only time will tell

my favorite animals are apes and monkeys because they are so cool and cute but also i’m black so i can’t even comment on monkey videos anymore fr bc people say such mean and vile and racist things to me . it’s so upsetting. bc my love for monkeys and apes is so pure but the amount of times i’ve had to stop myself from simply engaging with monkey and ape content is so high. it’s so sad i hate it and it’s not a big deal but why should i have to stop just because im black and don’t wanna deal with racism like im so upset these are simple things that make me so angry at the world bc this isn’t fair like at all fr. generally the primate community is full of nice people! but sometimes i get people trolling me in my messages and commenting mean stuff it breaks my heart i can’t enjoy shit ! literally it’s upsetting im already sad i wanna cry LMDAIJ it’s such a non issue but it’s just like upsetting

i can’t think

this will get me stoned but i’m really scared of hasan piker. he scares me. im scared of what he thinks about black people specifically black women. but how someone feels about black women will tell u A LOT about them. non black people are usually OK with black guys the girls either fetishize them or whatever but black women ….. oh …. they sure do fetishize but they will hate crime you instead and treat you like crap or they just hate us. and that one time hasan got online and was mad about someone criticizing how he talks about or doesn’t talk about black ppl i can’t remember the context but he got so mad at that and the way he said black with a capital B L A C K …. I WAS SO SCARED WHY DIS THAT MAJE HIM SO MAD😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

my car accident did traumatize me

tip toeing out my house bc i don’t need my dad to ask me where im going ( he doesn’t care ) but i feel so weird about going to see my friends i always do