my world on pause

You were quiet. You were sincere. You were there. You are kind. You are caring You are gone. I miss your smile. I miss your laugh. I miss you. You were there and always will be. You are gone, but not forgotten. I will always miss you.

How come all high waisted shorts look so uncomfortable.

I look at myself and wonder what achievements have I made in life.

Goal: to do yoga or workout once a day

Feeling down. Even when I try, this relationship is dying.

My mind sometimes lives in the past and wonder about all the what ifs. I wish there was someone I could talk to about this but I feel like everyone around me will judge me. Sometimes I feel alone. I miss that person who would stay up late with me til the sun rises and we could just talk for hours and hours. I miss who we were. But things change and they will never be the same.

Sometimes I wish things were like the good old days where we would talk throughout the night until the sun rises. Where are the good old days? I miss you, even though I shouldn't.

I promised that I will only spend 10% of my paycheck. Thank Buddha, I'm home. No need to worry about spending.