doubts & pixie dust

Like seriously, any angsty twink is just Dan Howell.

I have so many thoughts about this little atypical piece of the internet created by @thelaurenshippen that found me over 10 years after its creation.

I feel like a regressed to 20 year old me, desperately trying to find her space in the world. Art student surrounded by queer people and yet feeling so apart from everyone because romantic relationships were so unimportant to me.

Feeling weird, feeling stuck, feeling apart.

Caleb reminded me that big emotions can take up space, and when you find what keeps you ‘green’ you should hold on to it.

Adam reminded me that you don’t need to be special to be special. Everyone is their own little gorgeous tableau and that’s enough.

Sam reminded me that overthinking is a super power, even when it feels like your brain might break sometimes, that’s what makes you you.

Chloé and Joan reminded me that you can find love and family in so many ways and there is not right or wrong way.

Mark reminded me that you can be lost many, many, many times and that’s okay.

Damien reminded me that self worth can make or break you but you are not defined by other people. You carve your path. You choose what to do with your power.

The Bright Sessions reminded me that therapy is more valuable than we think, just talking to someone can make you feel seen.

The AM Archives reminded me that isolation can be deadly and people are here for you.

The College Tapes reminded me that my chosen family is just (if not more) as important as my actual family. Everyone is different and it’s like a gorgeous crazy atypical puzzle that all fits together.

We need more media like this, where connection is at the center but it takes so many shapes and sizes. Where Queer & atypical people find each other, because they always do.

I will miss my friends but I am so grateful I got to meet them.

Dip: ❝ And Phil, [Pip: yaass] something I talk about is the importance of having people to support you, [Pip: yeah] and that has been you [Pip: awwwwww] throughout my life. Through the little existential crises [Pip: yeah], you’ve been there feeding me snacks [Pip: I have]. And as annoying as you have been, at least you’ve been there.

Like suuuure I’ll just go to bed and work in 9 hours like my brain isn’t dying.

(I’m fine it’s fine everything is fine I’m an adult)

(I’m sending them my therapy bills)