. Let us not pretend otherwise.  

✦ 𝐏𝐎𝐋𝐈𝐓𝐈𝐂𝐒 / 𝐏𝐄𝐑𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐌𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐄

• Your realm secures our wealth. Mine ensures your protection. We both inherit disappointment.   • The court is watching. Kindly smile as though my presence does not revolt you.   • I could hear you in your chambers throughout the night. The walls are thinner than one might hope.  

✦ 𝐑𝐄𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐌𝐄𝐍𝐓 / 𝐀𝐋𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐄𝐃 𝐅𝐀𝐓𝐄𝐒

• If the ring offends you so deeply, you need not wear it.   • I was to wed your elder sibling. Until fate intervened and the alliance fell into our hands instead.   • Take my arm, if you would. We are expected to present a united aspect.  

✦ 𝐏𝐑𝐈𝐃𝐄 / 𝐐𝐔𝐈𝐄𝐓 𝐇𝐔𝐌𝐈𝐋𝐈𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐒

• I fulfilled my duty to my house. I shall not apologize for that.   • You withdrew when I extended my hand. The servants took note.   • We are not adversaries by choice. Our families made us so. We are merely the consequence.  

✦ 𝐍𝐎 𝐄𝐒𝐂𝐀𝐏𝐄 / 𝐁𝐈𝐍𝐃𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐌𝐒

• An annulment would ignite war across three kingdoms. We are bound to one another, like it or not.   • I discovered your correspondence with your former beloved. Hidden in your writing desk.   • I do not ask for affection. I do not even ask for friendship. But mutual respect would suffice.  

✦ 𝐒𝐄𝐏𝐀𝐑𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍 / 𝐒𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐈𝐍

• We maintain separate chambers for excellent reason. I suggest you retire to yours.   • The alliance grows more tenuous by the day. Without issue, the treaty collapses entirely. • You have taken wine again. To excess. The foreign dignitaries are beginning to whisper.  

✦ 𝐁𝐈𝐓𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐓𝐑𝐔𝐓𝐇𝐒

• This was not my choosing, any more than it was yours.   • I would thank you to cease referring to me as your "treaty obligation" when at court.   • Your house slaughtered mine in the last campaign. Now I am meant to bear your name?  

✦ 𝐒𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐍𝐆𝐄𝐑𝐒 𝐈𝐍 𝐌𝐀𝐑𝐑𝐈𝐀𝐆𝐄

• We have been wed nigh on three months. I still know nothing of you.   • A letter arrived today. From the one I was to marry before you. Inquiring after my happiness.   • The physicians grow suspicious as to why I have not yet summoned them. Why has there been no... consummation.  

✦ 𝐏𝐔𝐁𝐋𝐈𝐂 𝐃𝐈𝐒𝐏𝐋𝐀𝐘 / 𝐏𝐑𝐈𝐕𝐀𝐓𝐄 𝐁𝐄𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐘𝐀𝐋

• You need not love me. But you must dance with me. It is our wedding celebration.   • I witnessed how you regarded them this evening. You make no effort at discretion anymore.   • This arrangement serves every interest save those of the two souls who spoke the vows.  

✦ 𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐌𝐒 𝐎𝐅 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐀𝐋𝐋𝐈𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐄

• Your kingdom required a consort. Mine required access to your ports. Thus, we arrive at this.   • Had I been granted choice in the matter, I would have chosen otherwise.   • The marriage bed serves as political theater. Let us discharge our duty and be done with it.  

✦ 𝐃𝐈𝐒𝐑𝐄𝐒𝐏𝐄𝐂𝐓 / 𝐇𝐔𝐌𝐈𝐋𝐈𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍

• You carry the scent of another's perfume. Have the decency to bathe before appearing at table.   • I do not ask for your love. I ask that you cease making a fool of me before the entire court.   • Your father threatened invasion. This marriage was offered as terms of peace.  

✦ 𝐌𝐀𝐈𝐍𝐓𝐀𝐈𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐈𝐋𝐋𝐔𝐒𝐈𝐎𝐍

• We must sit in proximity. Touch hands. Convince them this alliance holds firm.   • I came upon your private writings. You described wedding me as akin to attending your own execution.   • The treaty contains a consummation clause. We cannot defer this indefinitely.  

✦ 𝐏𝐎𝐖𝐄𝐑 𝐖𝐈𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐔𝐓 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄

• You bestowed upon me a crown and a title. Everything save the one thing that cannot be commanded.   • I am with child. Do not feign such shock—we both knew this was a possibility.   • I find this as unbearable as you do. The difference is that I am attempting to honor it.  

✦  𝐏𝐑𝐄𝐒𝐒𝐔𝐑𝐄 / 𝐅𝐑𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐔𝐑𝐄

taken from the 2022 revival of the 2005 discovery channel series. shenanigans and chaos ensue. feel free to change wording and pronouns and provide context as necessary. do not add to this list.    

You know what? I take it back. I do like to complain.

No. We come back tonight and kill them.

I’m kidding, of course. I almost never kill anyone.

You just wanna do it? Right now?

It’s all coming together… sort of. 

It’s all in a day’s work.

And that, my friend(s), does not suck. This, on the other hand…

You’re not nervous, are you, ___?

I’m not… Sure I’m nervous. Sure. Sure.

See, I’m doing something!

It’s like the sound of doom.

That really is ominous, man.

It’s not natural, is it?

Yes. This goes against the laws of God and man. 

I’d feel better without that iron bar up my ass, honestly.

Sounds simple, right? It’s not.

If it sounds difficult and complicated, it’s only because it is.

And by a lot easier, I mean, not easy at all.

Precision is the order of the day.

By no pressure… there’s a lot of pressure.

Can’t hear shit.

I’ve not been here, no.

I’m absolutely falling apart.

You know, I… I just… I wouldn’t say no.

She/he/they’ll tell you if she/he/they like you. Or if they don’t.

Why would it blow up?

Until you’re suddenly goin’ up like flashpaper.

And the odds of this exploding are very low?

But it could still happen?

Me and you, you and me. The two of us together. In the pit.

This is gonna be great, ___.

Boy, that just got weird, huh?

A lot of the time I say I got it, ___, but I don’t. 

I’m still not ready to talk about that, man.

I’ve hit my head lots of times over the years.

I didn’t expect that one there.

Nobody expects the Spanish Inquisition.

That’s beyond redemption.

See, you’re having those negative thoughts again.

Time now to reenter the pit, a place that’s now starting to feel like home.

There’s a futility to this, I gotta tell you.

I can make it better, but I can’t make it good.

It really is just a toxic bouillabaisse of human disappointment. 

You get something done, I’ll talk to the turkey.

Now you know what I know. 

I’ll always make something up for you.

You look like a rotisserie chicken right now.

You should write travel brochures.

I don’t have a lot of dignity left.

Where do you go from… from this?

I’d probably work at Starbucks or something.

Like they’re fooling anybody.

I know what you’re doing, Bobby Flay. Liar.

Look at me, walking like I know where I’m going.

Oh, I’m scandalized.

I’ve never seen that. Impressive!

Always looking to try something new.

Bringing literally minutes of experience to the task at hand.

I don’t know if I would hire you, but you didn’t break anything, so we’re good.

This is where shit starts to get real for real.

My sneakers are Velcro.

Maybe there’s a reason for that.

We call it the hibbity-flibbity.

If you don’t mind, we’re gonna shoot the whole show here on my iPhone.

If you took a little of the shock and awe out of your voice, it’d sound more like a compliment.

Hakuna Matata smells like ass.

So that you look at me and don’t immediately associate me with a cold blooded, heartless killer.