mileys digital diary

to say I’ve met myself

at this point

and so full

the version of you who fought so hard to get here.

this is suspicious as fuck

How you seemed to me

And now I know guys like you

The age you were at the time

I didn’t understand you until after I left you

And I happened to walk in your footsteps

And sometimes I think of random conversations we had

And I thought I heard you at the time

But now that I’ve lived it on my own

I actually understand what you meant

It’s funny because

I got to know you and understand you and learn you more after you were gone than when I was with you

I got to know who you are

From my own experiences I had alone after you

I lived your life in a crazy way

You will never know

That I ever ended up understanding you

I finally really met you

I see the California license plates suddenly everywhere

the song that comes on: California

why?

it’s because it’s actually getting traction somewhere

and if distasteful to most

I keep going because I’ve found that there are some

who it means a lot to

there are people

who are sitting with these words

525 days clean

and everything was different