Big TW 17+ pls 🕸

i think the worst part about having bpd is being reliant on another person for your happiness. it’s not their job or responsibility and it’s not fair to put it on them, but it’s like every time they don’t talk to me, every message left on seen, every lackluster reply, anytime i can’t tell whether or not they really love me tears me apart. i’m constantly afraid anytime not spent with me is spent talking about me even after they’ve assured me they aren’t. whenever they’re not with me i’m left with this empty feeling of anxiety and helplessness i can’t escape even through sleep.

Cluster b culture is “I want attention so fucking bad but I can’t ask for it, you have to be obsessed with me on your own”