digging a hole

I really miss him on social medias and I hope that wherever he is, that he's having the amazing day he deserves 🖤

I still plan to make a few more artworks before the end of the year but here's what I did so far, I'm kinda proud of myself for managing to make enough artworks this year to be able to make this "challenge". These last couple of years have been really rough, since 2018 probably they got increasingly worse due to personal reasons, my motivation started to lack and I couldn't hold a pen for a very long time both for traditional and digital art, I went through a really long art block and it was painful because I always loved drawing but couldn't do anything at all. Ever since I got into Suede I managed to get my motivation back because I finally found something that gives me enough dopamine to make me able to hold a pen and do something with it, I also managed to increase my drawing skills, if you asked me last year to make portraits like this they would have been awful trust me. The amount of support I get is also amazing, it gives me even more motivation every time people show their appreciation to my works, especially when Suede themselves like my works (so far Mat and Simon liked my portraits I did of them which made me incredibly happy, sadly I can't show my portraits to the other members as they're not on socials but I hope I'll have the occasion to). Which is another reason why I am infinitely grateful to Suede and it's probably one of the few good things that happened to me during this pandemic, I got into Suede and they brought so much positivity in my life I can't imagine how I'd be doing right now without them, probably even worse because they became an anchor I hold on to when I feel like I'm drowning. I am still not doing great, mentally, physically, I am still going through many things and I'm struggling with a burnout and untreated clinical depression in fact I am not doing as much as I would love to, but slowly, one step at a time I will get out of it and I will do better better. We got still a few weeks before the end of 2021 but I wanted to thank you for your support, it means really a lot to me and I'm looking forward to bring you more contents in 2022 and to get more Suede contents as well to share with you all and go crazy after Neil's hairstyles together again 🖤