All the while waiting

Debut: picture to burn - cold as you - Mary’s song

Fearless: fifteen - forever & always - the best day

Speak Now: dear John - last kiss - if this was a movie

Red: all too well - the moment I knew - come back... be here

1989: blank space (!!!!!!) - clean - out of the woods

Reputation: end game - delicate - getaway car

Lover: paper rings - afterglow - cruel summer

Folklore: illicit affairs - august - exile

I’m so proud of Taylor. Miss Americana was all about her history of feeling like she didn’t belong, being trodden on, feeling like she needed to prove her worth.

Reputation was the push back; steeling herself against her enemies, the industry, the haters. The aggression of Reputation was NEEDED for the petals of Lover to bloom. But they were both, with her own flare, on the industry’s terms. In Miss Americana when she didn’t get the Grammy nom and her first reaction was “I need to make a better album”, I cried. I cried because she pours her soul into every lyric and every beat of everything she’s ever released. But not getting the Grammy nomination made it not good enough in her eyes at that moment. There was still that industry scale of success and worthiness weighing on her heart even when her lyrics screamed “FUCK YOU” at Kanye, at Scooter, and everyone else who’s ever put her down. She was still putting herself down.

And now, she’s released folklore with no bang, no drama, no theatrics. Because Taylor, OUR TAYLOR, HER TAYLOR knows her own worth. She knows she deserves her place in the music industry, in the world. Hell, she IS THE DAMN MUSIC INDUSTRY. And it’s so beautiful to see. She is and forever will be the flower that bloomed in the adversity of everything the industry and the world threw at her. And she did it with the sass, and the grace and the confidence of an inspirational human, a human this world, this generation needed.

I feel like I’m a distant cousin or something watching from the sidelines of the family with tears in my eyes. Little fist pump, “you go girl”. I’m so proud. The stars aligned for Taylor Swift to come out here and show us how we should all value ourselves, better ourselves, and just BE ourselves, unapologetically. And I fucking love that for her.

I’m saying that like it’s a new idea. It’s not, it’s an idea-story that has been brewing and delopving in my head for the last 2 years. SO. If anyone has any connections to Taylor Swift /Taylor Nation / her people, I have an idea. A project proposition. It obviously involves music, and me.

Taylor Swift is my favourite person, besides my family, boyfriend and dog she’s the person that I look to, in persona and media, music and everything else. I’ve been a fan of Taylor since I was a 12 year old going into my mums bedroom to annoy her and the Love Story music video was playing whilst my mum did the ironing. She’s the only musical artist I’ve purchased every album for. She’s the first person I followed on Twitter when I was finally allowed social media. She makes me laugh and cry and brings me so much joy when I’m doing long distance drives alone and I just shuffle “Taylor Swift”, all the albums, blasting all her tunes and singing along at the top of my lungs down the M19. And I mean all the side tracks; YES I mean I include Crazier from the Hannah Montana Movie, and Safe & Sound from the Hunger Games, and every other song she’s ever released/performed that’s available in the public domain.

And it turns out mine and Taylor’s lives parallel slightly, because when my mum died of cancer when I was 19 I tried writing to get my words out into the world, and the feelings out of my head and I couldn’t. And then Taylor released Lover, and I listened to Soon You’ll Get Better alone in my car for the first time ever and I had to pull over and cry because I understood everything that she said, I felt everything she felt. I needed to hear that song and I only wish my mum had been alive to hear it too.

So again, I ask, if anyone on tumblr has connections to Tay, or her people, even people who know her people. I’ve only seen her live once, I’ve never been to a secret session. I’m not a lucky person in life generally so I’m not expecting the world - I just have a story, and I can’t put it into words so I need Taylor’s help, musically, lyrically and maybe even a little bit emotionally. I never would have even thought of it had it not been for Soon You’ll Get Better. Because YES she’s an amazing lyricist, always has been? Right? But I understand that feeling, and I think she would understand mine too.

Also, without sounding too much like a superstitious ‘crazy coincidence’ lady - mine and my boyfriends anniversary is December 13th. He wasn’t a Taylor fan before he met me. But I don’t believe in coincidences.